Dissection

The hollowness in my chest

He muffles the sound within him, the one suffocating him, the one telling him he has been played, the one drowning him with all sorts of lament, the one telling him he should have sided with his fellow kins, his clan, he should have died alongside them, the one telling him he has made the ultimate bad call, the irredeemable, the undoable choice.

'There must have been another way, You could have left, you and her and Sasuke .. You could have left the wretched village with the entire clan ... You could and could and could'

It no longer matters ..

Only echoes remain .. Unassembled, disembodied

'You are so alone, You are so hollow'


The thought of beating the disease to the final line, winning the race and ending it all with one blow, one stab of a sword is appealing, too appealing for him but he knows he can't escape his past, yet .. Not until Sasuke is strong enough to hold his own ground without someone watching in the shadow.

Sasuke .. The one chip that made the bargain delible.


In those brief moments at night, when the pain spares him and the ailment subdues, when he finally succumbs to sleep and he dreams .. She takes his hand through the valleys of mares, the smell of blood and agonised cries.

He sees her and all the life they could have shared .. He sees her as if she was real ..

And he smiles. He feels thankful, happy and warm.

His heart is filled with joy instead of hollowness & loneliness.

And when he wakes up, he prays that mercy and peace would ascend towards her .. Surround her and fill her heart with mirth and joy as much as her sent genjetsu the only other thing keeping him alive, had done to him.

'Thank you, my friend

Thank you my Love

Thank you Izumi'