Chapter 2
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It took Tamaki weeks to feel completely back at one hundred percent. I think worrying about school wasn't helping him in the slightest bit but I got tired of fighting him about it. He was determined to stay on track even while he could barely keep his head out of the toilet. If he felt even a little better he would go back to studying. Staying true to my promise I helped him the best I could. Psychology wasn't something I knew much about so I could only do so much.
One morning I walked in from showering to see Tamaki sitting up on the bed. He didn't have class until noon so why was he up so early. I know I would still be asleep if I was him.
"I have to do something before class."
"Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, I forget but I have a doctor's appointment this morning. I lost track of the date from school keeping me so busy."
"I can go with you if you want."
"No, it's okay. Please don't take this the wrong way but I want to go alone this time."
Tamaki started to blush as he stopped talking. It was clear he was still uncomfortable about this whole thing, not that I really blamed him. Still it did sting a little that he didn't want me there.
"Fine, but please call me as soon as you get out. Don't make me wait until I get home."
"I promise I'll call you before I go to class."
"Thank you." I leaned over the bed to kiss Tamaki's lips before I had to leave for work. "I love you, don't forget to call me. I'll be thinking about you until you do."
"I love you too, and I will." He smiled as I backed up to turn and leave.
Tamaki loved knowing Kyouya would be thinking about him today. Though he hoped he wouldn't get Kyouya in trouble if he couldn't get his work done.
Tamaki grabbed his school bag before walking out of the house to catch the city bus. Both thought it was stupid to hire a driver or own a car when mass transit was the best choice to get in and out of the city. He figured that would change with the baby but they had time to figure out what they wanted to do. It felt strange to think about them raising a child in the near future. Tamaki knew before this that they would probably try to adopt when they were ready but he never thought they would have a child of their own or even so soon. Kyouya was just turning twenty-one in a couple of weeks after all.
As he sat on the bus to head into the city he couldn't help himself from thinking if Kyouya was mad at him for this. To know he had married such a freak. Sure he told him he wasn't but he could be lying, just trying to keep him happy. Tamaki rested his head against the window as the scenery went by; he had to stop worrying about this. He had always trusted Kyouya before to tell him the truth about his feelings so why would now be any different, not to mention that Kyouya wasn't one to hide his thoughts about something from him.
Getting off the bus he walked down a few blocks, he noticed the university, Kyouya's office and the doctor's office were only a few blocks from each other. That worked; at least he knew he wouldn't have to take a bus to go place to place since they were in walking distance.
Ever since he came back to Japan he started seeing Dr. Yamada whenever he had to see a doctor. There was something about him, a trusting air that surrounded him. While he wasn't his private doctor like most people he knew had he was the only one he saw. Now he was even happier he did, Dr. Yamada had a private office next to the public clinic that he also worked at. When Tamaki walked in an elderly woman was the only one waiting in the room.
"Dr. Yamada should be just be finishing up with his current patient Mr. Suoh."
"Okay, thank you." He watched her check his name off before he turned to sit down. For some reason being here felt strange, foreign. He had been coming here for years and it didn't look like the waiting room had changed at all.
Tamaki hadn't been sitting there for more than a few minutes when the door opened. Dr. Yamada walked out behind an elderly man, he noticed Tamaki sitting in the room.
"Tamaki, good to see you again, please come and get comfortable while I get your chart." As he stood up he noticed his hands were shaking. Why was he so nervous all of a sudden? He walked into the private room to sit near the end of the examining table. He was trying to get his hands to stop shaking though his efforts seemed to do nothing.
"So how do you feel Tamaki?" Dr. Yamada walked back in looking over his chart.
"I feel pretty good."
"The last time we saw each other was September twenty-ninth. I do wish you could have come back sooner. Especially since I warned about what was happening, I wanted to make sure your health didn't decrease from things changing. Your case is extremely rare so I want to make sure you stay healthy and we catch any possible complications right as they happen if any do occur. I do not know how the following months will go for you since they is little data on events such as this. I am sorry for that."
"I figured as much. Well I guess we will have to wait and see how this plays out." He was trying his hardest not to freak out, it was taking a lot of energy to do that though. He had figured out before that the doctor wouldn't have much information for him.
"I do want you to come in at least once a month, if you don't want to come in I'll go to you."
"Okay."
"Also, I want you to take it easy, nothing too stressful and I am very serious about this. If you listen to any of my advice this is the one piece that you should take to heart."
"Okay…does school count? I'm trying to graduate for next month."
"As long as you feel up to it, don't push yourself. Most complications happen the first three months which you are still in so taking it the easiest now is the smartest thing you can do. Not to mention that for your mental as well as physical well-being to stay strong you need to take it easy." He started to take his blood pressure. As he did he noticed Tamaki's hands were shaking.
"Tamaki are you okay? Your blood pressure is at a good level so you aren't shaking from that."
"I'm fine; I'm not sure why they are either. I can't get them to stop right now. I know my right hand starts to shake if I over use it but my left has never done this before."
Dr. Yamada grabbed his hands to see if he could find a nerve that was being pinched.
"I want to see if this stops once you leave, it may just be from nerves. If it doesn't I want you to come back and see me tomorrow understand?"
"Yes sir."
"Good."
As he finished checking his heart and made sure his lungs were clear he asked him to sit back and lounge on the table. Tamaki did as he was told though he tried to read Dr. Yamada's face as he did. He didn't seem troubled, surprised maybe? But by what exactly?
"I need to get the device for the ultrasound, I'll be right back."
Tamaki just nodded as he stared at the wall near him. There was nothing on it yet he couldn't tear his eyes from the cream color. Watching the wall and focusing on his breathing he was determined to get his hands to stop shaking before he left.
Tamaki couldn't decide if he wanted to look at the screen or not. Right now he wished he did have Kyouya come along, he should be here for this. He would have to find a way to make this up to him somehow.
"Tamaki, I want you to take a look at the screen." Dr. Yamada moved over to the side a little more so Tamaki could look at what he wanted him to see. "This right here, though it made be small and hard to see is the fetus, as is this."
"What?"
"Tamaki, according to the ultrasound your expecting twins."
"Oh…My…God."
Tamaki looked at the ceiling in an attempt not to pass out. First, he learned that after twenty one years he may be able to carry a child, than he learned he was pregnant, now he learned he was going to have twins. What next? Actually, he didn't want to know. Why did he have to tell Kyouya not to come, he needed him right now. He needed his strength.
"Do twins run in either of your families?"
"No!" He was hysterical, he couldn't hide it from his voice, not that he was really trying to. At least he wasn't crying; yet.
"Well it isn't uncommon for this to happen, it's just the chance is higher if the parents family history has a history of twins. Now knowing what we do I want you to take it even easier, understand. You're now at a much higher risk for complications, not counting your situation in general." Dr. Yamada could tell Tamaki was getting ready to freak out, not that he blamed him.
"I want you to stay here as long as you need to so I can monitor you while you calm down. Do you want me to call someone for you? Tamaki, I need you to try and relax for me."
Tamaki closed his eyes, trying to focus on his breathing, "No you don't have to call anyone. I'll be fine in a moment." He could tell his heart was racing, it sounded as if it was going to burst out of his chest any second now.
This was a good thing; he was excited, completely scared out of his mind, but excited. Twenty minutes later he opened his eyes, he felt better. Not saying this couldn't happen again once he told Kyouya but he was okay now.
"Do you feel any better Tamaki?" Dr. Yamada was sitting in a chair next to his supply cabinets, it was easy to tell he had been worried about Tamaki's health up until a moment ago when he opened his eyes.
"I feel better yes,"
"Okay, then you are free to go. Don't hesitate to call me if you have questions, concerns, anything. Also here, hand this to the woman at the desk, she will set up an appointment next month for you."
"Will do." He smiled as he slid off the table and took the paper from him. He noticed he was handed an envelope as well. As he walked out he peaked inside to have his smile widen.
Kyouya sat in the little cubicle that was his office. He tried to focus on the paper work stacked in front of him. It was screaming at him to focus and finish it so he could leave on time but he failed to work on it. Why didn't he ask Tamaki what time his appointment was? Waiting to hear how it went was driving him insane.
"Kyouya, are you okay?"
His head snapped around to see Hiroshi standing behind him. Great he was going to get yelled at, just what he needed right now.
"I'm fine sir, sorry for not handing in what you asked for yet."
"Kyouya, can you follow me into my office for a moment?"
"Of course sir." Carefully he stood up to follow Hiroshi into his office, this was not looking good.
"Kyouya, it is easy to see something is on your mind; you have always been a fast and hard worker and today you can't seem to focus. If there is something going on at home or even with yourself please don't hesitate to tell me that you need to leave." Kyouya could tell he wasn't being tested, Hiroshi was generally concerned for him.
"No sir, I don't need to leave, everything is fine. I'm just waiting for a call to confirm that."
"I see, well…" He was going to say something else but he got cut off as there was a knock at his door. When he told whoever it was to enter, a slender frame woman peaked her head through the door.
"Sorry to interrupt sir but, Kyouya, you have a call waiting for you on line two. I have already forwarded it to your line." She closed the door leaving Kyouya to wait for the go ahead to answer it.
"Is that the call your waiting for?"
"I believe so, yes."
"Then by all means please go answer it." Hiroshi shooed him out of the room.
"Thank you sir," He quickly left Hiroshi's office to head back to his little section.
"Hello, this is Kyouya…"
"Kyouya? Oh good this is the right number in my phone. I forget the extension number and it took me forever to reach someone that could connect us."
"Tamaki, how did it go? Is everything okay?"
"Would it be alright with Hiroshi if I showed up so we could talk?"
He stood up to see that Hiroshi was in his office but the door was closed so he couldn't ask.
"It's fine, but Tamaki what's going on? Why can't you tell me over the phone?"
"It will be easier for us to talk in person, I'm about a block away so I can be there in ten minutes about."
"I'll be here."
"See you then."
Kyouya heard the line go dead. Now he was even more worried than he was before Tamaki called.
Tamaki hadn't lied when he said he was nearby. Kyouya jumped up when he heard Tamaki's voice behind him.
"Sorry to scare you…umm…do you think we could talk somewhere in private for a moment?"
"You can use my office Kyouya. Tamaki it is a pleasure to see you again. Glad to see that you are feeling better."
Both jumped a little as they saw Hiroshi now standing next to Tamaki.
"Thank you sir, it's a pleasure to see you again as well. I hate to be a bother while you're trying to run your business. I promise to only keep Kyouya a second."
"Take your time, no need to rush." He led them into his office and adjusted the blinds so no one out in the hall could spy in. He shut the door as he walked out to give them privacy.
"Okay Tamaki, why couldn't you tell me what the doctor said over the phone? Is everything okay? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, the baby is fine, everything is fine. First, I want to apologize to you for not having you come with me. I hope you can forgive me. I was told that I have to take it very easy and can only finish school if I don't push myself too hard and stress out over it." He walked to the other side of the office and stared out the windows that over looked the city. His hands were shaking again; he could feel it even though they were shoved deep in his coat pockets.
"Okay, I'm not really surprised by that; now please tell me why you look nervous. I'm starting to get worried." Kyouya only took a step forward in case Tamaki wanted space.
"I…we…oh why is this so hard!" Tamaki was getting so frustrated with himself, why was he scared to see Kyouya's reaction with what he was about to say?
"Tamaki what is it, please tell me." Kyouya lowered his voice to just barely above a whisper, the way Tamaki was acting made it seem like he was trying to tell him that he wasn't the father. He was getting really scared about what he was hiding. Tamaki still managed to hear his plea as he slowly turned his head to look at Kyouya.
"We are having twins."
"What?" Not he was expecting but he felt relieved.
"That's what everything showed."
"Oh my God."
"Are you upset?"
Without getting a verbal answer Tamaki was grabbed tightly as Kyouya hugged him to kiss him passionately. Tamaki brought his arms around to hug him back.
When they let go of each other and calmed down Tamaki asked something that had been bugging him before when he first arrived.
"Hiroshi, does he know that I'm…?"
"No, I only told him you were sick when I had called out. I won't tell him or anyone until you want me to."
"Not right now please."
"As you wish Tamaki."
Tamaki looked at the clock on the wall and realized he had to leave or he would be late for class.
"Well I'll let you get back to work and I've to go take a test. I'll see you back at home." Tamaki moved past him to grab his backpack, his fingers just missed it as Kyouya pulled him back to kiss him again. When he pulled away Tamaki's cheeks were red.
"See you at home, I love you."
"I love you too."
When Kyouya walked out of Hiroshi's office he saw Hiroshi walking towards him.
"Everything turn out okay?"
"Yes, yes it did.
"Well that's good to hear. I was starting to get worried for you. You had such a concerned look on your face all morning and when I saw Tamaki come in he seemed jumpy."
"Well Tamaki always did like to make me crazy by making me worry over things that were really fine."
Hiroshi started to laugh as he walked back into his office and Kyouya headed back to work on the paperwork he had to finish before he left for the night.
A few weeks later
"The more you fidget the longer I take." Kyouya was standing in front of Tamaki trying to tie his tie for him since Tamaki's hand still had trouble with that task.
"I'm sorry, but I'm still really worried about seeing my parents. I swear my mom knows and that's why she just had to fly out this week. Today was Kyouya's twenty-first birthday and Yuzuru had invited them over to for dinner to celebrate. They both learned yesterday that Annie-Sophie had flown in to celebrate as well and was staying until after the holidays so she could go to Tamaki's graduation next month.
"They are going to find out eventually."
"I know, but, thanks I got it now, it's still strange. And why does it have to be tonight I mean I'm okay with just a simple get together, or over the phone. Over the phone would work for me too." Tamaki looked in the mirror to straighten it out.
"When did you become such a coward, Tamaki? These are your parents for peats sake. Twenty bucks your mother gets all excited as I've seen mothers do on TV and your father...I'm guessing he will be shocked. To say the least."
"Thanks, you're so helping right now." Tamaki rolled his eyes as he turned away. "Oh before I forget." He walked over to his dresser to pull out a gift wrapped box.
"Happy Birthday Kyouya, it was suppose to be an early birthday gift but what I wanted to do I couldn't do on time, and well that plan changed."
"Tamaki, I thought I told you I didn't want anything." In his mind having Tamaki in his life was enough and everything only got better knowing they were going to a have a family together.
"Oh just open it." He sat on the edge of the bed to put his shoes on. Out of the corner of his eye he watched Kyouya.
"Tamaki…I…" he was speechless, all the words he would have used didn't seem to work. "These are pictures from the ultrasound?"
"Yes, I felt horrible that I didn't have you come along and I hope this helps make up for that, if only a little."
Kyouya walked to the edge of the bed and just stared at the pictures. Seeing this made it seem much more real. He was going to be a parent. He was going to raise twins with Tamaki. Their kids, that carried their genes. He didn't know he was crying until he felt Tamaki wrap and arm around him and use the other to wipe the tears from his eyes.
"I love you Kyouya."
"I love you. I love the three of you so much. Thank you for this."
He held Tamaki tightly in his arms. This was incredible, seeing this only made the day so much better, and just knowing he was with Tamaki everyday had made this one of his best birthday's.
"Come on, we should go before we are late." Tamaki pulled away and quickly wiped his own eyes.
"Okay let's go." Seeing that smile on Tamaki's face, he hoped it never faded as time passed. He finally seemed so happy by all that was happening around them.
Tamaki and Kyouya sat across from Tamaki's parents having dinner. The four of them had been joking around since they arrived. It was nice to see Annie-Sophie again, she rarely came to Japan and they hadn't gone to France since they got married.
"René, how is school going for you?"
"It's going. It's become extremely difficult with finals around the corner."
"I'm sure you'll do fine, this seems to be something that you want very badly."
"It is."
"Any ideas what you will do next? When we last spoke on the phone you weren't sure where you wanted to work, yet."
" I am looking into a few places still."
"Well I'm sure you'll love wherever you go." She fixed her posture to look at him better.
"May I ask you something René?"
"Of course mother."
"Are you okay? Your eyes look as if you are in deep thought or troubled by something. I hope you are sleeping well and not stressing yourself over your finals."
Tamaki looked down at his lap; once again he had been betrayed by his eyes. Why did they have to show how he was feeling every time? Well this was going to come sooner or later.
"I'm fine mother. But, there is something Kyouya and I need to tell you, both of you actually." He felt Kyouya grab his hand, he squeezed his hand back thanking him for the support. It felt good to know Kyouya was giving him strength when he felt so shaky.
"What is it Tamaki, Kyouya?" Both could tell Yuzuru was now waiting for someone to say something.
"Well it's just that we…we are going to have a baby."
Kyouya had been right in guessing his parent's reactions. Annie-Sophie gasped in excitement and Yuzuru had dropped his fork on the table, having it hit the plate, clearly that was not the response he was expecting.
"That's wonderful that you both decided to adopt."
"No mother, I think you misunderstood, we are going to have a baby….twins to be exact." Annie-Sophie was on her feet so fast to hug them both.
"Oh that is absolutely wonderful news, isn't it Yuzuru. Congratulations to you both. Is a date set yet?"
"Well, Dr. Yamada is thinking sometime around June fourteenth."
Kyouya quickly counted back the months from June. Suddenly he wanted to smack his head against the table. This was the first time he realized that Tamaki became pregnant from their anniversary, not after like he thought originally.
Annie-Sophie took Tamaki's hand to drag him into the other room leaving Kyouya and Yuzuru alone. For some reason Kyouya always felt awkward when he was alone with Yuzuru, probably because Tamaki had picked up so many habits from him.
"Well congratulations. I bet you were just as surprised then as we are now. And remember we knew that this very slim chance was possible when he was still a child. Though we never thought it would actually ever happen.
"I didn't know about this until I learned he was. Somehow though, Tamaki failing to mention to me that he could get pregnant before he was already seems like something he would do."
Deep down he wished Tamaki had though, he would have been more careful. He wasn't going to tell Tamaki this but he was scared. He didn't feel ready to raise a baby, let alone two. He had never dealt with children under the age of seven before and even then he didn't do much. Would he even make a good parent? He looked over to see Yuzuru sitting where Tamaki had been before. His hand was on his shoulder in support.
"It's tough I know. You are probably asking the same questions I asked myself. I'll bet every soon to be parent asks them. You both are smart so I have faith you will do fine."
"Thank you sir." It was nice to know he wasn't alone with his questions, that it was common to think them.
"Anytime, if you ever need to talk you know how to reach me."
"Thank you sir." Yuzuru stood back up as Tamaki walked back in with Annie-Sophie. He was laughing with her yet it was clear he had been embarrassed by something as his cheeks were now pink. It was great to see him smiling, relaxed. Kyouya would bet anything right now that Tamaki was more than happy that he could talk to his mother again. With his grandmother out of the picture since she passed away last year Tamaki didn't have to worry about her at all.
When they got back home for the night Kyouya noticed Tamaki was sitting, staring out of the bay window. Both loved being close to the city yet far enough so they could see the stairs shine at night. He wasn't just staring out at the sky he was completely lost in his thoughts.
"Are you okay Tamaki? Want to talk?"
Tamaki moved forward so Kyouya could sit behind him. They loved to sit on the window together and look out. Kyouya pulled Tamaki closer to him and locked their hands together around Tamaki's waist.
"I'm just thinking that's all. It's nothing really."
"Please tell me, I hate feel like you're leaving me in the dark again."
He rested his head on Kyouya's chest, "I just keep feeling that I've screwed up, that I have again messed you up like I have before. I feel terrible that I never told you about this sooner, I am so sorry."
"Why do you feel that you have messed me up? And stop apologizing for not telling me sooner, how many times must I tell you that. While yes it would have been nice to know ahead of time I'm not angry. This may have never happened if you had."
"I know!" Tamaki pushed away from Kyouya to stand up and walk over to the bed.
"Tamaki, are you sorry this happened, that you became pregnant?" Kyouya got up but didn't move closer, he could tell Tamaki didn't want to be near him right now. Though he wasn't upset at Kyouya.
"Yes!...No!...I don't know! I mean yes I want a family; I just didn't think it would be this soon. Or that it would be this way! I was hoping to be out of school and working for a few years. I mean I don't even know if I will be able to do this! I mean I was worried that I wouldn't be able to carry one child now I have to worry about two! Not even to mention that I have no idea what's going to happen since no one can tell me anything! I don't even know if I can do this mentally!" He was hysterical again he could feel it, though he was feeling better. Too finally to get off his chest all that was bothering him felt great. He fell to his knees as he slid off the edge of the bed. Kyouya got to him in a second to make sure he didn't fall as hard. With his help they sat on the floor. Whenever Tamaki got upset like this his legs would give out on him.
"Tamaki, don't sell yourself short, you have come such a long way from when you were sick. I can tell that you are so much stronger both mentally and physically. I truly believe that now is the best time for something like this to happen. We are both ready and once you are done with school you can take it easy for as long as you want. Plus, when you think about it everything we have done we did earlier than we originally planned. Getting married, starting our careers and now starting a family, I'm used to things not going as we plan and I believe that is what makes life interesting."
Tamaki rested against the side of the bed to pull his legs close to him, "I'm scared."
"I know; me too. But, we are in this together so it will be okay. Everything will be fine. You'll see."
Tamaki looked at Kyouya's face; he could tell Kyouya spoke from the heart just then. He quickly shifted his posture to pull Kyouya close to him and bury his head into the other's chest while he tightly wrapped his arms around him. "Thank you Kyouya. I love you."
Kyouya brought his arms around Tamaki to hold him close. "I love you too."
Once Tamaki had settled back down they sat on the bed. Tamaki still wanted to cuddle so they just sat together, Kyouya was holding him close just as he wanted.
"Kyouya?"
"Yes Tamaki?"
"I have a favor to ask."
"Anything."
"Can we not tell anyone yet? I mean besides our families. I don't want word to get around just yet. I fear that if a lot of people know the press with involve themselves in this private and personal matter, and I don't want to expose our children or myself to that. We both know they can be ruthless."
"Of course, you make a pretty accurate assumption. I won't even tell Fuyumi just yet. She has a loud mouth and I'm not interested to learn that my father knows."
"That is your call; I won't decide that for you, she is your sister. Also I wanted you to be the first to know that I was offered a job at a behavioral clinic as a therapist."
"That's great, why don't you sound excited though?"
"I don't know, it sounds like it would be a good job. The pay is very good as well but the position is in their creative department."
"But that's right up your alley."
"Well maybe but I haven't played the piano since I was in New York and I was thinking about it. How can I help show people how to express themselves through playing when I really can't play without hurting my hand? You can't really explain how to do something like that without showing them first."
"I can see you finding a way to make it work. Deep down I can tell you want to take the job. I bet your hand is getting better little by little and if you practice playing again you may be able to play. While it may never be one hundred percent it should be enough that you can tolerate playing the piano. I know that you would be happy if you could."
The more Kyouya encouraged him to think more into the offer the better Tamaki was feeling about making it work. He suddenly was in a joking mood.
"Admit you, you only want me to take the job because you miss me playing."
"I do actually. It would be nice to hear you play after all these years; I mean the living room seems so empty since there is no piano there."
Tamaki smiled at him as he snuggled closer. Maybe he would give it a shot, what's the worst that could happen he couldn't play.
"I probably won't take the job. Not unless they are willing to wait a few years since I don't see me running to work as soon as the babies are born."
"That's fine by me; we don't really need to have you work right away. If we play is smart like we have been I should be able to support us on my salary."
"Just promise me you won't overwork yourself Kyouya. If things don't work out I'll find something to help take the load of your shoulders."
"I'll be fine; I can handle doing what I have to for my family. The three of you are everything to me so working a little more or working part time as well if I had to isn't a big deal if it means that we can cover all the important expenses."
"Don't do that, if need be I'll work. Your health is important to us too."
"Well don't start worrying about running to get a job right now. Nothing has to change. I'm just saying that if something major happens I am prepared to do what I have too."
"Well still."
The two laid as they were until they fell asleep. Even asleep their bodies stayed locked together. They truly believed that they had been made for each other. Just like two pieces of a puzzle, they had been made to fit together.
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Chapter 2…this dream is killing me. I mean it is literally killing me. I keep waking up in the morning going 'what the hell.' I am starting to believe that I keep dreaming about this because I love them both so much. I am such a loser :) Well please review and leave your thoughts.
~Femalefighter~
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