I just want to move back to Nevada. I had friends there. I had people who loved me. I had my family. I just wish everything were back to the way it once was, where my mom didn't drive drunk, my dad didn't marry a psycho, or my brother leaving to college and leaving me to drown in my misery.
My dad still hasn't found a job yet…surprise? I mean where in someone's head did they think that moving to New York would solve our troubles…oh Rachel, his wife. Rachel is about my mother's age when she died, 39, while my dad is going on 45. Age is not the problem, she is. She thinks she knows what is best for me and she does not. She literally doesn't know me. Of course, I do not complain because my dad means so much to me. I want him to be happy and if she makes him happy so be it, but doesn't mean I like it.
We have been living in New York for about 3 months now. This also means I have been in that stupid school for about a month. Just in case you are wondering, ever since that second day of school I have not been jumped, and I acquired a decent number of friends, who at least make this new lifestyle more bearable.
We have Serena and Abbie, who are seriously the cutest couple. Then we have the brothers Chester and Nick, different fathers but same mother. Chester is a sophomore and Nick a freshman. Chester and I flirt…a lot. It's been happening with Amanda, too. I am confused about what is exactly happening between me and her… I have a feeling that I am only flirting with her because she is as close as I can get to Alex Cabot...I mean with the blonde hair and blue eyes… however, those glasses, I don't think Amanda could pull that off. I do know that I really like guys but something about being with a girl excites me. I never really told my friends if I questioned my sexuality, but I a pretty sure if I find myself, they won't judge.
I also still haven't told them that I have this huge crush on Alexandra Cabot…Can you blame me? She is supposed to be our worst enemy. Someone we detest, yet I am secretly crushing on her. I am also smart enough not to let the crush be known to Olivia, especially Olivia…I would like to live to be at least thirty.
"Casey, are you with the class?" My biology teacher startled me.
Fuck…Yes I am in class and my mind wonders a lot…I can't seem to pay attention these days.
I nod my head quickly and find that my journal had a bunch of scribbles. Hearts with initials on them. AC+CN and CL+CN and AR+CN…I quickly tore out the page. When did I do that?
"Casey," my teacher caught my attention once again. "Stay after class please. Everyone else dismissed."
What did I do?
Amanda passes by me, "Were you sleeping?" I look up to her face and its full of horror.
Wondering why she made that face I answered no.
"You do realize you just got paired with Alex Cabot for the Science project," my eyes widened, "Yea, that was the expression I was going for…I got to go. I think you should beg not to be paired with…that." She gave me a sad expression and left the class.
I realized that Alex stayed back too. She looked at me and smiled, not the sly smile I seen her give me before but a genuine smile and I stared too long at her to realize that there was a chair blocking my way and I fell over it.
She quickly rushed to my side and chuckled, "Are you ok?" She gave me her hand, then looked out the window and quickly retracted it…I turned too, and noticed her stupid gang laughing.
I quickly got up and headed to the teacher's desk.
She looked at me weirdly and started, "I paired you two because you are the smartest in the class. If I hear of any violence, or bullying, I will make sure you are kicked out of this school." She said sternly and staring at me the whole time as if I am the one jumping kids in the bathroom. "I make myself clear?" She was obviously asking me however, Alex answered "Yes ma'am." I just nodded, shocked that a teacher would be this stupid, then again Alex's dad pays her so I would think most teachers would overlook her bullying. "Casey, you are dismissed. I need to speak with Alex."
I nodded.
How do I feel about working with Alex Cabot? Hmm…I actually don't want to. She's an ass and she is also afraid to be herself. Today I saw another part of Alex, the one that is nice and kind…not the one trying to stay on top. It is sad to see such a person full of love be torn down by hate and would compromise herself to be someone she is not.
I walked out of that room and who was standing outside? Olivia.
"Hey newbie." She smiled slightly. Her hair in a ponytail and a brown leather jacket. She literally has a leather jacket for every day of the week.
I know I am not supposed to speak to the "Non-scholarship" assholes but it just gets harder to shut up, especial when Olivia provokes you.
I tried to get passed her, but she blocked my way again. "I just want to say I am very sorry."
Before I could wonder for what, she slapped my books to the ground and just laughed. Sadly no one was there to see what she did because most kids leave the school building immediately once the bell rings.
Before I even picked them up, I contemplated whether or not to fight back. I didn't fight back… my reason? Well time spent on her is time wasted in my life. I bent down picked up my books and as I got up she was just about to slap them down as Alex came out of the classroom.
Olivia smiled, "Hey babe." She took Alex's hand in hers. I felt a jolt of hatred towards her. Something I never felt before… I was jealous.
Alex smiled back, but it was not the smile I saw earlier. "Let's go." She walked off with Olivia, but she turned back and she looked miserable.
I quietly walked to the back of the school to meet my friends. It's Friday and I am damn sure home is not an option.
"So what she say?" Amanda walked towards me.
"Um…I am working with Alex Cabot." I walk past her, towards Abbie's car.
"So where are we going today?" I mostly direct that question at Nick and Chester, because they seem to know the whole city.
They look at each other and smile, "Nick and I want us all to go on a mission…TP-"
"Alex Cabot's house!" Nick finishes and starts laughing.
Abbie stares at them like she usually does, eyes narrowed and head shaking of disapproval, "Um…no."
"Babe, as immature as that sounds… I want to do it." Serena literally could make Abbie do anything…I sometimes wonder does Abbie love Serena more than Serena does Abbie.
"I am in too." Amanda said from behind me.
"I guess I am in," Abbie smiles at Serena and lifts her hand to her lips.
Every stared at me. As weird as this sounds, Alex Cabot doesn't deserve that.
"Why not Olivia?" I asked.
Everyone smiled even brighter, "I like how you think," Serena held up her hand for a high five.
Today we are going to TP Olivia Benson's house.
AN: Sorry for the late post I have been a little busy. I will totally try to catch up to my other stories, but for now, I am frozen, sadly. Nevertheless, tell me what you think about this chapter and review. Thanks :)
