Jay had been alive when they brought him inside...barely. But he had been alive. The wait had only been an hour but it seemed like an eternity and Erin tried to contain her tears as she knew they would be waiting for hours.

''We are called back to the district.'' Voight said and Lindsay shook her head.

''I am not going back.''

''There is nothing you can do for him right now.'' Antonio explained. He had been through this before and he knew how hard it was to leave your partner in the hospital, not knowing how they were.

''He is gonna be okay, Erin.'' Olinsky tried to comfort her.

''He was shot in his head, I might lose him!'' She snarled at them. She was so scared...so scared.

''I know how i feels, leaving your partner behind in the hospital, not knowing how they are doing but there is nothing you can do for Jay right now.''

No, there was nothing she could do for him now. If only she had seen the other man in the building fast enough, then Jay wouldn't be shot. There was nothing she could do now but wait.

''He is not just partner...we have been in a relationship for a few weeks.'' She cried then and the others looked at her, surprised and full of sorrow. Voight looked down at the floor. He had tried to stop their relationship because he was afraid Erin would get hurt...but he could not stop this. Antonio looked down to the floor as well. He wished he could congratulate then on their relationship. He was so happy for them, but right now there was nothing to say. As she stood there, leaning against the wall and almost crying, a nurse approached them.

''He is in surgery...we are not sure if he will make it through. Are his parents here yet?''

Voight stood up and walked away to talk to the nurse, to ask for more details regarding the procedure and the injury while Antonio pulled Lindsay against his shoulder, whom was crying after the update. She was going to lose him...

''He is going to make it through, he is going to be okay. Maybe they think he is not going to make but they don't know Jay yet! He is strong Erin, you know that.''

Voight walked after the nurse and nodded. ''So...be honest.''

''Be honest about what?''

''Is he going to make it through or not.''

''We don't know honestly. He could make it through...but his brain is damaged because of the bullet. We are not sure if he even will even wake up. We will put him in a medical induced coma so the swelling in his brain can go down...but there is a chance he might never wake. Even if he wakes up, he will never be the same anymore. He will never function again like he did.''

Voight moved his hand over his mouth, horrified by what the nurse just said. It was so unfair. It shouldn't have been Jay. It shouldn't have been anybody.

Slowly he walked back and Erin looked up to him. He sat down next to her while Antonio stood up to get something to drink.

''Antonio, you can go to the district, Olinsky and Ruzek are finishing the case there. I will stay here with Erin.''

Antonio nodded. It was not easy leaving a coworker behind like this, but he knew they had to finish the case and slowly he left the waiting room, nodding at Erin one last time, promising her he was sure Jay was going to make it through.

Voight looked at Erin and she looked to the ground.

''What did the nurse say?''

''He is still in surgery and after that they are going to keep him in coma for a while, so his brain can recover from the blow and the swelling can go down...he is going to be okay, Erin.''

Yes, he lied. He lied. He knew Jay would never be okay again but he couldn't tell Erin, afraid she couldn't handle the bad news. She nodded, relieved. Jay was going to make it through.

''Do you know if he is close to his parents?'' Voight asked then, because maybe it was easier if his parents would tell her if they were close to her.

''Not really, I only know they live in Missouri and he only sees them with Christmas. So I guess they are not really close.'' Erin said, thinking that he told her he hated to go to Missouri with Christmas as all his friends lived here, not in Missouri and he wanted to celebrate Christmas together with them.

''We should try to reach out to them though. He is their son, they must be worried...and if something goes wrong, they must be here.'' Voight said and Erin nodded.

''I will try to contact them. Do you have his phone?''

She nodded and handed him his phone. Voight stood up and walked away and Erin looked around the empty ER again, shivering. She felt so cold inside. This couldn't be good. Voight said he was going to be fine but she didn't believe him. She wished she could but she knew what damage a bullet could do in a head.

She laid her head against the wall, trying to sleep in the hope that time would pass faster, but it didn't work and she sat up again. Looking at the clock she realized they were already here for the two hours and she rubbed through her eyes.

Voight joined her again. ''They are on their way here.''

They sat in silence for another 50 minutes when a doctor approached them.

''Mr. Halstead has been brought to the ICU now.''

''Can I see him there?'' Lindsay asked.

''We are monitoring him very closely. Maybe it's a better idea to come back tomorrow doing visiting hou-'' When she saw the woman's urging and almost begging face she winked her to come with her.

''Just 1 visitor for a few minutes.'' She said and Voight nodded at Erin as she followed the nurse. The ER was not far from the ICU and she walked through the empty hallway to the room in to the back.

''Can I go in?'' She asked as she saw the medical staff swarming around the bed but the nurse shook her head and Erin looked through the glass wall. She couldn't barely see Jay in the bed under all the wires. His head was wrapped in a thick layer of bandage, tubes and wires going into the bandage as well and when she saw the ventilator next to his bed she started to cry. This was not true, she had to wake up! She was in another nightmare.

''We placed a small metal plate in his head and we are hoping the swelling goes down soon, so we can MRI him properly and we know the damage.''

Erin looked aside at her, shocked.

''But...Voight spoke to a nurse and he said he is going to be okay.''

''I am sorry, he will never be the guy again you once loved.'' The nurse said sorryful, sorry for the girl that she had been lied to. She laid her hand against the glass and wished she could hold his hand, kiss him all over his face and that he would wake up.

''We will keep him in a medical induced coma for four days...if the swelling is down then we will try to wake him up then. Hopefully he will wake up.''

How could Voight lie to her like that. No! Jay was going to be okay! Within a month he would be sitting next to her in the car again and he would get mad again because he wasn't allowed to drive. They would pick up breakfast again by the restaurant just around the corner because they didn't want to leave their beds and each other. Platt would annoy him again and be very kind to her,wich annoyed Jay even more than Platt's annoying of him. Voight would freaking make his life miserable now they knew that they were a couple.

Voight! She looked at Jay one last time and thanking the nurse she ran back to the ER. Voight stood there, ready to comfort her if needed but instead she pushed him away.

''You lied to me about Jay!?'' She yelled angry and he tried to grab her, hug her and apologize but she pushed him away again.

''How could you lie to me about that?!'' She yelled angrily.

''I didn't lie! I just didn't want you to be upset.''

''Jay is seriously injured and he is never going to fully recover and you didn't want me to get upset!? I trusted you Voight!'' Lindsay yelled angrily and some of the people waiting in the ER looked at them, startled by the loud yelling.

''Erin!'' He said as she walked past him, outside and he followed her.

''Erin! I am sorry!''

''You shouldn't have lied to me.'' She cried as she walked to her car, only take her wallet out of it and Voight closed her in.

''I shouldn't, I am sorry. I am sorry you have lose Jay.''

''I am not going to lose him. He will be okay! He is strong!'' Lindsay said, stubborn but she tried not think about what the nurse had said. What if he really would change? She had heard about people's personality changing drastically after an injury to the head. What if Jay would really have changed?

''Come, I'll drive you home. You are in no state to drive.'' Voight said but Lindsay shook her head.

''I am staying here tonight.''

Before he could object she walked back inside and she walked to the vending machine, taking a bottle of water and walking back to the ICU. She acted like it was okay she was there and she tried to open the door to his room, but then she saw the paper on his door. No entry before disinfecting and hopeless she turned around.

Slowly she sat down on the cold floor in face of his room and she looked at him, laying motionless and broken in the bed. She didn't lose him but she was gonna lose him. He was not the Jay she knew anymore and she had to prepare for that...but she didn't want too. She wanted Jay.

No she promised him to never give up on him and she couldn't give up on him now!

She stood up and walked back to the glass, laying her hand against the cold surface again. She could only see a small part of his face because of the bandage and the tubes, but he still seemed there. Her Jay.

''I am sorry, he will never be the guy again you once loved.'' She heard the nurse speak again in her head and she started to cry.

She could no give up on him!


NOTE: Poor Jay, Poor Erin. Are they ever going to be together again? Will he wake up and will he have changed? Can he recover against all odds and what will his parents be like? If it doesn't just break up her and Jay, does is also break her and Voight's trust for each other?

I hope you liked this chapter. Thank you so much for the good reception of the first chapter. I am really glad you like the idea of this. I hope you still do after this chapter.

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