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A/N: Wanted to give you an EPOV from Seducing the Change. Hope you like it!
EPOV
God, I loved this woman. I never thought we would be here, after everything we had gone through. Dealing with my overwhelming desire for her blood was one of the hardest things I have ever done. The other was trying to deny my physical attraction to her. After I was able to control my bloodlust, I was shocked to find how hard it was to control my arousal when I was around her.
She was a goddess, everything I could have ever wanted in a woman. I had spent 109 years on this earth, seeing millions of women. I had never desired another as I do my Bella. She is everything to me. The sweetness of her voice, the fragrance of her skin, it calls to me like no other. I had spent my entire existence surrounded by happy couples, thinking that I was doomed to spent eternity alone. Then she walks into my biology class, and my world spins out of control.
We worked so hard to be able to have a physical relationship. I told her I would try, after our wedding. I was petrified. How could I control myself when I was so wrapped up in the sensations of my Bella? I practiced holding an egg while I pleasured myself. I thought that if I could not crush the egg, I might be able to do the same with her. The egg was scrambled every time. She just kept reassuring me that when it was her it would be different.
I found I was able to control myself with our lovemaking, but only after destroying several pieces of furniture. Bella still laughs about waking up covered in downy feathers after I accidently ripped our comforter while she was having a very erotic dream. How could she blame me? She was moaning and calling my name while writhing around on the bed. When her hand slipped under her panties, my hands gripped anything they could to keep from touching her. There were times I really loved not being able to sleep. That night ranked high on my list!
I could tell as the time passed that she was anxious for me to change her. She complained daily about crow's feet and sun spots. I could not see much of a difference, but she was adamant that she be changed soon. Alice had been warning me for years that Bella was itching to become one of us, but I had been ignoring her. A part of me was hoping she would finally get fed up with my dawdling and go to one of my siblings, asking them to do it. I was terrified that I would not be able to stop and kill my precious girl.
Our move to New Hampshire was exciting for both of us. We were finally living on our own, but my family was never too far. I had been dodging calls from Alice for weeks, knowing that she was calling to tell me the same thing.
"Edward, you really need to do something. She is getting very impatient. She will end up doing something drastic like jumping off a cliff if you don't do it soon." She said on her last voicemail.
I knew she was planning something. The tips of her ears would always tinge pink when she was lying to me. I could only hope that she knew what she was doing. She would be the only member of my family who had been changed by choice. I am not sure I would have ever freely chosen this life for myself, but I was thankful everyday for otherwise I would never have found Bella.
I was at Dartmouth all day, making sure I had a plan to get out of every building in case the sun decided to come out while I was in class. Thankfully there were lots of underground access tunnels that I could use to get from one place to another. The woods were also close enough that if I had to make a run for it, I should be able to leave without detection. I stopped off on the way to hunt, rushing through it, anxious to get home.
I would hear Bella's elevated heart beat as soon as I walked up the front steps. She was up to something. The rose petals on the floor confirmed my suspicions. I followed the trail to the bedroom, moving faster as I caught the familiar scent of vanilla and lilac. I stopped in my tracks as I got to the open door. Bella was nude, gloriously nude spread out like a feast on the bed.
"Bella……what are you doing?" I asked, hoping my overwhelming desire was not apparent in my voice.
"Hello Edward, welcome home." She crooned touching the spot next to her on the bed.
It was too much of a temptation, so I walked slowly over to the bed and stood above her, enjoying the view. "Bella, what is going on?"
"I missed you and wanted to surprise you by showing you how much I love you." She breathed. My cock was straining against my zipper by now, and I could tell by her panting breaths, she knew exactly what she was doing to me.
"Oh precious girl, I missed you as well." I said, not recognizing my own voice as I stroked the bare skin of her leg.
She got up on all fours and stalked over to me. She had never been the one to initiate sex before, as much as I wished she would. I always thought she was shy, so I took command. It was one of my fantasies that she would take charge and use me for her pleasure. I was hoping I would be getting my wish tonight.
"Edward, I want to undress you." She whispered as she crawled up my body, pushing my coat off my shoulders. Her nimble fingers went to work on the buttons of my shirt, her warm fingers stroking my flesh. I loved how my skin would warm as she touched me.
She flopped down onto her stomach, making quick work of the button and zipper of my pants. They slid down my legs to the floor and I stepped out of them and my shoes. She rolled over onto her back, her muscles flexing. She looked up at me, her pupils dilated in desire. "Edward, I need you …. Please."
A noise bubbled out of my throat as I closed my eyes. I knew if I were to watch her I would not last long. She took that as an affirmative and pushed my boxer briefs down my legs. It was infinitely more sensitive to experience this without seeing it. I jumped when her tongue snaked out and caught the moisture that was seeping from my cock. My fists clenched, trying to hold onto some semblance of control. I could smell the moisture covering Bella's thighs. It was taking every ounce of my control not to dive into her gloriously wet flesh.
She took my length into her mouth, moving her hands around to my ass, encouraging me to thrust into her mouth. I had mastered my control with her years ago, but always worried about being too rough. She suctioned harder around my shaft and I knew I was fighting a losing battle. I gently thrust into her mouth, earning a moan from my girl. I opened my eyes briefly, but had to shut them after seeing those lips wrapped around me while she wriggled on the bed, rubbing her thighs together.
I could not stop my hand as it floated over her smooth stomach, hoping she would be distracted enough that I could get some payback. She popped off my cock and rolled over and onto her knees.
"No, no Edward. This is my night to do with you what I want." She said. "Now, lay down here."
I glared at her, but did as she asked, aroused beyond belief. She moved up my body until she was resting with her knees straddling my thighs. The wetness leaking from her was coating my thighs and I gripped the bedspread to stop myself from touching her. This was her night, I would do what she wanted.
"I love you, with everything I have." She breathed.
"And I you, precious girl." I replied, as always.
She attacked my mouth, dueling with my tongue. She knew to stay away from my teeth, but explored every other part of my mouth. She started to grind her pelvis down onto mine, her warm arousal covering my entire cock. She sat up as she positioned herself over my cock, sliding down in one smooth movement. I could not resist holding onto her hips to keep us joined. She was so hot and wet.
"Relax baby, just enjoy. I wanted to show you how much I love you." She moaned, moving my hand from her hips to her glorious breasts. She started to move, riding me like a horse. I could feel every inch of her sliding over my cock. I don't think I had ever been as hard as I was tonight.
Her walls started to squeeze around me, signaling she was close. I tugged at her nipples, trying to coax her orgasm out of her. Her body started to tremble, her breath coming faster and her heart sounding like it would explode out of her chest. She arched her head back, her long hair brushing my thighs behind her. She rode out her climax and brought her head back up, her satisfied eyes meeting mine. I could not hold back and thrust my hips up into her, tossing my own head back as I growled and released into her.
I was so distracted after my climax I did not notice what Bella was doing. It was not until I felt her body jerk around me that I looked back up at her. The smell of her spilled blood rushed through my body as I looked at the weapon protruding from her chest. If I still had a heart, it would have stopped dead at the sight before me. Alice had been trying to warn me of this, and now I was glad I had never answered her calls. I would never have been able to let Bella do this. The pain must have been excruciating.
"No Bella, what have you done?" I said, unable to get my voice louder then a whisper.
"I need to be with you forever, and I was tired of waiting." She said, the pain evident in her voice. I hated that I would be the one to inflict days of burning pain, but she had left me no choice.
I gently flipped her onto her back, hovering over her. "You will be with me forever now, precious girl." I said with love as I brought my mouth to her wrist. She started to fade as I bit her on both wrists and thighs, hoping to inject as much venom into her as quickly as I could.
"Beautiful Bella, we will have forever when you wake up." I said into her ear before I put my mouth to her throat and pierced her skin, marking her as mine forever.
The next three days were agonizing. It was hell to know how much pain she was in. I tried to distract myself by reliving our entire relationship. I could tell that the sound of my voice was soothing to her, so I talked for hours.
I spoke of the first time I saw her.
I told her how proud I was to see her graduate from high school and add her mortarboard to our ever growing collection.
I recalled how amazing she was as she held my hand on her first day of college.
And I told her how beautiful she was when I walked into our bedroom to find that she had taken charge and forced my hand.
She opened her eyes and I could see our love reflected back in her maroon eyes.
"I love you." She said, her voice flowing over me like silk.
"And I you, precious girl. Forever." I said.
