Chapter Two
I'm Gone
Once the bell rang, i got up, and left. Not listening to the people yelling my name. No i didn't need friends, because friends were ass's. They'd stab your back, and make you cry, and yes could make you happy, but not forever, and i'd rather feel numb, and empty for the rest of life then happy, and hopeless. To have my dreams crushed, and my world broken. I already had that once and i didn't want that again.
I went to the planetarium, a place I went to when i was in elementary. The broken, and beat down building was a place i went to when i needed it. Which i'm sure i'd need it for the rest of this school year. I took out my bento, and started to eat, humming the lyrics to the song nothing by the script.
I pulled out my phone and played the song. The lead singers voice making me smile. He had a amazing voice, and he was hot, plus he was irish? i think or was it Scottish? eh who cares.
"Still listening to shit like that?" a familiar voiced asked from behind. I jumped, then turned to see Ikuto staring at me, while leaning against a wall. "Its not shit, and yes. Still in school i see, weren't you supposed to graduate last year?" i asked, taking a bite of my roman.
"Maybe i was, but i've slacked a lot lately. So Amu why are you back?" he asked, tilting his head, and walking over to me. I packed up my bento and stood up. "
My father was offered his job back. Now if you'll excuse me i have to go" i said, about to walk out of the planetarium, but he grabbed my arm, and looked at me. I tried to pull away, but he just held me. "Is this how you get girls now? you hold them against their will when obviously their disgusted with you" i sneered. Pulling my arm away, and walking out the door this time.
As i walked down the halls everyone was looking at me, their eyes piercing me, burning a hole in my head, and making me feel a tad uncomfortable. I kept walking, making my way to the music room. That was my next period, band, and band technically was like chorus in a way to, because this band held a singer part, but i had to also play another instrument for other occasions. Which was fine because i can play piano. When i walked in, all the girls were trying to get some guys attention. The guys were trying to get the girls attention, but they didn't talk to them, because they were busy drooling over some guy.
"Alright kids, take a seat!" the teacher said, everyone ran to a seat, exposing that the boy the girls were surrounding was Tadase. He saw me then motioned for me to sit next to him, but Saaya beat me to it, so i sat in the far left corner. "We have a new student, and her name is Hinamori Amu. She is taking the piano and singing position, so everyone welcome her with open arms" daggers were shot my way by all the girls.
The guys though, they started drooling over me "she is going to come, and sing a song for us, so we can get a true feel of her voice" he said, motioning for me to come up. I nodded, walking over, and standing by him. "I'll be singing House Of Gold by Twenty One Pilots" i said,She asked me. I asked the ukulele guy to start playing, along with the violinist (which ironically was Ikuto) and drummer. Then walked to the piano, and began to sing.
"Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"
She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"
I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.
Let's say we up and left this town,
And turned our future upside down.
We'll make pretend that you and me,
Lived ever after happily.
She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"
I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.
And since we know that dreams are dead,
And life turns plans up on their head,
I will plan to be a bum,
So I just might become someone.
She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"
I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease."
Once the song ended, everyone was standing, clapping, and some whistling. I bowed, staying by the piano.
"That was lovely, truly one of the most talented singers we've had here at Seiyo Academy" he said. Saaya began to get angry, because she thought she was the best as always the voice said. I chuckled to myself, causing some people to give me strange looks, i shrugged them off. Slouching into my seat, doing my absolute best to disappear like always the voice said.
It was true though, i always tried to disappear, and i was a master at it.
The bell rang, and i was the first out the door. Grabbing my bag, then speed walking out of the school. "Amu!" i turned to the sweet familiar voice. Standing behind me, panting, was Tadase. He had grown, his hair still looked the same so did his face, i mean it looked a little different, more manly i guess? he was taller, much taller, and his voice had deepened. Like seriously you could totally tell puberty hit him well.
I forced a smile on my face. Looking into his beautiful purple eyes. "Yes Tadase?" i asked, trying to sound happy. "You don't have to pretend around me Amu" he whispered, walking down a path, gesturing for me to follow. "Okay" i said, sighing, then going back to normal. "Why did you ignore my calls? i thought we were good friends maybe even more, but then you randomly stopped answering my skypes, calls, even texts, texts Amu i don't even have to look at you or anything to text you!" he said, sitting down on a bench.
I know he was trying to hide it, but he was frustrated. "Remember when i told you i was going through some tough stuff?" he nodded, so i continued " my parents sent me to Rehab, and then once i got back. I realized all the depression i was feeling, all the pain that was going on. Was because i couldn't let go. Tadase i cried every night before i went to bed, then once i dropped everything linked to Japan, i was almost normal again." He looked at me shocked. "Thats why i stopped contacting you, and i think i should continue it that way" i said, getting up, and walking away.
He grabbed my arm, looking at me with pleading eyes. "The last seven months without you have been hell Amu. I've been a emotional roller coaster thats keeps turning. So no please don't leave, and do that all over again" he said, his grip on my arm tightening. "Don't leave again" he whispered, a tear falling from his eyes.
I sighed, my heart clenching at the sight. I slowly pulled away, then hugged him. "I'm sorry i haven't been my old self, and i probably never will be that girl again, but if you want me to, i'll stay, and i'll try to be your friend again" i said, burying my face into his neck. His sweet scent drifting into my nose. Your falling again, i tried to ignore the voice, to shut it out, but it was right. I was falling again, and i would never be able to get back up.
