Emma ran through the dark night, ofcourse it started to pour. She wore a red tank top and a jean skirt with a black 3rd sleeve sweater so tried to lift that sweater over her head to save her from the rain.
The Dot's bell rang as Emma dove into the diner.
The lights were dim, maybe there was something wrong with the electricity. Storm must be coming. Emma didn't care, she just needed to think, be alone.
"Hi..Emma.." she heard a small, quiet and almost sad voice.
She glanced up to see Spinner. He held a dry tea cup, must of been drying it with the towel in his other hand, but now he was frozen, just staring at her.
Right, he thinks he was at fault for Rick dying, Jimmy's shooting..etc.
Emma just fixed her sweater back on and whipped her wet hair to the side and sat in a booth.
She glanced one more time over, he was still staring, but infront of him sitting at the counter was Jay. The guy didn't even turn and look at her, he just played with a spoon in his cup, she couldn't see his face.
'they could only hold him for 5 years'
Fuck her! Fuck her family for not warning her, he could be out there! Living NEAR her, maybe even going after another little girl like her.
"You want anything?" Spinner asked, more loudly and sincere now, like he was trying to hard. It scared Emma though, she jumped and the knife and fork near her hand fell on the ground.
"sorry, sorry." Emma muttered quickly, trying to get herself together, she went to grab it but saw her hands still shaking.
God she was a wreck.
"It's okay, I got it." Spinner insists, bending down. That's when Emma finally saw Jay's face, he was now behind the counter, helping himself to a muffin. He was unwrapping it when he finally snuck a glance at her from the corner of his eyes.
He held his gaze on her for a moment with an unreadable look.
He then turned and sat back down in his spot.
You know how girls around their crushes, hearts beated really fast? She didn't get that with Jay, not that she was inlove with him AT ALL, but she was just saying...it was wierd, right? Her heart was beating in fear just seconds ago but when she saw him, it calmed her down, she felt back to normal.
As normal as she could be.
"Emma?" Spinner spoke up and she glanced out, he was tilting his head like trying to get her attention. Oh god, did he say her name twice?
Probably wondering what you want, get your mind back Emma, don't let Jordon do this to you.
"Just hot chocolate." She ordered.
"Cool." Nodded Spinner, he went to turn but asked a bit embarrassed, "Say Em?..."
Emma looked up oddly, even Jay looked over his shoulder at Spinner weirdly.. why was HE calling HER Em?
"What?"
Spinner pointed toward the counter Jay sat at, "Would you mind sitting up at the counter? You don't have to talk to me, or us." He corrects, glancing back at Jay, Emma rolled her eyes, he went on, "But uh.. just cause I already cleaned the booths. We're about ready to shut down."
"Oh." Emma states, looking around. That's why no one was here and the lights were dimmed.
She got up and slowly walked over, Spinner leading her.
I am NOT sitting next to Jay, she said in her head. She then sat one stool over.
She wasn't sure if she imagined it but she heard a slight snicker, she narrowed her eyes at Jay as he took a sip of his water bottle.
It was quiet as they listened to Spinner make her drink. He finally laid it infront of her and all Emma could do was dumbly look at it.
Spinner had to ask.
"Are you okay?"
Emma looked up, alarmed and embarrassed, she flushed and saw the newspaper sitting on the counter, between her and Jay.
"Did you read this?" She almost snapped at Jay, grabbing the newspaper.
Jay turned his head at her and gave her a crazy look, "Not my kind of book, if you really must know." He taunts, seeing her over reaction.
But now he was curious.
He eyed Emma and then the news paper, what was in it that she was so worried about?
Emma saw that curiousity look in his eyes, he always gave her that look. Well, use to. Anyways, she knew him better than he thought and as she still glared at him, she ripped the front up.
Jay looked her once more in the eye as she did this and just snickered at her and looked to Spinner who eyed Emma rather closely.
"I know what you need." Spinner said calmy and sternly.
Emma gave him an insane look, "What?" she snapped. Please, tell her! She's dying to know what could ever make her feel good, feel NORMAL, ever again.
Emma couldn't believe it, she was in the back of the Dot sitting on boxes with Jay and Spinner, smoking a joint.
"Emma Nelson smoking weed, I've never seen you sink so low." Joked Spinner, lighting it for her and passing it to her.
Emma went to take a hit but paused, did she really want to do this?
She glanced up to look at Jay, seeing that 'you won't do it' smug look on his face. Emma glared famously at him again and took a hit, she grabbed her chest and coughed up a bit.
Spinner laughed out loudly and Jay shook his head, grinning.
"I'm hanging out with you guys right?" Emma taunted and passed it back to Spinner.
"She jokes.." Spinner joked back and took a puff, then to Jay.
Emma watched Jay easily inhale it in, no coughing. The smoke, in almost a beautiful way, exhaled from his nose and then because he took such a big toke, he let it exit his mouth, aiming it up in the air.
Emma squinted her eyes, eyeing Jay closer. He was this mysterious, damaged misfit boy, who for some reason, could look beautiful still. Unlike her, no one knew his business, what pained him, Emma deep down had to admit.. she wanted to know badly what his past was like. What made him so bad and broken? And how did he hide it so well?
Emma wished she could hide her mess and pain as good as he could
Emma looked at Spinner. And he was just easy to pin point, his emotions just filled his eyes and face, always knew what he was feeling. An easy going guy, an average boy, nothing that bad has happened to him because there was a light in his eyes. Hope.
Emma watched Spinner go back into conversation, "Besides.. weed is plants right? You love plants dontcha Nelson?" laughed Spinner.
Emma rolled her pretty brown eyes, retrieving the joint again from Jay. She tried very easily not to touch his fingers. As she took a hit she tried not to blush when she caught him eyeing her for that.
She tried to ignore him and said to Spinner, "Very funny, glad to see during this little phase of yours you haven't lost your humor."
Phase as in getting kicked out of school for that shit they did.
"Not a phase." Muttered Spinner, looking down, "Everyone hates me." He looked as if he was about to cry. Even Emma saw Jay roll his eyes.
Why pity something that's in the past if you truly regret it and didn't really aim that gun yourself?
"Who cares what they think about you when you never think about them?" Emma asked Spinner.
Spinner looked up from the ground and eyes her.
Very true.
"Deep." Jay finally spoke huskily and Emma tilted her head in a 'shut up' playful position. Jay just smirked and took the joint back from her.
Emma felt it already, the way you feel your bodies almost floating because your so high, how all your thoughts jumble together.
Wheres Jordon? How could mom do that? Why does my life suck? Does anyone see me slipping? I can't believe I just smoked pot. Will Jordon come back for me? I hate my mom. No. I love her. I hate my life. I want to crush anything that tries to make my life more miserable, scratch that, I want to kill anyone who made me the way I am now.
Emma then blinked and sat straight. Woah! Where did that come from?
No more weed. Time to go.
"I got to go." Emma said, standing up and nervously putting both sides of hair behind her ears.
"You trippin? Enjoy it!" exclaimed Spinner with a laugh looking to Jay who just glanced at him and eyed Emma.
Emma shook her head no, "Not right now, too paranoid now." She admits. Weed was a bad choice!
She looked around frantically for a door.
"Emma." Said Spinner, seeing her wanting to run and looked as if, also hide.
"No, I have to go." Emma confirmed, snapping at him and saw the back EXIT door.
He watched her try to open it, he locked it already though, she banged it harder, "Jesus, just sit, breath and calm the fuck down!" he yelled as Jay got up.
"Open the door!" She yelled back at him, whipping around just as two big, rough hands cupped her smooth face.
"Hey" came Jay's voice.
Emma blinked twice or maybe three times, trying to resist those eyes but finally stared back at Jay who stared her down.
"Breath." He softly yet sternly told her, her breathing calmed down and she let her body quit being to tense, his thumbs slowly rubbed her temples as he cupped her face, "Breath..." she closed her eyes and finally relaxed.
Spinner took a big hit, eyeing the scene weirdly. These two had a fucked up friendship/enemyship .
When Emma opened her eyes she heard Jay finally open the door for her. She watched him not even look at her, just glance at Spinner and mention, "I'll see you later." Before tugging her hand out of the door.
She didn't ask questions, just followed him to his car. Orange civic, still! Ofcourse.
Emma just stood there, eyeing the car as if it was their old disease when he opened the passanger door for her.
He rolled his eyes, "Get in." She sighed but did so.
As he drove out of the parking lot, he took the farmiliar way back to her house. Home, he was taking her home.
"No! Please don't!" Emma was panicking again, "Don't take me home!"
Jay narrowed his eyes at her, she felt like he just knew. She panicked more and bit her lower lip. He seemed to gaze at her lip and frusteration and nervous reactions.
"What's wrong with you?" he seemed to just blurt out.
Emma leaned back on her seat and crossed her arms. Fuck him! He wasn't Mr. Perfect either.
"Just drive me to.." she drifts. God. Who the hell did she even have? Manny lived with her so couldn't do that. "Jts." She blurted any name that came into mind.
She watched Jay roll his eyes. Well, sorry she's such a damn burdon!
"Your losing your mind and you want to go stay the night at Yorkeys?" Jay asked with a bitter snort, watching the road again as he drove.
Wait a minute, he was jealo- no, they weren't like that. Not anymore. They weren't even 'that' back then..
"He's a better friend than you'll ever be." Emma taunted back.
Not really true. Jt was never around anymore. Didn't hang with Toby, just because he use to hangout with Rick. He was a terrible friend actually... here Jay was, for reasons unknown, able to calm her down now driving her wherever she wants to go.
Jay corrected Emma playfully, "You'd ever. Because we aren't.." Jay pauses, passing her a taunting look, "and were ever, Friends." He shot back.
"Fine for me." Emma snapped.
"Good." He said with a slow grin appearing on his face.
"Great!" Emma shot back louder, more annoyed and glared out the window before muttering, "Turn left."
Jay got closer and finally made it to JT's driveway, they sat their for a moment until Emma clicked the seat belt off, still in a huff.
"I'm going." She decided to let him known though.
He usually would of just laughed at her, almost in a cute way, but he seemed deep in thought until those piercing eyes burned into hers, she couldn't even look away
He spoke brutually honestly, "Even though I haven't seen you in months and we aren't friends, you did use to come to me when you were upset, I know when your upset and your upset right now. It's eating you away, so what is it?"
His curiousity and concern was a bit much for Emma, where did that come from?
And what makes him think she would tell him her most embarrassing HUMILIATING news?
She opened the door while sneering at him, "I think we both learned our lesson of me going to you when I have a problem." She spat and went out, slamming it shut as hard as she could.
Asshole!
How dare he!
Jay tightened the grip on his wheel as he watched her until out of sight, ofcourse she gave her one and only glare that was just meant for him and then went into the house.
He snickered and shook his head, backing out.
Emma Nelson, full of fire.
Why was she so tensed up right now? Nervous, mad- that newspaper! He needed to find another copy of this mornings newspaper.
