Hi..
So I'm really naughty and posting this chapter without giving it to my Beta. but she does have the rest of the story.
so as she fixes my million and one mistakes through out it I will post them.
Chapter Two the Walk
Bella sat fiddling with the first of the corked bottles as she looked around the fire, smiling at Emily across it she wandered if there plan would work.
From what she was told she gets to spend 24 hours in each state of dreaming, but according to Emily you can see a whole life time in those 24 hours and then some, biting her lip lightly she tried to image who the third bottle would be for, she knew that one would be Edward's the other Jacob's, but she couldn't figure out who the third one was.
Old Quil's word vibrated through her head as she puzzled over it some more.
Who had she twisted into loving her without realising it?
Taking a deep breath, Bella tried not to twist the bottle to much in her hands.
As long as she took the first one within the vicinity of the fire, and Emily drew the charcoal lines on her forehead she should be able to start the journey that will show her what her future holds.
Breathing deeply she smiled at Jacob as he come to sit beside her once again.
"So" he started
Bella raised her eyebrow at him before continuing to stare out at the flames
"I'm sorry for over reacting before" Jacob started "but you gotta admit that I'm right in some ways"
Bella muttered "I wouldn't know anymore" turning to look at Jacob she stated "just drop it Jacob, ok, tonight I don't really care for your opinion on Edward, in fact I just want a night where he is not mentioned"
"Sure" Jacob answered as he turned away from her slightly.
Sighing Bella closed her eyes trying to will away the nerves that started to eat up inside her.
What if Jacob was the first bottle? What if being with Jacob was as easy as breathing and she was a horrible person for even thinking that it would be anything other than amazing and easy with him.
What if after Edward changed her he changed as well? What if he was what he thought he was and she was just influenced by hormones, or his pheromones that he gives off. What if she is this horrible creature that tears and rips apart everyone she cares for?
Shaking her head, she tried to remove all the what if's that were swirling around her head.
"Sure, it's not like you're going to turn into a blood sucker tonight anyway" Jacob stated placing his arm around her shoulders
Scoffing at him, Bella glared at him before removing his arm from her shoulders, walking away from him Bella walked around the fire and entered Emily's house, breathing deeply she tried to calm her nerves, slipping the little glass bottle back into the wooden box with the other two on the kitchen container, she couldn't help but marvel how one was icy to touch, where as the other two were burning hot.
Shrugging Bella closed the box lid and grabbed a bottle of water from Emily's fridge.
"What are you up to Swan?"
Bella turned to stare at Leah, before uncapping her water and taking a long sip. "Drinking water Leah, what are you doing?"
Leah narrows her eyes as she glares at Bella "is that all you are doing?"
"Yep" Bella stated popping the P, before taking another sip of her water.
Leah growled lightly at her before turning and walking away from her "whatever it is I'll find out"
"And you'll tell Sam" Bella snipped "like a good little puppy"
"At least I have a purpose in life" Leah snarled coming to stand back in front of Bella, her breath hitting Bella in the face "at least I'm not throwing my life away, to become a corpse"
Bella laughed lightly "instead you wish to be alive and waste it with your petty jealous issues you have with your cousin and the man you were cheating on anyway."
Leah stood there like a fish as she stared at Bella "how?"
"Small towns" Bella sneered "I know everything about you Leah, so don't push it"
Leah stared at her some more before nodding her head and walking out of the kitchen.
Sighing Bella rested the back of her head on the over head cupboards in Emily's kitchen.
She knew that she was being a bitch to Leah, just to remove some of her pent up frustration that she had accumulated over the last few days.
Her mind instantly going back to the box on the counter, she tried with all her might to not panic and swallow them all right then and there.
Taking another sip of her water, she looked up to see Paul walking into the house.
Smiling lightly at him she felt some peace settle over her shoulders as she spotted him.
"Causing trouble Swan?"
Smirking at him Bella stated "it's not like she didn't deserve it"
Paul shook his head "even after you gave us all the need to be nice to her speech"
Bella hummed playing with the lid of her water bottle "something like that"
Paul chuckled lightly, coming to stand beside her at the bench, their shoulders brushed as they stood there.
"So don't take this the wrong way, but why won't you choose Jacob, I mean at least he wouldn't kill you when your ovulating"
Shaking her head at him Bella stated "Edward wouldn't kill me while I was ovulating you dork"
"No but he might try it when you're on your rags"
Bella frowned at him; she didn't wish to tell him that every time she has had her rags as he called it, she had spent the 5 days with Charlie away from the Cullen's.
That was another thing that she was worried about, her blood issue in the future, how would they handle that if her period comes late? Would Edward insist that she stop the pill or take it consistently so that she took her period every three months or six?
"You keep biting that lip it will fall off"
Bella snorted "wouldn't that be a pity"
"Yep" Paul stated popping the P, "if you didn't have a bottom lip how would Jacob dream about nibbling on it, or when the vampire removes his stick from his arse use it for other means"
"What the hell can a lip be good for?" Bella asked turning to stare at him.
"Would you like me to show you?" Paul whispered as he threaded his fingers through her hair.
Snorting Bella pulled away from him slapping him lightly on the shoulder "jesus Paul can't you go one day without trying to get into my pants"
Paul smirked lightly "when your cold I might stop" he paused "though if you're turned a virgin wouldn't your hymen stay intact, so every time you fucked you'd be a virgin" he hummed lightly "I could live with the smell for that"
Shaking her head in disgust Bella looked away from him.
Chuckling to himself, Paul picked up the little wooden box on the bench that held Bella's tonics in it.
Reaching out her hands Bella went to grab the wooden box "easy Paul, don't drop them"
Paul frowned at her, before prying the box open, taking a whiff at the liquids inside he stated "why do you have three vials of walking dreams"
Biting her lip Bella pulled the box out of his hands shutting the lid she stated "it really isn't any of your business"
"It is our business if you're having second thoughts" Paul stated
"I'm not having second thoughts, it's not for what you think" Bella stated, peeking inside the box to make sure they were all alright, that the tiny frail glass vials weren't damaged in any way.
"Do you know how dangerous those are?" Paul asked
"Of course I know" she snipped
"They can kill you, fuck Bella one bottle of that shit can kill you but you got three, are you planning on doing it properly with old Quil to watch over your body, or are you just going to swallow them tonight when you get home"
"Don't be lecturing me Paul Lahote" Bella snapped turning to stare into his face "I know what I'm doing, and I'll do it my way"
"Fine" Paul snarled stalking out of the house
Sighing in relief Bella moved the box of vials to the little counter near the back door, deciding that she had better go out there; she slipped through the flywire door.
Coming to stand beside Emily she noticed that quite a few wolves had already left.
"Not long now" Emily whispered to Bella.
Nodding Bella faked a yawn as she started to strike up a conversation with Emily about bake ware, and muffin recipes.
At 30 minutes to midnight, Emily kissed Sam good night and watched him stumble into the house.
Bella had bid Jacob good night with Quil and Embry an hour ago.
Which left the bonfire free for Emily and Bella's use.
"I'll go get the drinks" Bella stated
Emily nodded, as she reached into the pocket of the chair she had been sitting on.
Pulling out a well worn leather pouch, she started fishing around inside for the paints.
Shrugging her jacket, Bella tugged on the white slip of Emily's she had borrowed for this occasion, unbuttoning her jeans she slipped out of them leaving her in a slip that hugged her boobs and fell down to mid calf, tying the tie she grabbed the wooden box, walking outside Bella stood in the centre of the circle that Emily had drawn in the sand at the edge of the bonfire,
Emily drew symbols on Bella's forehead, wrists ankles and the back of her neck, she burnt sage and lavender around Bella chanting in a language that Bella heard them talk in quite often, as Emily glided around her Bella felt sleep tug at her as she inhaled the sweet smells, Bella raised the vial to her lips.
Swallowing it in one gulp, she tried not to gag on the bitter cold liquid as it raced down her throat.
Feeling her world tilt Bella caught a glance of Sam rushing out of the house and Paul the trees, before her body dropped to the sand, starring into the flames of the fire she closed her eyes, taking a deep breath of the sweet smelling smoke.
So.. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I thank all for reading and reviewing.
lily.
