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Fran Barnett Venturi
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He was right. I'm pregnant.
Stupid Derek and his 'brother's intuition'. A week after he mention about my 'pregnancy' the symptoms begun, I took a pregnancy test and BANG!. positive.
I haven't told anybody, not even Emily...I'm ashamed I guess. What happened between Sam and I wasn't supposed to happen, not just yet. We were only dating for three months and I thought we could wait...we didn't obviously. I haven't told Derek either, not because I'm ashamed but because he hate Sam...I thought they were friends but since we started dating they stopped talking, I never asked why.
"Casey?" Derek puts his head round the door, smiling "you ok?. You didn't come to dinner"
"Yeah, I'm kind of not hungry" I say, he walks in and closes the door behind him
"You are, aren't you?" he asks. I know what he is talking about; I nod as a few tears run down my cheeks. "Does he know?"
"No. I haven't told anyone yet." I sit on my bed and he sits next to me, taking my hand...I've never seen Derek this way before, he was never so sweet to me.
"You have to, Case...whatever he might said he deserves to know" I don't know if it's me or Derek sound a little bit disappointed. Or even sad
I sigh "yeah, but I have to talk to my mom first" I walk towards the door; he stares at me from my bed. He gives me a kind smile before I leave.
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Before I even mention the pregnancy to my mother I already knew what she was going to say. She cried, I cried, we hugged and repeatedly said I was sorry. She asked me if Sam knew, I told her no...the truth is I'm not sure if he wants this baby, Man! I wasn't sure if I want it either! I couldn't say that to my mom, or anyone.
I felt bad even thinking about it.
I week later I decide to tell Sam about it.
So here I am, in front of him waiting for an answer from him. I don't think it would happen anytime soon, because since I told him he has done nothing but shake his head.
Not a word. Not a peep.
"So? What do you think?" I try to break the ice but it's not working very well.
"I'm not ready to be a father, Casey"
Typical.
"Do you think I am?" I ask. He says nothing...this is like riding a car with a totem pole.
"Then what are you going to do?" he ask. I stare at him
"You mean WE, because is takes two to tango, you know?" he sighs...
Oh this can't be good.
"I told you I can't do this, Casey"
"So what? You're going to back off now?" I know he will, he is a coward. Now I wonder how I could ever feel anything for this man.
He stands up "I'm sorry..." and leaves.
TBC!
