A/N: This scene picks up from the previous chapter jumping to the scene when Edward calls to find out if Bella is alive. I kind of like giving Bella an attitude; I think if someone broke up with me the way that Edward did I couldn't just forgive that. I want Bella to go Fiona on Shameless when Jimmy/Steve came back.
I have been a little 'crazy' these past few months. I have always been introverted so the fact that I became so popular on my arrival to Forks High always amazed me. I was never the girl to date the hottest guys or the most athletic: my hand-eye coordination sucked. But, Edward Cullen had seen something in me that I didn't understand; he would look at me as if I was this precious prize. Something he had won and wanted to show the world that he loved. He also showed me that he was the only one who would ever love me.
But, now that I have had the time to really review our relationship; I see that I don't want to be someone's favorite toy. I don't want to be someone's show and tell project. I want to be an equal and surprisingly that's how I've always felt. I think I got lost in who or more importantly what Edward was. He was my first love but he was also an enigma. I thought he was perfect but he wasn't his flaws were right in front of my face but I was too blinded by love to really see it.
After I slowly started to regain who I was I realized that some people in my life really didn't need to be there. I decided to stick with the few people I could trust like Angela and Jacob. Speaking of Jake, he and I had become extremely close he was my sun; nothing bad could happen to me with Jake around.
But, things changed once Jake stopped calling and answering my phone calls. I didn't know if he was on steroids or if all his fat turns into muscle. I soon discovered that vampires weren't the only things that were real. It amazed me that fairy tales and tribal stories actually existed. My heart hurt at the thought of losing Jacob but even more so at the fact that he knew how weak I had been for Edward. How I had let him take over my life and dreams.
I had quit working at Newton's Hardware Store and started at the police station filing paperwork and answering phones. I originally had a decent amount of college savings and since I didn't need to buy a car the interest had made my savings go up. I still don't know if college is right for me but I don't think I am the travel around Europe type of girl. But then again I never thought I would jump off a cliff either, but I did.
Jacob wasn't so pleased and I can't say that I blame him but I did it to release and free myself of the past, my past: with Edward. I wanted to move on. I know that Jacob has feelings for me and I love him but does that mean we should be together; I don't know but how he was looking at me right now I think that I am about to find out.
He slowly starts to bend toward me; our lips are so close to touching that I feel weak in the knees. I don't pull away because I've missed him too much these past few weeks. It feels like it is taking forever for this kiss; the kiss that will change our relationship taking us to the next level.
However right when our lips are about to touch when we are staring into each others' eyes the phone rings making us both jump ripping and ruining the moment. Jacob being the closest to it, doesn't move his face, he just keeps looking into my eyes while reaching for the phone.
He answers, "Swan residence" I smile at his cool demeanor but it changes quickly. He voice goes cold "He's not here."
I ask loudly, "Jake who is it?"
He continues ignoring my inquiry, "The Chief is at a funeral."
"Jacob Black who is on the phone" I say again because I will not be ignored in my own house. A question must have been asked on the other end because Jake whispers my name. I go to grab the phone from him and I don't know what Jacob sees in my eyes but he hands it over with no protest.
"Hello, this is Bella Swan. Who am I speaking to?" I asked going into work voice mode.
It is silent on the other end, "hello?" I question while looking down to see if the phone is still connected.
"Bella" his voice shocks me in place as he whispers my name. I look up quickly at Jacob; his eyes sadden as they watch my every move.
"Edward" I choke out "what do you want with my father?" it comes back to me that he wanted to speak to Charlie.
"Bella, you're alive"
Now I am confused where else would I be and why would Edward even care if something where to happen to me. He damn sure didn't care about my well-being when he left in the woods that day. My anger was coming in full force, if I was a wolf like Jake I would have phased in my kitchen.
"I am perfectly fine Edward. Why wouldn't I be? I know you didn't have Alice spying on me since you said you would leave me alone. Leaving me alone means not calling my father to check up on me. NEVER CALL THIS HOUSE AGAIN!" I raise my voice slamming the phone shut in the process.
Jacob stands there gaping at me with a slight rise in his cheeks ready to form a smile.
"I don't know who you are smirking at Jacob Black but you can exit the way you entered" I turn heading towards the stairs.
"Bell—"he begins to say but I cut him off "you knew who it was and instead of being a friend and letting me handle it you were just going to make him think that I was dead. I don't need more boys in my life trying to make my discussions for me, Jacob."
I continued up the stairs to my bedroom. I heard the door slam as Jake left. I know I would forgive Jacob and we would be best buds again but I think that is all we will ever be.
