It has been weeks. no days since that regretful day and the funeral. Ive been trying to forget about what trouble i have caused but its just so hard to forget something you never meant to do. My heart gets heavy every time I think about it. As the days pass and move forward there isnt even a second that it isnt on my mind...because what i have done was beyond far worse than any cruelty or punishment...it was something that shouldnt even had happened in the first place.
As i sit at my desk doing my paperwork i always hope to see that readhead bursting through the doors and rushing in to give me kisses and warm hugs...but back then Id always push him away when he did that because I thought it was foolish and unessescary. Everytime i close my eyes...I can feel his faint pleads for love..for hope...for someone to care for him. Although theyll never e heard because its too late now..his soul doesnt exsist on this earth anymore. Yet i still remember everything he did. Sometimes i wish i could rewind time and fix my mistake...so i can see him again once more.
