Disclaimer: Am I richer than the Queen? Oh hell no. Am I JK Rowling? Nope. All credit to her and her incredible imagination.
Pairing: James/Sirius
Characters: Sirius Black, James Potter (mentioned), Lily Evans (nee Potter) (mentioned)
Prompt: Lust
Rated: T for pairing and dark themes.
Word Count: 222
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Written for the Seven Deadly Sins Competition. (Lust entry)
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I am ashamed.
Ashamed of what I feel.
Why shouldn't I be?
Why should I be?
Why can I not just look on him as a brother, as a friend?
Instead, my gaze holds more.
It is not that I intend for it to.
No, I try to hold the feelings back.
But when he goes and does that…when he ruffles his hair and grins…
But he's looking at Evans. Not me.
He is Evans's, and Evans is his. Even if she doesn't know it yet.
James worships the ground she walks on, and isn't afraid to show her.
I?
I am doomed.
Doomed by the rightful course of nature.
Doomed by an ivory beauty with red flames for hair and green emeralds for eyes.
I am struck down by a woman, a lilting laugh, and twinkling eye.
A hip that curves, a chest with all the right angles.
The thought makes me sick.
But I will not pursue my feelings.
However much I wish I could.
I won't.
I will not.
So I will let the way of nature take its course.
I will let my fate rest in the balance of the world..
But never will I stop.
I can watch, I can restrain myself, but I can't stop my feelings.
I can't and I won't.
I can't.
I won't.
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Aw. Poor Padfoot. :(
Leave me your thoughts. My first ever James/Sirius fic..!
