Part 7

Dear diary

I can't believe this! This is like a cruel joke! Gohan...I honestly don't know how to deal with this. I love him too but I never thought he loved me like that. I admit I wanted something like this to happen between us a while ago but I kept it to myself...kinda wish I hadn't now though. I also don't know what to do about Trunks. My cheek is still swollen and it still hurts but I don't care about that right now. All I want is for us to be happy all the time is that too much to ask? Now I think about it I swear all of our arguments have revolved around Brody. I suppose it would be easier on us if he was dead but that's no way to think...is it? I could easily fill up all your pages today my diary but I need to do a lot of thinking instead of just whining. Wish me luck xxx

Goten sighed deeply as he closed his precious diary.

Lucky I brought this along to town with me. I don't know what I would without my diary

He stood up from his bed, leaned out of his window and stared at the beautiful lush green scenery surrounding his home.

What do I do? What the hell do I do? Should I go and look for Trunks...no, I'm still not sure what to do about Gohan.

A knock at the door jolted his train of thought.

"It's Gohan, can I come in?"

He hesitated for a moment but decided to go against his better judgement and slightly opened the door.

"What is it?" he asked through the little crack in the door in a sad tone.

"I think we should talk don't you?"

Goten nodded silently and let his brother in. They both sat on the edge of the bed in an awkward silence until Gohan decided to put his plan into action.

"Listen Goten about earlier..."

"Why didn't you say you liked me that way before?" He interrupted.

"Would it have made a difference?"

"Yes!"

"Huh...?"

"How did you not notice I felt the same way?"

"You did?"

"Come on Gohan. Remember when I used to sleep with you at bedtime? I wanted us...I wanted..."

"Goten...why didn't you say anything before?"

"I...I didn't think I was normal, thinking of you like that. Why didn't you trying anything?"

"I thought you were too young and I didn't want to risk what we had already"

Goten let out a disappointed whine while staring at the floor as Gohan placed his hand on his little brother's.

"But this is great isn't it? Now we both know, we can finally be together"

"But...what about Videl?"

"Let's just say that if she got hit by a bus tomorrow I would cry with happiness"

"Oh..."

His truthful attempt to make Goten smile with black humour failed but he was undeterred and continued trying to persuade him.

"It's too late...I'm with Trunks now"

"Look what he did to your face! Do you really want to be with someone like that?"

"I've already told you it wasn't his fault"

"So I guess it won't be his fault the next time either?"

"There won't be a next time"

"How can you be so sure?"

"I...I just am"

"Goten he couldn't love you as much as I do, no one could...no one"

"G...Gohan...I'm sorry"

"Please give us a chance"

He moved his hand to Goten's torso, slid it underneath his shirt and ran his finger across his toned stomach. With Goten showing no signs of discomfort he moved his hand upwards and began to rub two fingers around his soft nipple, creating a look of pleasure on the little saiyan's face.

"Pl...Please don't"

"Don't what?" He smirked.

Gohan leaned over him and buried his nose in his shaggy hair inhaling deeply.

"You're too cute"

After extensive rubbing, Goten's nipple became hard. He clutched at his older brother's shirt trying to stay in control.

"Stop..."

"You know you don't want me to"

He delicately kissed Goten's forehead, working his way down to the corner of his mouth. As he placed his free hand on the back of neck he lowered his other hand back downwards away from his nipple, aiming for his shorts. Gohan lightly dragged his nails repeatedly across his sensitive neck while seductively rubbing the bulge in his shorts. Goten slightly opened his mouth to let a gentle moan escape so Gohan took his chance and locked their lips together in a passionate kiss. The shaggy haired boy put up a little resistance but ultimately gave in to his skilled tongue. Goten's scent was so intoxicating to him that he didn't realise how forceful he was being as he continued to force his tongue into his inviting mouth. His only way of letting Gohan know he couldn't really breathe was a pathetic attempt to push him away. Luckily his little plea was answered and he broke the kiss, ending it gently.

"I love you"

"Please...I...I can't"

"I know you love me too"

"I do but..."

"I want you to become my mate..."

"I...I'm already Trunk's mate"

"I was afraid of that...I wanted to be your first"

Goten blushed as he averted his gaze from his brothers upset eyes.

"It doesn't matter I still love you"

It was harder to refuse his advances each time Goten heard that word. He went back to rubbing the hard area in his shorts to see what reaction he would gain. Goten continued to look away; his eyes showed that he must be in turmoil but the haze of lust clouded the stronger saiyan's judgement as he undone the button on the little saiyans shorts, leaving the zip exposed. He remained silent as Gohan slowly unzipped the shorts and pulled them down past his smooth behind, exposing his tented boxers. He proceeded to slip his dominant hand under them and gently gripped the smooth penis concealed inside making him let out a quiet gasp of pleasure.

"See? You want this as much as I do, don't fight it"

There was no reply just a single tear that ran down his cheek, staining the bed sheet. Seeing his little brother shed a tear instantly stopped his actions. He released his grip, sat up and moved back to the edge of the bed while giving him a sympathetic sigh.

"I'm sorry"

Goten erased all worry in Gohan's mind by sitting up and hugging him tightly.

"You have no idea how much I want this but...until you feel the same, I'll restrain myself"

He felt Goten silently cry into his chest as he ran his fingers through the mass of thick hair.

"Come with me"

Gohan wiped away the tears in his eyes and allowed him to pull up his shorts then lead him out of the room and went downstairs. He then retrieved the bag given to him by Trunks from the table.

"What's that?"

"Well...Don't get mad but...Trunks came by earlier and left this for you"

"What? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I...I didn't think it was a good idea because of the state you were in"

Goten was angry after learning this but he had to admit there was some truth to his words. After Gohan handed him the bag he pulled out the shirt that he tried on in the store. Without a word he removed Trunk's shirt and slipped on the new one.

"I think you should go to him...I just want you to know that whatever happens I'll be there for you"

"Thank you Gohan"

"By the way just make sure you come back tonight, mom misses you"

"Okay I will"

With that said Goten opened the front door and began his search for his beloved, not noticing his brother's devious smirk.

I'll try his house first

As he glided towards his house he decided to fly straight to his bedroom. The window was still open and when he swooped in he scanned the slightly messy room but he was nowhere to be found. He was about to fly straight back out to their favourite place he noticed a piece of paper in the middle of the bed. He walked over, picked up the paper and read the contents.

Chibi, I'm sorry for everything. I love you.

"Wh...What does he mean by that?"

His heart missed a beat as he tried to understand the note.

Surely he wouldn't...?

His instinct kicked in and he ran to the bathroom door. When he yanked it open he saw Trunks looking at himself in the mirror holding a knife.

"Chibi!"

Goten didn't answer he just walked over and slapped the knife from his hand then gave him a powerful slap in the face causing Trunks to reel back in shock.

"What do you think you're doing?" He shouted angrily.

"I...I just..."

"You just what? Decided to kill yourself just because we had an argument?"

"I'm sorry...I thought I lost you" he replied rubbing his stinging cheek.

"What kind of excuse is that? Did you stop to think about my feelings or your parents if you were gone?"

"Well what about you? Did you think of my feelings when you did this to yourself?" He replied as he grabbed Goten's arm displaying the scars.

"That's completely different and that was your fault!"

"You've changed your tune..."

"No...I'm sorry I didn't mean that..."

Goten took a deep breath as Trunks fought back tears, staring at damage that he caused to his innocent face.

"What are we doing Trunks? Why are things like this?"

"Chibi..."

"I thought we would be happy all the time I really did...am I doing something wrong?"

"No you're not, it's me...I always mess everything up"

Goten wanted to tell him that's not true but he knew Trunk's temper always got the better of him.

"Just...you need to just think before you act"

"I know that, don't you think I've tried?"

They both stood in silence staring into each other's teary eyes, not knowing what to say. Goten averted his gaze to the floor and slowly walked closer to him. He got what he wanted when Trunks instantly brought him into a tight hug.

"Chibi...I'm sorry, we'll get through this"

"Wh...What about the next time?"

"There won't be a next time, I promise"

"Please don't make promises you can't keep"

"Look, can we just forget this ever happened and go back to the way things were?"

"It's not that simple Trunks" He whimpered.

"Well, why not?"

"You just don't get it..."

"C'mon chibi, you're sounding like a girl"

Goten remained silent, enjoying the calming beat of his heart.

"Please give me another chance"

He knew deep down, he couldn't live without Trunks, he also knew that the thought of breaking up never crossed his mind but Gohan's words kept invading his mind "next time..." Goten knew there were no guarantees but he thought that Trunk's words sounded genuine.

"I...If this happens again I don't think I could deal with it" Goten whispered.

"It won't I swear!" he replied hugging him tighter.

The couple stared into each other's eyes before sharing a gentle kiss.

"Let me get some of that stuff I used on your scars for your face"

"Okay, thank you"

"Sit on my bed, I'll bring it out"

Goten obeyed and walked out of the bathroom. He listened to Trunk's rummaging in the cupboard until he emerged with the familiar blue pot. He opened it, dipped his finger in the scentless paste and gently rubbed it onto his beloved's cheek. He flinched slightly, causing Trunks to hold back tears again.

"Umm...what happened to Brody" Goten asked quietly.

"I dunno. When I flew away I saw an ambulance heading towards him so I guess he'll be fine..."

"Oh, that's good..."

Trunks continued to stare at Goten's swollen cheek, wishing he could turn back time.

"so sorry chibi..."

"It's okay I-"

"No it's not okay, it's unforgivable. I...I don't deserve your forgiveness"

"Hey come on now this isn't helping us in any way"

"You're right, I'm sorry"

Trunks finished rubbing the miracle paste across his cheek and closed the lid. After he placed it back into the bathroom cupboard he sat back down next to his timid love.

"Do you wanna stay at mine tonight?"

"I...I would but my mom wants me to stay home tonight"

"I understand..."

"I better get back...she wants me back for dinner" He lied.

"Oh, okay then..."

"Don't worry, I'll see you at school tomorrow" He reassured.

He kissed Trunks on the lips, disappointed that he was the only one trying. He could tell Trunks was upset but everything that had just transpired proved to be too much for Goten, he needed some more time to think. He gave a weak smile before he walked towards the open window.

"I love you"

"I love you too chibi"

It felt like butterflies fluttered through his stomach every time Trunks said that so caringly. He clambered onto the window ledge and took flight before he could get carried away. Instead of knocking on the front door he flew through his bedroom window.

Right this is it, make or break...

From an outside point of view he was clearly happy that he sorted things out with the older saiyan but only he knew about the worry he constantly had. He sat down at his desk, planning to inform his diary of his new happiness but Gohan opening his door made him jump out of his chair.

"I thought I heard you come in" Gohan grinned.

"Y...Yeah I'm back now. Is mom downstairs?"

"So how did things go between you and Trunks?" He asked, avoiding his question.

"We patched things up. I think everything is going to be okay" he smiled.

Gohan let out a disappointed sigh after hearing the news.

"This isn't how I wanted it to happen but you've made your choice it seems"

Goten's happy expression changed into a confused one.

"What are you talking about?"

"Heh, as I said before, you're too cute, you've only yourself to blame"

"G...Gohan?"

"Just remember, I love you Goten"

Without another word Gohan removed his gi and shut the door, locking it in the process.