Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters from Degrassi. Just Lily & her family.

Authors Note: I don't feel particularly good about this chapter. But it goes with the storyline I'm trying so hard to produce.
I just want everyone to know that Declan is in this chapter. He's back at Degrassi, he decided to transfer back. Hehe, reasons that you shall all know next chapter.
You find some things out about Lily in this chapter. & Eli learns that he's not the only one with Issues. Lily just hides them better.

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It's been a month since Lily met Clare and Ali. It's been a month since her and Adam became such good friends. It's been a month since Eli Goldsworthy became her enemy number one. It's been a month since every student attending Degrassi knew who Lily Evans was. Ever since her little stunt she pulled in the cafeteria on the first day of school, everybody just knew her. People she didn't even know high fived her in the hall way, said hi to her, tried to make plans to go to the dot with her, tried to date her. It was exactly what she wanted. Hold on now, she did not care for popularity if thats what you were thinking. She just wanted to be known. Known for rebelling, known for making a statement, known for being different.

Some people called her the 'Queen of self Acceptance' others knew her as a 'Rebel' and other just knew her as Lily. The ones who knew her as just that were her best friends. Ali, Drew, Clare and Adam. Eli was a completely different story. Ever since their first day he's been weary of her. She didn't exactly know why, but he tried to ignore her, and when he wasn't ignoring her he was making rude comments about her accent and about how she was apparently naive. She didn't hate Eli, she just didn't care for him too much. Yet she wanted to know him. Wanted to know every inch and every part of his life. She felt as if there was more to Eli Goldsworthy then he was letting on, and she wanted to be that person who gets to see exactly what that is.


Lily woke up at the sound of her alarm buzzing in her right ear. She groaned loudly and sat up. She rubbed her eyes fiercely before throwing her feet over the right side of her mattress, but instead of walking, she stumbled to the ground and brought her sheets with her. She groaned again. She already knew this was going to be a bad day. She picked herself up and headed for her showers. She turned the water all the way to hot. She liked the way the water felt against her body as she stepped it. She lathard her lavender vanilla shampoo through her hair. It felt so good to her, like she was giving her scalp a massage. Then she proceeded with using its comb through conditioner. While she washed her body she took it as a chance to examine herself.

She was pale, but not too pale, she looked almost milky, she didn't have any pimples. She still had some bruises on her thigh from her mum. But she was drunk that night. She didn't mean to hit her. Thats what she said to make her believe her mother was a good person. She tries to find good in everyone, but she could only think of every good thing in the damn world so much to make her mother seem like a saint. She sighed and dried off with her towel, and then wrapped it around her small frame.

She looked in the mirror after she was done getting ready. "Stupid uniform." She muttered under her breath. She hated wearing uniforms. She liked to express herself with her clothes. She wore a uniform in London, but even she could admit her old uniform looked way better then this one. She sighed and walked downstairs.


She huffed at her brother who sat at the table eating pancakes and waffles that their older brother had made them that morning for breakfast. She grabbed her fork from the left side of her plate and began to dig in too, but not as wildly as her brother did.
"You're a pig." She pointed out taking a sip from her milk.
Seth began to chuckle as her father walked downstairs too.
"Morning kiddo." He said to his beautiful Lily and kissed her on her forehead.
"Here ya go dad, 2 pancakes, and 2 waffles along with some sausage and a cup of milk." He sighed and smiled at his oldest son.
"Son, what the hell would we do without you?" He asked before he dug into his breakfast.
Lily and her little brother Stephan both scoffed which earned them a laugh from their father.
"How's school going Lily?" He asked his daughter who was sipping her milk and making faces at her little brother.

He loved his daughter to bits, he honestly didn't know what he'd do without her and his two sons Stephan and Seth. He loved the fact that she was here, right now in Canada. It was where she belonged. She didn't belong with her mother. None of his children did. Their mother was abusive. Both verbally and physically.

She had a drinking problem that started when Lily was only 8 years old. Seth his oldest was 12 and, Stephan his youngest was 3. He didn't know why she drank the way she did, but whenever she drank she would yell, and scream and break things. She was verbally abusive to all of their kids, but only physically towards Lily. He still loved her but he knew he needed to take his kids somewhere they'd be safe.

"Well, I actually like it. I've made a lot of new friends, but there's just this one boy. He interests me. Not romantically but he's different, there's more to him then what meet's the eye." She replied to her fathers previous question.

"Who's this boy?" Seth asked curiously while taking a seat next to Stephan.

"Eli Goldsworthy. He's done nothing but annoy me, make fun of my accent, and when he's not annoying me he's avoiding me like the plague." Lily replied and then took another bite of her eggs.
"Seems to me like this boy has a crush on you." Her father said.

Lily nearly choked on her eggs. She began to cough and bang her fist against the kitchen table.
"You're off your rocker dad." She cried out.
Seth smirked and her little brother just looked lost. Her father then laughed and excused himself from the table. She rolled her eyes and walked towards the door.
"I'm going to school! Love you all!" She yelled before heading towards her car.


Eli watched as none other then Lily Evans swayed through the door of their first period. He watched as she hugged Clare. He watched as she conversed with everyone before their teacher walked in, and he watched as she sat down next to him and smiled. God he loved that smile. He didn't know what it was about her but he hated it. She wasn't like other girls. She wanted to be noticed, she was sarcastic, witty, and always had something to say. She stood up for herself, and everyone else around her. He sighed and then mentally slapped himself for thinking about her. Everything about her was intoxicating to him. Her hair, her big blue eyes, her skin, her attitude, her personality, the way she laughed, the way her voice was hauntingly beautiful. He hated it. He couldn't be with anyone after Clare. He fucked everything up with her. After that night he got into the accident, he knew him and Clare were officially over. It was his own fault that he went insane and purposely got into that accident to stop Clare from leaving him. He went to therapy after that, and definitely got better but he still couldn't be with anyone after Clare. He didn't know why he constantly watched Lily, and he didn't know why everything about her drove him crazy. He thought she was annoying. He hated that she wanted to know every detail about his life, and he definitely hated that he 'fascinated' her.

"Do I fascinate you?" He was pulled out of his thoughts by none other then Lily fucking Evans.
"Why would you even ask me that?" He narrowed his eyebrows and grunted.
"Well you are staring at me genius." She pointed out which annoyed him even more.
"No, you don't fascinate me actually." He exclaimed.
"Mr. Goldsworthy, why are you disrupting my class?" Miss. Jennings asked which caused the whole class to look his way. Right when he was about to answer Lily chimed in.

"Sorry Miss, it was my fault." Eli looked at her and arched his eyebrow in confusion.

"Well Miss. Lily, don't let it happen again." She said in a stern voice and turned back towards the blackboard.
"What did you do that for?" Eli whispered.
She smiled. "Well, I did talk to you first didn't I?" Eli nodded. "Well, that answers your question now doesn't it?" He rolled his eyes and went back to his paper.
"Always has something to say." He muttered under his breath.

Lily rolled her eyes. What was it with this boy? He confused her to no end which fascinated her even more. She decided that today was the day she learned more about Eli. She smirked at her own thoughts and even chuckled a little bit which earned her a confused look from Clare.


Lily sighed as she walked the halls of Degrassi. She wasn't paying attention to where she was going, because she felt like skipping Math today. She closed her eyes which she immediately regretted when she walked into someone, which resulted in both of them on the ground.
"I am so sorry! I wasn't paying attention to where I was going!" She exclaimed. Truly embarrassed.
"It's fine. I do it all the time. No worries." Replied the boy who she bumped into. She stood up and reached her hand out to him, which he gradually took. Once they were both up and standing, she took a good look at him. She didn't know who this boy was, and it was obvious he didn't know her either. He was tall, and lean, but not lanky. He had bronze colored hair and beautiful eyes.
"Declan Coyne." He smiled and shook her hand. "Lily Evans." She replied with a blush.
"I heard about you. Your performance is on you tube by the way." He said in amusement. "I wish I could have been here to see it for myself though." She blushed when she realized they were still holding each others hands.
She let go and started to rub the back of her head in embarrassment. "Right, well I should get going."
She began to walk the other way when Declan grabbed her wrist. "Weren't you going that way?" He asked as he pointed behind him. She flushed in embarrassment which made him chuckle.
"Where are you going?" He suddenly asked. She narrowed her eyes. "Skipping." She replied nonchalantly.

"Well, would you mind it if I skipped with you? Even though today is my first day back at Degrassi, I don't feel like going to class just yet." He said with a wink.
She began to walk towards Degrassi's double doors.
"Aren't you coming?" She turned around and said.

He laughed before he caught up to her, and they both left the school.


"Guys, I've looked everywhere! I can't find her." Ali yelled frantically towards Clare, Adam, Sav and Eli.

"Have you tried calling her cell?" Adam asked clearly worried.
"We all have man." Sav said while putting his arm around his sisters shoulders.
"When was the last time you've all seen her?" Eli asked the group.
"Well I seen her this morning in English." Claire replied.
"I seen her this morning when she picked me up." Ali said sheepishly.
"I seen her this morning after first period." Sav continued.
"I seen her talking to Declan this morning." Adam spoke up.
"You what?" Exclaimed everyone.
"I seen her knock Declan over on accident, then I seen them talking. That was the last time before I went to second period!" Adam replied.


Eli groaned and stalked off. Eli was angry. He hadn't seen Lily since this morning. No one had. Why the hell was she with Declan? He stopped himself for a moment. He sighed. Why did he even care? He thought she was annoying.

"Annoyingly cute." He muttered to himself. Then he slapped his hand to his forehead and decided to wait in his car.

While Eli sat in Marty his new car since he crashed Morty. He thought that Marty was a fitting name for his new hearse. He remembered the time him and Lily got into their first 'creative discussion' as she liked to call it.

"You are so annoying!" Lily said, accent and all.
"And you're not? You live in this perfect world, where you're rich, you have the perfect family, the perfect parents. You're perfect. You think the world revolves around you? Well news flash Lily flower. It doesn't."
Eli said angrily.
"You think my lifes perfect huh?" He rolled his eyes at her stupid question. "My parents divorced when I was 14. My mothers a drunk who didn't want me anymore so she shipped me out here to Canada to live with my father and my two brothers. She's verbally and physically abusive." She stopped to pull her skirt up. Eli stood there examining her legs. There were scars and huge bruises. He also noticed that she was wearing lacy underwear. He shook his head at the thought. "So I'm rich? So what? I don't use it to get friends, in fact you're the only one who knows. You think my lifes perfect huh? Well it's not. You're not the only fucking person on this Earth with problems. So if I were you I'd look in the mirror and evaluate yourself because it's obvious that you're the one who thinks the world revolves around him." She said and then walked away with a cold hard look on her beautiful face.

Eli remembered that day very well. He knew she wasn't lying by the way she spoke and acted. He felt terrible and he still hadn't apologized for that day. Yet the next day she smiled at him. Not a smirk, but a genuine smile. She was unlike any girl he's ever met. Nothing like Clare and definitely nothing like Julia. Which was a good thing. He sighed and decided it was time to go home.


"So, why'd you come all the way out here from London?" Declan asked Lily while they waited for their food at the Dot.

"It's." She paused. "Complicated."
He smiled, "I'm sure I could keep up."
"Okay, well my mothers an alcoholic. She was also verbally and mentally abusive. Which is why I have such low self esteem. She shipped me off to my dad because she didn't want me anymore." Was her reply.
She looked down at her hands and felt herself shaking. She didn't lie, but she didn't tell the whole truth either. She forgot to mention that she was physically abusive, but no one needed to know that. Eli knew that, and she hated herself even more for telling him on accident. She sighed and looked up to see Declan smiling.

"Look, I don't-I can't even begin to imagine what that's like, but I'm here if you ever need to talk Lily. I consider us friends now, in fact I think I consider you my best friend." He said and then laughed. She looked as he smiled that boyish smile of his. She couldn't help but smile back. They shared so many interests and life goals. They had so much in common and she really felt like they could be good friends.

"Where the fuck were you today?" She knew that voice anywhere. She turned around and standing right before her looking angry as hell was Eli Goldsworthy.
"I was skipping. Is that a problem Elijah?" She asked with a smirk.
He grabbed her by her wrist and dragged her to his car.
"Get in." He said calmly. The look in Eli's eye was enough to know that he wasn't joking so she decided to get in and shut up.
"Why did you skip school? Do you know how worried I was about you?" He asked sadly.
"You were worried about me?"
"Well, we all were." He smoothly replied. She sighed. Thinking Eli cared about her was stupid.
"Oh." Was all she said.
"You can't just do that. Tell somebody next time. Or answer your fucking phone."
"I didn't have my phone. I left it at home this morning by accident." She replied angrily.

"Well whatever, I'm taking you home." She nodded but then realization dawned upon her. "What about my car?" She exclaimed.
"I'll take you to school tomorrow and you can just drive it home."
"Brilliant." She muttered under her breath.
"What the fuck was that all about at the dot anyways?" She continued.
He sighed. He cared about her, but she could never know that. "Why were you with Declan?" He asked avoiding her question.
"Don't avoid the damn question!" She yelled.
Damn it. She was good. He sighed again. "And stop sighing! It's rather annoying." She yelled again.

He pulled the car over and parked.

"Why the hell did you stop?" She yelled yet again.

"Look." He paused. "I'm sorry. About what I said to you a few weeks ago. It wasn't right, and I know that I'm not the only person with problems." He said with so much emotion filling his voice. She gasped. Eli just apologized to her. She couldn't believe it. She was baffled. She was flabbergasted. She was feeling so many different emotions right now. "Can you please forgive me?" He added.

She closed her eyes and leaned back into her seat. Then it dawned on her. "Only on one condition." She said without even opening her eyes.
He knew he wasn't going to like her condition, but he didn't even care. He wanted her to forgive him so bad.
"Anything you want." He said and then groaned.

"From here on out, everyday I want each of us to confess something about ourselves that either nobody or not a lot of people know. I know it sounds stupid, but I want to know who you are Eli. I know there's more to you, and Clare won't tell me anything. Nobody will." She said and then closed her eyes. Waiting to be yelled at.
"Okay." She was surprised by his answer. So surprised that she shot up out of his seat and looked him in his eyes.

"What?" She asked truly shocked.
"I'll do it. I know I'll probably regret it. But I'll do it. What are the conditions?" He asked. "Well, it can't be something ridiculous like our favorite food. It has to be something deep. Something important to you. I want you to open up to me Eli. I don't want to fight or have petty creative discussion's with you anymore. I want to be friends." She said with wide eyes. He smiled. Genuinely smiled. He had a look in his eye. One of happiness.

"I'd like to be friends with you Lily flower." She snorted with laughter. "Ouch, you just ruined the moment." He then too began to laugh. Harder then he's ever had. He felt happy here, laughing with Lily. It made him feel like he had no cares in the world. Just him and a friend having a good old laugh together. He liked it.
He didn't know why, but this stupid, and annoying English girl made him feel alive again.


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