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"What are you doing here?" I asked and stood aside to allow Narcissa entrance into the Gryffindor common room. This is itself was not an odd occurrence. She usually showed up at least once a week for help with her homework or nice swig of fire-whiskey with her favorite Gryffindors. What made this visit odd was the fact that she had a date with Head Boy Lucius Malfoy and instead of snogging his brains out she was standing in the middle of the Gryffindor common room with an illy concealed bottle of vodka under her arm. "I wasn't expecting you."
"Yes, well, I've broken it off with Lucius and feel the need to get completely pissed." She held out the bottle for me to take. "I thought James and Remus might want to join us so I brought two."
She produced another bottle of vodka.
"Always prepared." I raised my eyebrows and started up the stairs to the fifth-year dormitories. "So what happened?"
"He told me we weren't right for each other," Narcissa said.
"I thought you said you broke it off with him," I said and opened the door to my room.
She slid in past me and slumped onto the bed. "It doesn't matter anyway." She unscrewed the bottle top and took a quick swig. "We're not together and that's what matters."
"But why?" I sat down next to her. "I thought he was crazy about you. At least, it seemed that way when he would his tongue shoved down your throat at any given moment."
"He said it was to protect me." She scrunched her nose and glared at the floor. "I'm a big girl. I don't need his protection."
"Did he tell you what he was protecting you from?"
She sighed. "He didn't. But I know what it is."
"And?"
"Take a bloody guess Sirius." Narcissa took another sip and grimaced. "I don't want to have to say it aloud."
I frowned. "Well, I can't tell you I didn't see it coming."
She gave that bitter little chuckle that I need so well and clanked her bottle of vodka against mine. "He said that I'll never have to worry about being put in danger. That he loves me and will look out for me even when I'm married and have children. He said that he'll never let anything happen to me."
"Well that's reassurance for ya," I said sarcastically and both of us took long pulls of vodka. Once I was done I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and asked if she'd be all right.
"Oh yeah," she said sarcastically. "I'll just pop right up again and ignore the fact that the boy I've been with for over a year has just dumped me in pursuit of raping and pillaging. Great."
"I hate to be the one who defends Lucius Malfoy," I shuddered at the name, "but I don't think he's just doing this for the raping and pillaging benefits. He really does believe in Pureblood superiority."
Narcissa raised an eyebrow.
"I still hate the git," I said hastily.
"Good." She took a quick sip. "Because I need you on my side with this one. All the girls in Slytherin will find it all very romantic that he's giving me up to protect me. He'll have more fuck-buddies by the end of the week trying to change him than you've had all year long."
"I'm still too young for fuck-buddies," I told her and took a long, satisfying pull on the vodka. "And unless you're volunteering I don't think any other girl wants to get in my bed quite yet."
"Are you stupid?" Narcissa scoffed. "Every girl wants to bed the great Sirius Black. Do you know how many jealous girls ask if you walk around the house naked on Holidays?"
"They do not," I said uncertainly. "Do they?"
"You're the most sought after boy in Hogwarts." She paused. "Well you were until Lucius dumped me."
"Why didn't you ever tell me this before?"
"Why didn't you ever realize it on your own?"
"Because he's been in love with one girl since his first year and doesn't realize there's anyone else out there," James said as he entered the room. Narcissa offered him her bottle of vodka and he took a swig. He grimaced and handed the bottle back to her. "Egh."
"He's in love with someone?" Narcissa asked. "Who?"
"He won't tell anyone," James said and sat down on Narcissa's other side. "I don't even think he's realized it."
"Then how have you?" Narcissa asked.
"Because I know him," James said and shrugged. "I even know who it is."
"Care to enlighten us?" I asked, leaning forward to see past Narcissa. "Because I'm very interested in knowing who I've been in love with all these years and had no idea."
"I can't tell you in front of the girl," James said and grabbed the bottle out of my hand. "She may get jealous."
Narcissa rolled her eyes. "As long as it's no one in Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw or Slytherin I'll be happy. Come to think of it, not even a Gryffindor is good enough."
"So I'm to stay single for the rest of my life?" I asked.
"Yes, I think so."
"What are you grinning about?" I poked James in the back of the head.
"I'm just enjoying the conversation," James said. "You two are quite fun to sit back and watch."
I rolled my eyes. "Whatever Prongs."
Narcissa stood up and wandered to the doorway. "Is Lily around or have you run her off James?"
He shrugged. "She was in the common room a few minutes ago. I tried asking her to Hogsmeade again and she caught a sudden case of deafness. I'll go get her for if you'd like."
Narcissa nodded and flicked James as she passed him on the way back to the bed. He made a face at her as he left, causing her to giggle. She took another sip of vodka before laying back and placing the bottle on the night stand.
"So who're you in love with?" Narcissa asked as she laced her fingers together and placed her hands behind her head. "Anyone I know?"
"I have no idea what he's talking about," I said and laid back next to her. "I think I would know if I'm in love with someone." I sighed. "Are you in love with Malfoy?"
She shrugged. "It doesn't really matter anymore."
"Sure it does."
"I'll miss him. And I'll miss having him there for me," she said softly. "I'll miss how he looks at me. And I'll miss the way I felt whenever he'd wrap his arms around me and say 'Gods, you're breathtaking.'"
I smiled softly and leant over until my mouth was just above her ear and repeated those words, "Gods, you're breathtaking."
She smiled and turned her head so that our faces were only inches apart. "Thanks Sirius."
I brushed a lock of hair from her forehead and her smile grew. She licked her lips and suddenly I wanted to kiss them, lick them, nibble them. I hesitated only a second before closing the distance between us and pressing my lips to hers. She didn't pull back like I'd thought, but brought her hand to my neck and massaged it softly. I took this as an invitation to deepen the kiss and licked her bottom lip. She moaned softly and parted her lips.
The kiss ended a few moments later.
Narcissa pulled back and gave a tiny sigh. She opened her mouth to speak but closed it as James and Lily entered the room. They stopped when they saw us lying on the bed. James raised his eyebrows and Lily smirked.
"I need to get going," Narcissa said softly and sat up. She gestured to the bottle of vodka before standing and saying, "Keep it. I'll see you later James, Sirius." She caught Lily's arm on her way out of the room, saying, "Come on Lily. I need your help with something."
James clicked his tongue and rocked back on his heels for a second before taking a seat on the corner of the bed. He cocked his head and asked me, "You figure it out yet?"
I nodded.
"Are you going to do anything about it?"
I shrugged.
It's hard finding out your in love. It's even harder finding out you're in love with your best friend.
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