Hi.
I decided; Fuck the weekly updates, this kind of shit just needs to be out in the open. Whenever I think of something I will update immediately and I know exactly what I'm going to be writing for the next few chapters so don't worry. By the way, it's one o'clock in the morning so if I'm talking shit, you need to tell me. X
So, I wrote this song. Yes, criticize it all you want but it was something quick and I wrote it while I was singing it out loud. I wrote the song a few months ago actually but I got rid of the verses and just kept the chorus. Here you go x
Verse 1
That day I saw you
I knew I was right.
I've seen you some were from that night,
You took me dancing,
To have some fun.
But when you go to know me,
You decided to run.
Chorus
So bring your love,
Help me out.
Say you're sorry,
And we'll figure this out.
We can do this right,
Don't run away.
We got soul in this song, and we aint afraid to play.
Verse 2
I had a reputation,
From all the boys I knew.
That of course scared you,
When you couldn't see the truth.
But you looked…Different.
I could tell.
You smiled.
But I let it all out.
Verse 3
You looked at me,
In that same pained face.
I tried to smile back,
But I knew it was too late.
You walked away, without a second thought,
It pained me to see this, but so I thought……
Chorus
So bring your love,
Help me out.
Say you're sorry,
And we'll figure this out.
We can do this right,
Don't run away.
We got soul in this song,
And we aint' afraid to play-y
Bridge
I blew it.
Of course…
But I thought different.
Because…
Last Chorus
So bring your love,
Help me out.
Say you're sorry,
And we'll figure this out.
We can do this right,
Don't run away.
We got soul in this song,
And we aint' afraid to play.
So I hoped you liked that. The song is dedicated to Rosalie & Emmett. (Imagine Emmett as a total dick because Rosalie was a whore.)
The song has a lot to do with different kinds of relationships, of course otherwise I wouldn't be writing this column. But getting back to the point?
Here's her story.
I had been sitting at my dressing table for ten minutes debating weather of not I should be getting ready to go to the party with my gorgeous boyfriend or stay at home and have a fun sleepover with my best friend Alice. Yes I know, I shouldn't really have to choose. I would normally invite her over; we would pick and outfit, do our makeup then go to the party together. But she didn't want to go to the party. No, she couldn't stick parties anymore. She said they were childish and ridiculous. She didn't like the fact that everybody got drunk, took drugs then retired to the bedrooms with their men.
But of course, she was only saying that because she walked in on her boyfriend of two years fucking a skinny slut in her bedroom at a party. Yes it was in her room, at her party, HER 15TH BIRTHDAY!!
So I had to choose. Should I stay here and have fun with Alice? Or go to my boyfriend's birthday party?
My phone rang.
'Hey babe, are you coming to the party? I can't wait to see you in that beautiful dress that you kept telling me about last night." Josh's voice was purring at the end of the line. The emotion alone in his voice made me week at the knees but this time I became more puzzled and undecided.
'Josh, I err…. I don't know if I can make it baby.' I answered guiltily.
There was a pause when he answered;
'What? What do you mean you don't know if you can make it? I am your man and it's my sixteenth birthday' he then carried on a little more seductively ' Anyway babes, I thought you were going to give me an amazing birthday present to make me happy. And I can't have that if you're not here can I?'
Crap! That's probably another reason for not going. Granted, Josh is the cutest guy at Clifford shire High and he's the Basket Ball team captain and I love him to bits, but I really didn't want to give him his birthday present. If you know what I mean… And I'm pretty sure it's illegal until I'm sixteen which is at the start of next year.
'I guess I can… get out of…. Whatever it is that I need to do then for you?' I gave in gloomily.
'That's ma' girl. I'll pick you up at 8. Love you Rosy.'
'Love you to.'
And he hung up. SHIT!
I so hope Ally forgives me.
Meanwhile….
I had rung Alice up straight after to tell her I had to go to Josh's party and she said it was cool. I think she only said that though so she needn't have to remember the last time.
I pulled my dress out of my wardrobe and pulled it on. Josh was going to have a heart attack when he saw me. The dress was a red-dy, pink underneath with a black but see-through layer on top with halter neck straps and a v- neck to show my boobs off more. It had a black band round that boob area and lots of sparkly beads on the top half of the dress. Did I mention that it's full length?
Yes. I am the Basket Ball Captains girlfriend and I am captain cheerleader at Clifford Shire High School. Its Josh's party and I, of course am one of the most important people having to go. It's my duty to wear a full length dress, even though I can't stick them! It is bloody incredible though, if I say so myself.
Since the dress was a real standout piece I decided to put some natural make up on and pink heeled shoes with a black bow on the front so I didn't look too dressed up. I didn't want to look like a hooker for god's sake. Like some people have said. (Picture of dress and shoes on profile)
I had just finished curling my hair when there was a knock at the door.
I ran down the stairs nearly tripping over the dress in the progress and opened the door but not before putting a calm martyr expression on my face and smiling in a seductively way that said 'Hey I bet you can't wait fuck me tonight cause I'm so god damn hot!'.
The look on his face was priceless. I mean yeah, I'm a bloody gorgeous looking person with just a pair of sweats on and a baggy t-shirt but this was just too much for poor Josh to take. He grabbed hold of my stomach, picked me up bridal style and placed me tenderly in the front seat without saying a word. Got in the driver's seat and zoomed us out of town. I could see that he was hyperventilating but I didn't know why he was driving us out of town. I mean his house was only a couple of blocks away. I didn't say anything though because I knew what he was thinking about.
He stopped very abruptly and I looked around at our surroundings with a puzzled expression. We were In the middle of no-were from all I could tell. It was so dark at this point that I couldn't even tell where we were. I turned around to ask him why we were here but he just opened his door and walked out slamming it shut.
I thought that was an invitation to get out myself but he was round my side already and unbuckling my seat belt.
'Err… Josh? What are you doing?'
He didn't say anything and placed me on the back seats.
'You……..are soo beautiful' was all he said and I blushed ten shades of red.
'That may be true but that doesn't explain why we are in the middle of no-were with us on the backseat instead of at your party?' I explained carefully.
He sighed while pulling the door shut and stroking up the side of my body.
'Rosy… Remember that time when I asked you for that special birthday present?'
I gulped remembering exactly what he had said. 'Yes.' I answered almost silently, frightened. He took it the wrong way though and lay be down by pushing my shoulders carefully.
'Well I told the guys at the party that I will be back in a few hours while I get that present.' He said matter-of-factly. HOURS!!! A COUPLE OF HOURS! JESUS HOW LONG DOES HE THINK IT'S GOING TO LAST.
He wouldn't let me talk anymore though. And I don't think I could have because while he was saying this he was unzipping the back of my dress. I took an intake of breath. I couldn't do anything, it was like somebody had paused my brain and just my body was left to suffer the consequences.
Suffering the consequences?
'God Rosy, if the boys could see this. You're so beautiful and you're all mine!' he ushered in my ear.
Wait a minute! What is he doing? I don't even want this!! He said "If the boys could see this"! He doesn't love me. He just loves my body like the rest of his mates. How could I not see this coming? AND HE KNOWS THAT I DON'T WANT THIS! I've told him enough times that I want to wait until real commitment.
I couldn't think anymore as he had attacked me with his lips. God, but he is a great kisser and unbelievably gorgeous. Why wouldn't I want this? He has beautiful sandy, soft hair and ocean blue eyes that I find myself lost in.
The kiss was deep, probably the roughest yet. You know, real French kissing and you know? I didn't really mind that because we always French kiss. And his taste and smell is mouth watering, I wanted him as much as he wanted me so that's why I let him carry on. He was my life and I love him?
This knocked sense back into me. Yes I love him, but he doesn't love me. I whimpered into his mouth and he stroked my cheek to say it was ok. But it wasn't. I don't want to tell him to stop. I want everything to be fine so we can live happily ever after. But all he wants is sex.
I didn't know I was crying until he pulled away.
'Rose? What's the matter baby?' he asked inches from my lips.
Goodbye Baby.
'Josh, I can't do this. You don't love me.' I answered while tender tears were falling down my face. I couldn't have a real cry until I get home.
He totally freaked.
'WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!? OF COURSE I LOVE YOU ROSE, why would you say that?'
'I need to end this Josh. You see? I love you so much but you only want me for my body! All you go on about is how much you wish the 'boys' could see you. WELL SHOW THEM IF YOU WANT THAT SO MUCH. WHY DON'T YOU JUST PASS ME AROUND AND THEY CAN PAY A FIVER TO SEE MY TITS?'
I didn't mean to say all this but it kind of just slipped out. I thought he was going to look truly hurt by this suggestion but he was fuming. We had both shot up during my speech and I had managed to push him off me and stand outside.
'Why would I do that?' he said trying to keep his calm, which was even scarier than him screaming at me. I stayed quiet and just stared at him.
'ANSWER ME!!!!! ROSALIE DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT'S WHAT I'M LIKE!? Well no it's not, I love you and I want to be the one to take your innocence away! Not some low life that you'll meet when you're older.'
This would usually make me fall to my knees and beg for forgiveness. But he didn't look at me once while he was saying this. He was unbuttoning his shirt, of all things. This got me VERY MAD. HE THINKS THAT EVEN THOUGH WE ARE HAVING A FIGHT HE'S STILL UP FOR GETTING LAID BY ME? Well he can think again, I'VE HAD ENOUGH!
I walked up to him and cupped his chin to make him look at me. He looked at my calm and friendly expression that I had put on and smiled.
'I knew you would be like that Rose. Now how about we get back to whatever we were doing before ay'?'
……
'Rot…In…Hell.' Was all I said and I slapped him hard across the face while walking in the other direction.
I hoped you liked that chapter. If you're confused then I'll clear it up for you. For the next few chapters (or maybe all of them) I will be finishing this story because I am much attuned to it now.
I will still be writing all of the magazine columns at the start of the chapters because I have loads to tell you.
I really enjoyed this so PLEASE REVIEW!!!
