Sooooo...I have no idea what I'm doing time wise, I know that I just get scenes in my head and I type them. Right now it seems to be jumping all over the place, but I'm sure it'll completely get linear once I'm done getting out there what I want to get out there lol.
I don't own Covert Affairs...but I wouldn't mind ownin' Auggie ;).
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September 2010
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They were sitting in Annie's car, they hadn't even left the cemetery, when Annie spoke, "I can't…I can't go back home, not tonight. Not after this….They don't know about anything and-"
"Ok, whatever you need-"
"Can I stay at your place…again?"
"You know you can. You don't even have to ask."
"Thank you Auggie….You know, I honestly have no idea what I'd be like right now if I didn't have you. So, again, even though I just said it I know I don't say it enough-"
"You're welcome Annie."
The ride back from the funeral had taken two hours. Two silent hours. Though, between Annie and Auggie, the silence was comfortable. Auggie didn't need Annie to talk to know how she was feeling and Annie was merely comforted by Auggie's presence.
It didn't take long for them to get settled once they were in his apartment. Annie showered and quickly dressed into a pair of Auggie's sweat pants and one of his t-shirts while Auggie cooked….something. It didn't exactly matter, because Annie wasn't exactly in an eating kind of mood.
Soon they were both sitting on Auggie's couch listening to Mingus and drinking. It wasn't long 'til Annie was asleep on his shoulder. This was usually how Annie fell asleep when she stayed with him and no matter how much he always wanted to stay like that, he knew he shouldn't. So, Auggie extracted himself from her arms before laying her down and covering her with a blanket. Once he finished, Auggie leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on Annie's forehead before making his way to his bedroom.
He was there, barely breathing in her arms as blood began to cover them both.
"Ben, stay with me alright? Ben! Come on, you can't leave me now. I won't let you!" she strained to make her voice heard over the sound of the helicopter, despite the fact that Ben couldn't have been any closer to her.
Those blue eyes of his were staring up into hers until they began to slowly close.
"No, no, no. Please God no! Ben….BEN!"
Suddenly she shot out of her nightmare up into someone's arms. She was covered in sweat. Her breath coming in gasps as her heart beat fast and hard within her chest. For a moment she didn't remember where she was, but she eventually realized that it was Auggie whispering calming words in her ear as he held her.
"Its alright, you're alright. I'm here, you're ok." he whispered over and over as she clung to him.
"Auggie?"
"Yeah, yeah its me. I'm here." he muttered the last part over again, Annie wasn't completely sure if it was for her own benefit or his.
Immediately she started to pull away, "Oh my god I'm so sorry, I didn't mean-"
"No, its alright. It's what I'm here for….Do you want to talk about it?"
"Ah…no. No, its just the same thing as always," she replied as she looked up into his unseeing eyes in the almost darkness. It amazed her how Auggie's eyes could still look so kind, so soulful, so full of intense emotion that it freaked her out sometimes.
In that moment, Annie acted on complete impulse…she wrapped her arms tighter around Auggie's neck and kissed him. It took a second for her mind to catch up with her body, but even after it did she didn't want to let go. She was losing herself in him, and she loved the feel of it. It was the first moment since Ben's death that she felt even remotely human and it was bliss.
On the opposite side of the coin, Auggie was fighting an internal battle. The angel on his right shoulder instantly began harping on about how wrapping his arms around her tighter was wrong. How the feel of her legs around him was wrong. How the fact that she tasted like wine and strawberries was wrong, but he let it all happen anyway as the devil on his left grinned broadly and told him to keep going. She wanted him to.
But, slowly through his Annie haze it occurred to him that it wasn't really Annie in his arms, it wasn't his Annie that was filling his senses. No, it was Ben Mercer's hurt and grieving Annie and he'd be the worst kind of man if he took advantage of that. So, once the thought filled his head, he pulled away with a deep and painful groan, resting his forehead against hers letting them both catch their breath.
"Annie, I can't do this." he whispered, barely able to keep his lips from hers.
Annie's eyes went wide as she pulled away…she had know idea how to react, "I'm sorry…I didn't mean-"
He could practically hear her crumbling in panic, "Annie, no. I want to. God only knows how much I want to-"
"But, why-"
"That's the problem. You're grieving and I can't let myself take advantage of that, of you."
Annie didn't know what her present emotional state was. It was an odd mix of panic, anger, and complete embarrassment. "Are you trying to tell me that I don't know what I'm doing, because I do-"
"I didn't say that. Annie, I know that you know exactly what you're doing, but in the end it will only end up making everything worse. Call me selfish, but if and when I take this step with you, I'm going to expect something in return that you aren't ready to give me right now."
"If and when? Do you have the start of our possible future relationship scheduled in your day planner?" Annie questioned in a voice that sounded both pissed off and slightly amused. It was better than feeling like she needed to rush out of Auggie's apartment and stand in the middle of traffic.
"Maybe I do, maybe I don't, but either way I'm never gonna tell you."
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October 2010
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"Joan, I feel like I have cabin fever or something. Just please, give me something to do, anything. I'm still an operative." Annie begged as she followed Joan Campbell into her office, "I can still do this."
"No one said you couldn't." the older woman replied as she took a seat behind her desk.
"Then why haven't you given me any missions. I'm sick of doing research and paper work, I need to get back out there."
Joan quietly cleared her throat before she said her next words, "Annie, on your last mission, you went through more emotionally than you should've…at least at this stage in your career. You need a little time off and since you flat out refused to take all the leave time you were offered, you're riding the pine for a little while."
"And when am I gonna be let back in the game?" Annie sighed, "…Joan, I need to know that I'm worth more than bait."
"You are Annie, but right now it's a risk to let you out in the field. Trust me, you'll be back out there soon, when you're ready."
"Anderson, anything new on the leak front?" Arthur Campbell started the moment Auggie was settled in his office.
"You mean other than the fact that you played me?"
"Do you really think this is the time to discuss the ethics of our current situation?"
Auggie grinned, "I guess not. Anyway, so far we've got nothing on audio."
"What do you mean nothing? I thought you bugged her."
"I did, but she isn't stupid. She must've found it."
"So, let me get this straight. We've got nothing."
"No, not nothing." Auggie said with a sigh, "Liza, or whoever checked her, might've found the audio bug, but they didn't find the tracker."
Arthur couldn't help his grin, "I knew I was letting you work this for a reason. Do you have an address?"
"Not exactly. By the looks of it, Liza and her source seem to meet up in a car. From satellite photos it appears to be a black Honda, license plate ABD-2875, registered to one Henry Wilcox."
Arthur froze. He didn't know whether he should be overjoyed or terrified, "You're sure?"
"100%,"
"Then we have a serious problem."
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November 2010
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"Has he talked yet?" Arthur questioned over the phone as he sat behind his desk in his deserted office. This wasn't exactly a conversation he wanted to have in front of anyone.
"Nothing"
"…Get him patched up and give him a few days before you start again. If he still doesn't talk, we might have to take more extreme measures."
"Understood."
Question, I'm trying to make grieving Annie believable while trying to move Annie and Auggie forward...is it working?
