I closed my eyes.
Dead.
I was dead.
That explained why I clearly remember James dying, and why my last thought before arriving in this place was saving Harry at all costs, before seeing a flash of green light my way.
I hugged James again, burying my face on his chest.
"Are you sure Harry's alive?" I asked quietly.
"Yes," he replied "I saw..." He stopped a few seconds, then continued in a shaky voice "I saw you die. I don't know how, but I did, and then, I saw him, throwing a killing curse at Harry but it rebounded, Harry's fine, he'd be here with us if he wasn't." He pulled me away and put his hands on my shoulders "We really have to go."
"Go where?" I asked.
"On."
"'On'?"
"Yeah... move on. We have to board the train." He looked around, I did too, noticing for the first time we were on a very clean King Cross.
"What if we stay here? Do we go back to living?"
"No..." He looked at me right in my eyes "I'm a pureblood, I stay here too long, I become a ghost, you stay here too long... You stay here. Without anything, or anyone, just.. existing."
"I wanna board it." I replied immediately. He smiled weakly and took my hand, lacing our fingers, we walked to the empty train, went inside, and sat down without a word.
"James?" I said in a soft whisper after a few minutes.
"Yeah?" He replied, looking at me.
"I never wanted you to die."
"I never wanted to die either, but I died for you, and for Harry, and that's what matters, you're the people I love most." He smiled and kissed my cheek, I smiled back, though a few tears started rolling down my face.
"James?" I said again.
"Hm?"
"I love you."
"Lily?"
"Yes?"
"I love you too."
With that, we made our way to an unknown place, we didn't know where we were going. But who cared, really? I was with the man I loved, and my son was alive and healthy. Nothing else mattered.
I leaned my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes falling asleep instantly.
I was with James, Harry was okay...
Maybe dying wasn't that bad, after all.
Thank you to my awesome friend Gabrielle for being the first one to read this short story, and help me edit it! :) Also, I know that the place where you go when you die, it's supposed to be different for everyone. But I figured it would be way easier just to do it this way, instead of thinking of a place for both James and Lily. So yeah, please don't start to leave reviews about that haha.
