Chapter two
Kate was cuddled to his side her head lying on his chest. Sawyer´s fingertips were caressing Kate´s side. It was a soft touch which she almost couldn´t feel. In moments like that she didn´t know what she would do without him. He was a part of her life more than Jack would ever be. If she had a choice she would marry Sawyer. Maybe in Las Vegas. That would fit.
She had already thought about asking Sawyer if he would run with her. Out of the country, maybe Hawaii. Their families would come after them, but they would need a while to find them and in this time they could be free and happy.
Kate couldn´t understand how families like hers and Sawyer´s could still exist and she definetely hated that she was born into one. She really missed her mom. Before she died her father hadn´t been like this. Of course it was the same family tradition, but it wasn´t that hard. Maybe her mother could have even persuaded her father not to marry her to Jack.
Kate knew it could be worse than Jack, but it could be better, too. It could be Sawyer. She smiled as she thought about her wish. Sawyer a husband that would never happen, but... He never told her that he loved her. Kate just knew it. He had showed her so many times.She was curious if he would marry her if there was choice.
" Sawyer?"
"Hmm." He murmered lazy.
" If...if you can...if I can...would you marry me?"
He turned his head to look at her. Her green eyes questioned him and the way she bit down on her lip made him smile.
"I don´t know, Freckles. Never thought about it. I´m glad we have at least this. Every time I wanted more than I already had something was taken away from me. Something that really mattered to me, you know? I don´t want to think about what I could have I want to enjoy what I have. And at this moment it´s lying here with you without someone who could bother us. You understand?"
She crawled on top of him and smiled because of what he said. She gave him a soft kiss and buried her face at his throat.
"I dreamt about our marriage. Especially about the wedding night, you know?"
"Didn´t think of that. Now my answer is defenitely yes."
She leaned down to kiss him and as their lips touched she felt something like a lightning strike, a good one. He rolled them around and he was on top. Sawyer was always in control and Kate didn´t mind. Jack was always in control, too, but he never was interested in pleasuring her. Sawyer was. He always made her feel good, made her feel free.
Sawyer loved to see and to feel her losing control. Even if it seemed like he was always in control he wasn´t. She didn´t know that she could make him lose control like that. Every time they were together he lost control like in the night of the engagment party. He couldn´t stop following her. He had had to have her. He had to have her now.
He bagan to kiss her throat. He always started like that because he knew Kate loved it. As he had told her that a while ago she had said that she loved everything he did to her. He kissed a trail down to her breasts and squezzed them. Sawyer felt her hand on his head. She wanted to pull him closer.
"Sawyer, please..."
She whimpered and he knew exactly what she wanted. He always knew. He sucked one of her nipples into his mouth and bit down on it softly. When her nipple was hard and erect he bagan to suck on the other one.
Kate tried to be quiet. His sister could hear them. But she was getting more and more aroused and it was getting harder to be quiet.
Sawyer kissed her whole body, every part of it till he was at her centre. He loved doing this to her even if he didn´t come. To hear her scream his name was enough. And as he buried his face between her thighs she did. First he teased her, didn´t touch her clit. Sometimes he wanted to hear her beg and he knew she would do it. Kate wasn´t embarresed about it.
As Kate felt his tongue on her clit she screamed his name out loud. It didn´t matter that somebody could her them. There were just the two of them. There would never be anybody else. His fingers were pumping in and out her and Kate just wanted to pull him up to her and make him fuck her, but she couldn´t. What he did to her felt too good. Then finally she felt him suck her clit into his mouth and she came hard. She looked down at him and their eyes met.
He had watched her the whole time, needed to see her.
He laid his head down on one of her thighs and caressed the other one, waited for her to come down from her orgasm. As he heard that her breathing got normal he came up to her and laid down on her. At the beginnig of their affair or relationship, he didn´t know how to call it, he didn´t lay down on her because he thought he was too heavy for her, but after a while he noticed that Kate always pulled him down onto her. She liked his weight on her, she liked to feel his whole body.
Her eyes were still closed as he kissed her lips. Kate smiled against his lips and wrapped her arms around his neck. Her hand moved down between them. He took his cock and heard him growl as she touched it for the first time. She positioned his cock at her entrance and with one thrust he sank into her hot core.
Kate wrapped her legs around his waist. She bit softly down on his lip. They stopped kissing and looked at each other. Kate panted and her fingetips moved over his jaw. Then her arms moved back around his neck and she pulled him even closer to her. His mouth was at her throat, kissing it again and making little marks. With soft kisses his mouth moved to her ear and he began to whisper.
" I love this feeling, Kate. Being inside you and feeling you. You´re so hot and tight and I wished we would never have to stop. I wished we could stay like this forever. Every time I feel you come I´m in heaven. Come on, Kate, take me to heaven."
Kate threw her head back as she came and screamed his name. He felt her fingernails digging into his shoulders and he let go and came inside her.
He rolled down so that he could lay on his back and pulled her close to him.They just laid there like that for a while. Then someone disturbed them. They heard Rebecca calling for Sawyer.
"Oh, no." He said while he stood up and put his clothes on. He leaned down to kiss Kate and said.
" Breakfast in a half hour. I´m expecting you."
He went and left a smiling Kate.
"What´s the matter, little one?" He asked Rebecca as he found her in the big living room looking for him.
"I´m 18. Don´t call me little one. I wanted to ask if I can go to Susie."
He didn´t even have to think about it. No Rebecca means just him and Kate.
"Okay. How long?"
"I guess you won´t see me until tomorrow morning."
"Okay. Don´t tell mom that I didn´t see you for a whole day. She´ll kill us both."
Rebecca smiled at her brother and five minutes later she was out of the house. This weekend would be better than he would have thought.
Kate stood up right after Sawyer left. She wanted to shower and she didn´t know what to wear. Even if she didn´t go out she wanted to look good. For him. She didn´t shower long and picked a violett summer dress which couldn´t be smaller.
She went down and looked for him, but she didn´t find him. She walked to the terrace and found the table full with food. Eggs, bacon, strawberries, grapes and a lot more. But she still didn´t see Sawyer.
"Where are you?" She asked quietly. Then she felt arms around her waist.
"Right behind you, Freckles." Kate leaned back against him.
"Where´s Rebecca?"
" A friends´ house. Till tomorrow morning. It can´t get any better, can it?"
"No." Kate said.
Sawyer was sitting on one of the chairs and Kate was sitting on his lap. With one arm he pulled her close to him and the hand of the other arm was busy with feeding Kate with strawberries and grapes. They really managed it to eat even if the temptation was big to go upstairs again. She turned her head so she could face him.
"It´s really nice. You know, just sitting here. And it seems that time doesn´t matter . It seems like we would sit here forever." Kate said and every word she spoke was quieter than the one before.
Sawyer knew what she was feeling. In moments like that...They never had a moment like that before. They couldn´t keep their hands off each other so every time they met they had sex. They never had breakfast together. They had never been like a normal couple, but in this moment they were. And this showed them that they would never be a normal couple, that they would never be togehter like they should be or like they wanted to be.
He saw a little tear rolling down her cheek. She buried her face on his chest and didn´t say a word for the rest of the hour.
" We have to do the washing up." She said while she stood up. Together they carried the dishes to the kitchen and did the washing up.
As she dried the last plate he wrapped his arms around her waist.
"I won´t marry. You know that and my parents stopped trying three years ago. I´ll always have time for you and will come to you if you need me, but we can´t give everything up and run away, Kate. That´s not possible and you know that. I´ll always be there for you if you need me, Freckles."
She turned around. Tears were rolling down her cheeks which he didn´t want to see because he couldn´t stand to see her cry.
" I need you every minute. I need you at night when he lies next to me and I need you at these stupid parties because I want you by my side. I´m thinking of you when Jack wants sex because it´s the only way I can bear it. I can´t have what I want more than anything else because you´re not ready to give up everything else. But I am and it sucks that I feel more for you than you feel for me. I tell you why it´s impossible for us to be a normal, happy couple. Because you don´t want us to be a normal couple. I love you and it hurts that you can´t feel the same way for me."
She stopped talking and ran out of the kitchen.
Sawyer was standing in the kitchen. Speechless. He couldn´t move, couldn´t run after her because what she had said scared him more than everything. He didn´t know if he loved her, but if he didn´t do something he would never find out.
Kate was sitting on her bed and she was still crying. What had she been thinking? She had told him that she loved him. He would never speak to her again. She always thought that they would never be a couple because of the family traditions and that whole stuff, but now they would never be a normal couple because of her own stupidity.
Then it knocked on the door.
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