I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT WRITING FOR SO LONG! i will def write this summer. I have had a pretty busy freshman year. I hope you like it! 3
10 Years Ago
"Hey if you really wanted that ice cream you should have beaten me to it" I was taunting him with the cone, chocolate mint, his favorite.
"I didn't know there was that much ice cream" He pointed to the cone
I hinted him towards the cone, "We can share, isn't that what boyfriend and girlfriend do?" I laughed at the thought of it.
We haven't been that cheesy since summer.
He shook his hands and his head no.
"Conrad, it's just ice cream, I know we haven't been romantically connected the past couple months but-"
"Shhhh" Conrad put one finger to my lips
He looked at straight into my eyes, a shot of despair flashed against his face. He embraced me in a hug. I accepted that embrace with every inch of my body.
"You know I kinda missed those hugs."
A faint smile shined on his face, "Belly, my mom, you know what's up. With her and college, I just needed a hug." The smile on his face grew a tad bigger; he grabbed my hand and led me to the couch.
He sat down, all his weight going down with him. He motioned me to sit next to him. I sat my distance on the other side of the couch.
He stared at me bluntly "Really, can't we sit closer? Isn't that what boyfriend and girlfriend do?
I shot him a look, "Are you mocking me?"
He laughed his familiar Conrad laugh, "No, just stating the facts."
I smiled and scooted a little to the right. He did the rest by scooping me up like a Childs teddy bear, and pulling me tight to his chest. I could hear his heart beat; I could feel his chest move slowly up and down. I closed my eyes; the smell of Conrad tickled my nose.
I took a breath in and let it out, "I'm really glad that my mom let me come."
I looked up at him, he was staring at the wall, and then he looked down and connected his eyes with mine.
"Me too."
I readjusted myself so I lied comfortably on his chest. We both on the couch didn't speak a word. I was starting to drift off into to sleep when Conrad spoke:
"Belly?"
"Hmmm?"
"Have you ever thought that this, long distance thing wasn't going to work?"
"No, I knew we could work it out."
"Oh"
"Did you think it was?"
He was hesitant "Well, I had my doubts"
I pulled away from him, "Really? You had your "doubts"? You thought that this wasn't going to work out. I could feel the hot rising up in my face.
"No, I mean yeah, at times when I didn't hear from you."
"Well that's just great Conrad"
I got up and walked towards the bedroom. I grabbed my Pjs and stomped into the bathroom. Slamming the door in his face. He was trying to open it, the marvels of locks these days. I sat on the toilet, furious, my chest moving up and down, faster as more thoughts ravaged through my mind:
How could he? Was he cheating on me? Was I such a bad girlfriend that he had to cheat on me?
There was a knock.
"Belly, com'on I didn't mean it"
Those four words made me angrier. Why can every guy think he can get away with anything, with I didn't mean it."Four words I hope I never hear again.
"Which part did you not mean? The part that you said our relationship was over? Or the part where your other girlfriend slipped up?
"Belly I never cheated on you. I was lonely and needed someone"
"SOMEONE? So you DID cheat on me?"
"NO! I just needed you and you weren't here"
"So you picked up a random girl and she was me for the semester right?"
"Belly I haven't even looked at a girl the way I look at you, I never will. Don't do this, Please."
I was silent. He couldn't even look at girls?
"You're bluffing."
"Belly Please?"
I stared down at the floor; his pleading was the one and only thing that my immune system couldn't fight off. I stood up and walked over to the door. Hesitating for the door knob I unlocked it, I grabbed it. I slowly turned it and the door opened. Conrad was standing in the corner with his head down and leaning against the wall.
"Conrad?"
He looked up; he walked over and grabbed my hands.
"Bella I love you more than anything" He moved my hands to his chest right where his heart is.
"I love you too." I looked up at him and kissed him.
We stood there for I don't know how long kissing, as if it were the first time.
