I never thought the day would come where i would leave my brother sebastian and move to university without him stuck to my side watching out for me. always making sure no harm would ever come to me but now after getting a scholarship to Aisling University for a major in art and design im crapping it. to be honest when i sent off my application i was kindof hoping i wouldnt get accepted dont get me wrong i want nothing more than to just be able to paint and create my way through life but the thought of having to come without the protection of seb who has practically raised me since i was six and he was 10 just doesnt sit right with me. i am a tough cookie i know i cant put myself out there and make a show of myself, i know from experience that it only leads to disaster and heartache but i know my bright red hair and green eyes makes it hard for me but im kindof hoping theres a place for me at Aisling university (even though ill be the only 17 year old to have recieved a scholarship there). i just dont want to ruin all the hard work seb has done to try and protect me from any harm.
the day i got my acceptance letter i swear i nearly died from slight happiness and then at the same time i knew what was coming: seb and i already had the talk of me having to move to scotland by myself as he couldnt get a job out there, at the same time he had told me all the rules he had made for me to keep me safe and i promised him id take care of myself.
now im packing my stuff onto a plane and seb is by my side telling me everything will be fine no matter how hard it will be without him i must fulfill my dreams. well, it was my mothers dream but then she fell in love with the waste of a man called valentine (my father for all intents and purposes) and got pregnant with seb and made her family her top priority.
Anyway as i was saying seb is giving me the once over on how to stay safe and yada yada yada. then stops to embrace me in a hug. we re lucky this is a 3am flight as we have the terminal to ourselves
"...and no matter what happens clary i love you and i will always be here for you ALWAYS" then stops and snarls " that bastard valentine" he spits "will not find you i promise"
i dont respond and tuck my face under his chin resting in his chest and i shudder at the thought of valentine finding me again and well never mind... i cant respond i just, well i just cant. i hate seeing the emotional caring side of seb he always says 'to show emotion is to show ones weakness' nd i cant have sebs weakness to come about me.
when i dont respond i guess seb takes it as im nervous not upset and says
"clarrreeeee beeeaarrr, come on clary please" that earns him a look at least.
as i lift my head from his chest he says "oh little red dont worry, youre going to fit in just fine there, roaming around with all the others interested in one form of artsy fartsy shite or another. youll be amazing little red and will know them all out the park... all be it a very scottish one but hey look clary at least youve got all your open land you always wanted" with that he smirks hs signature seb smile that only i get the privelege of seeing.
i smack his arm pull away from him relax and then start to laugh hysterically then me being me i cry happy ters and mange to choke out in between sobs "i know" sob "mom always" "mom always wanted this" sob "i just want to make it real seb"
this gets me a little tap on the chin from seb and he just smiles and says "youll be perfect" and whispers "mom would be so roud of you"
then the damn tannoy goes off *ALL PASSENGERS TO BOARD THE 3:20 FLIGHT FOR AARON, SCOTLAND. ALL PASSENGERS TO BOARD*
I panic even seb starts to panic "oh shit clary i almost forgot heres your new phone ive set it all up for you with everything you need and all contacts you need is in here including mine and the number of the guy who is going to pick you up when you land he is called alec and i know i say no involvement clary but i can trust him to look after you okay youll be fine. transport of your luggage will all be sorted out okay just relax when you get there" he pauses and smirks again "and clary you wont have to worry about him trying it on with your feiry...well feiry stuff okay" and gestures to my hair then pretends like he is putting out a spark then pushes me towards the tunnel i have to go through to get on the plane then shouts "CALL ME WHEN YOU LAND THEN EVERY TWO HOURS I LOVE YOU LITTLE SIS"
im running now to get to my plane doors and call back "I LOVE YOU SEBBY" and with that i step foot on the plane and lose sight of seb and leave everything behind...
so i feel like i do know the direction this is going in and this chapter seemed a little long winded but seb and clarys relationsip wnt be airing too much for a few chapters now (i think anyway) so yeah much loves for anyonee reading
keep shadowhunting
-mordorshadows-
