Author Note: last chapter had a lost of mistakes. :\ sorry about that! I'm sorry I am taking to long to get to the point of stuff. Next chapter (after this short one :P) should be amazing ;). Reviews? Please?

Disclaimer: I wish I owned Degrassi.


His lips would trace down my collar bone and make circles around my stomach. It was a tease and I hated it. He always took too long to get to the point. I yarned for everything but he found pleasure in my frustration. He would play with my underwear but never take them off. He'd lick between my thighs and stop, leaving me panting. He secretly got off just by doing that.


"Do you love me?"

"Of course I do silly, I wouldn't spend so much time with if I didn't" He replied.

"No, I mean enough to make some sacrifices?" He gave me a blank stare.

"What do you want to try new things because I am totally up for –"

"No! Drew, do you never not think about sex at all?" He face was stuck again. "I mean we are way more than that right?" I grabbed his hand and held it.

"I thought you liked it." He paused. "Alli, I will do absolutely anything that makes you happy."

I kissed him. "So we are taking a break from sex."

He continued to kiss me. "Just one more time." He said between light pecks.

We began to kiss more and more. Each time we heated up. He unbuttoned my shirt slowly until I was bare. He caressed my breast with small strokes. I pulled his shirt off and got on top of him. Our bare chests rubbed together as we continued to kiss. I liked this, feeling his heart beat against my skin.


"Alli? Are you okay? You look a little pale. Why don't you lie down?" The nurse was trying to get my attention. I come in the afternoon on days when I feel that weird pressure on my chest.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

She slipped me two little blue pills. I called them sad suckers because afterward I feel light and carefree.

"If you feel anymore anxiety today Alli just come here and I'll give you a pass to go home. Okay?" I nodded.

Every time I'm in here I feel sick. I wish everything would stop. But it don't, instead it feels like a 50 pound baby is taking a walk on my chest. Like I've gotten in to a fight and someone pulled clots of my hair out. I try to hold my breath. I don't want anyone to hear the pain in my inhales. I close my eyes as tight as I could and swallowed my sad away.

"Can I go home Nurse? I don't think I can handle the rest of the day?" I lied.

"Sure I'll write you up a pass." She turned away to her notepad.

I walk out the building relived. I think I want to go to the beach, no the park, no the trail. The orange leaves and warm air made it the perfect day to do just anything. I twirled when I was outside, yes twirled. I stretched my arms out as far I could and turned in circles, over and over. I don't care how dizzy I would get I was more free today than any other. I took an inhale and for the first time my heart was yarning for more. Yarning. I would sacrifice a whole day of my life to die this free.

I collected myself and began my walk to the trail. It was right behind the ravine.


"Do you like to see me like this? Want me to BEG?" he sounded so desperate.

"Stop arguing with me. I thought we were on the same page with this Drew! I can't!" I yelled.

"You had no problem with it before." He paused. "You got someone else?"

"Fuck you Drew. You're fucking insane you know this? I can't even be civilized with my boyfriend of almost two years. Why can't we just hold off on the sex, we lasted this long."

"What a month isn't enough? What's the point of all this anyway? You've did it before." He had a psycho look in his eyes.

"Want us to be more than just those two teens in love fucking each other brains out. We are way more than that babe." I grabbed his hands and entwined them with mine.

"Honestly, I love you. Why can't we just continue to love each other like we use too." He smirked.

"I think we should wait longer. See how things work out, ya know?"

"Damnit Alli." He let go of my hands and left me in his room.