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"So who is she?"
Edward came to a halt in the dimly lit hall, startled, and looked over at Jacob.
"Who?" he questioned, confused.
"The girl you've been cheating on."
"How-"
Jacob cut him off with a raised hand.
"Ed, I've been doing this for a while now." he chuckled slightly. "I know which ones are single and which ones aren't."
As they continued their long trek down the hall, Edward wondered exactly how long 'a while' really was. For some reason, the thought of Jacob having other 'clients' made his gut twist uncomfortably. The russet skinned Adonis must've misread the expression on his face for guilt, because when they finally made it to their designated room- just before Edward could put the key in the door-Jacob stopped him with a hand.
"Don't feel too bad Ed. It's not like you're the only one who's done this."
Jacob took the key and opened the door, leading Edward inside. He turned on the lights, throwing the key on a little side table by the door. He turned to face Edward and watched in amusement as the paler of the two looked down, flustered.
"You don't have to be embarrassed sweetheart." he pulled Edward close to him, pressing their lips together.
"I don't bite." he trailed kisses down Edwards's neck, moving up to his ear to nip at it slightly
"Much."
Edward flushed, suppressing a shiver as Jacob's deep, throaty laugh trickled through his ear. He swallowed thickly, trying to compose himself.
"Don't get too comfortable. I already told you that this was the last time." he breathed out.
"Yeah you did." Edward felt the curve of a smile against his neck. "That's what you said last time too. And the time after that." he kissed Edward's neck in between sentences. "And the time after that!"
Edward started to pull away, angered, but Jacob held on fast. They stood there, staring at each other for a long second.
"I mean it this time." Edward said, voice firm. Jacob almost believed him.
"Okay," Jacob said, holding up a hand in surrender. He led Edward over to the bed, gently pushing him down until he lay on his back.
"Whatever you say."
...
2 months later...
"Can I get you anything else sir?"
The bronze haired beauty slowly looked up under long eyelashes, taking in a stunning and curvaceous red head. He allowed his gaze to purposely slide up and down her frame a bit longer than necessary-long legs, wide hips, slender waist, full breast, and pouty lips-finally meeting her hooded jade eyes which were giving him what he assumed was her best 'come hither' look.
"No that'll be all." Edward smiled, amused, at the slightly too friendly waitress and watched as she sauntered off, looking a little disappointed. He wondered idly whether he should've tried harder to pretend he had some interest in her, or if he'd been believable enough.
'Always keeping up appearances.'
"-ward, are you listening to me?"
He focused his attention back to the annoyed pixie sitting across from him, her arms crossed expectantly.
"Of course I was Alice." he reassured her. She rolled her eyes.
"Sure you were. How am I supposed to get anything done if you keep spacing out?"
"I'm sorry if I'm holding you up." he muttered dryly. "God forbid that four months isn't enough time to plan MY wedding." he put on a mock look of horror, his sister giggling behind her hand.
"You are hopeless! If I wasn't here I can't imagine how you'd plan this thing."
'I preferably wouldn't be planning it at all' he thought to himself.
As if she had read his mind, her grin slipped from her face.
"This is what you want isn't it?"
'Is it?'
"Of course it is." he put on a fake smile. "Bella and I have been engaged all of our lives-she is my life. Who else is there to keep the 'blue blood' pure? Certainly not you."
Alice looked down guiltily at that. She had been the only one of her siblings to not only not marry her betrothed, but also to marry outside of their bloodline-a bartender she'd met while vacationing in Texas. She still wasn't on the best speaking terms with most of the family.
"And Rosalie can't have kids," he continued. "As Carlisle loves to say, I'm our 'last hope'." he had to smile at that even if the words were bitter.
"You shouldn't have to do this-you don't even love her." she said softly. "It's not fair."
Edward reached across the table to grasp her little hand in his.
"Of course I love her-I'm planning to spend the rest of my life with her aren't I?"
His sister still looked dubious.
"We're going to be very happy together." he tried to reassure her. "I'll be okay."
'Won't I?'
...
After they'd eaten their fill they said their goodbyes, and went their separate ways. Edward got into his car and quickly drove off, his mind wandering. Would he be okay? For as long as he could remember he'd always been told how to act, what to do, and what to say. He'd always known what his family had expected of him-to marry Bella and to never bring disgrace to their name- and he'd never questioned it. Bella was a sweet girl; pretty enough-he didn't know why what had seemed like such a certainty in his life now only looked distant and unsure.
"I thought you said you weren't coming around anymore."
Or maybe he did.
"Just get in Jake." he sighed.
He wondered when they'd gotten familiar enough to start using nicknames.
He kept his eyes facing forward as he heard the click of his passenger door opening; the slam of it being shut. He subtly inhaled the new scent that invaded the car-he didn't know how to explain it, but the smell reminded him of sunshine-and after hearing the click of a seatbelt, began to drive off.
'What am I doing?' he wondered to himself. Here he was, Edward Cullen, with a great life and a beautiful fiancé. Why was he messing it all up? What was it about this boy that had him coming back for more, even though he knew it was wrong? He didn't even want to think of what would happen if Carlisle found out. The humiliation, the disgrace….the shame. He didn't think he could stand to see that look of disgust and disappointment on his face. And what of Bella? Alice? What would they think of him if they knew that every weekand for the last two months he'd been screwing a pr-
"Ed?"
Edward jumped slightly, startled. He'd forgotten that Jacob was even there. At the feel of a warm-too warm- hand on his shoulder, he turned his head to look at him for the first time since he'd gotten in the car. He felt himself lean into the touch slightly, helplessly lost in the most intoxicating dark brown eyes he'd ever seen. His thoughts calmed down, and suddenly he couldn't remember why he'd thought this had been a bad idea in the first place.
"Pull over."
'What?'
Edward looked at Jacob questioningly but none the less complied, pulling off to the side of the road. Without saying a word Jacob got out of the car, slamming the door closed. Silence engulfed the vehicle as Edward sat there; utterly confused and unprepared when his own door was wrenched open.
"Scoot over."
Still not seeing where this was going, he nonetheless felt himself maneuver his body until he was in the passenger seat. Jacob climbed in and restarted the car, pulling back out onto the road. Edward watched, transfixed, as Jacob began driving in a completely different direction from their intended destination.
"Um, the hotel is-"
"We're not going to the hotel."
Edward sighed, frustrated. "Then where are we-"
He was abruptly cut off by Jacob pressing their lips together, kissing him softly. they both pulled away slightly, keeping their foreheads together for a moment.
"Do you trust me?"
Edward nodded, dazed.
"Yes."
Jacob leaned back, fixing his eyes on the road.
"Then shut up, and don't ask any more questions until we get there. I promise we'll fuck later."
Jacob grinned at the growing flush spreading across Edwards face. The bronze haired man made himself comfortable, leaning his head on the cool glass of the window and watching the trees fly past.
"Hey."
He looked over at Jacob's sudden change in tone.
"You're gonna be okay."
A.N.: Really sorry for the wait! (and sorry that this isn't really that long) but i'm going to try my best to get the next chapter out much quicker!
