CHAPTER 2:

I DO NOT IN ANY WAY OWN NARUTO OR THE CHARACTERS IN IT! THIS IS PURELY FAN MADE AND FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY! NO COPY WRIGHT INFRINGMENT WAS EVER INTENDED!!!!!!

Okay this is my very first fanfiction so please don't flame me, feel free to critique and give ideas, anything you think I need to improve on. I am always open to opinions and ideas, if I use and I dea you give me I will give special thanks as long as I have permission to do so. Thank you very much….READ!!!!

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As I walked through the gates I paused…I looked back one last time and remembered…I was happy once…even though the village hated me…I had a life here once…I had hopes once… I remember training with Sakura and Sasuke…the chunin exams, I remember going to the ramen shop with Iruka sensei…but when I turned 18 everything stopped…Sakura didn't want to hang out anymore, everyone was going on missions and Tsunade only used me when all others were on missions and she always seemed disgusted. Iruka sensei became too busy to visit and everyone was going on dates and missions and I stayed home alone. I remember the day I realized how stupid I was…to trust and believe in people…How foolish my smiles must have seemed. I looked back at the busy town and closed my eyes before dispelling the tiny amount of sadness at leaving and walked through the gates. I walked calmly as several ANBU followed me for about seven miles. They pulled back and I immediately began running. I blew past guards and wanderers not caring to stop. Guards sounded alarms of an intruder but by the time they realized I had passed I was gone. I stopped in water country and checked into a hotel. I walked down the hall and opened my door. As I did I caught raven hair out of the corner of my eye. I looked out of reflex and sure enough. Sasuke stood before me glaring.

"Come to drag me back dope?" He almost smiled.

I looked away and smirked…after all these years he still only thought about himself…

"No…why bother trying to get back…what I never had?" I said quietly before entering and closing my door. I caught the surprise that flitted across his face. I placed my bag down by my door and sat over in a corner. I soon became deep in thought as I often was when I was alone. I walked into the bathroom after a while and ran the water. I stepped in and hissed as the water scalded me. I let the burning water run over me, cleansing me of the memory of the village I had left behind. I stared at the white tiles, studying the cracks and grout. The water became so cold at one point I started to shiver and I was forced to get out when I lost feeling in my fingers. As I stepped out of the shower I slipped on pooled water and fell smacking my head off of the sink.

"Heh…some ninja I am…" I mumbled as I realized I had gone from depressed to pathetic…I was losing my will to fight…I shook my head and stood up. I looked in the mirror and found my head was bleeding. I wiped it away and bandaged it and began to get dressed. All of a sudden my bathroom door burst open as I grabbed my shirt and Sasuke was staring at me with the same hatred he had in his eyes at the valley of the end…I looked away and back into the mirror. I looked down as I put my shirt on and as I tried to walk past he stopped me.

"Why are you here dope." I looked at him clearly annoyed.

"I have a name. Use it."
"Fine. Why are you here moron." He smirked.

"I'm glad you can make jokes Uchiha. Your moron is dead and he can't come back." I snapped as I shoved his arm away and walked out into the bedroom. I began to make my bed out for the night and he watched me surprised for a minute.

"What happened to you…your supposed to threaten me and try to kick my ass to impress your Sakura."

I clenched my pillow tightly. My blood began to boil and Kyuubi began to stir.

What did I have to do to prove I wasn't interested in 'saving' anything anymore? I was so tired of being what everyone wanted me to be tired of chasing old dreams and hopes and tired of thinking it would all be okay. I wasn't interested in being an ninja or the hero anymore.

"Sasuke…I don't give a shit anymore…she was never mine. You are all any of them think about."
"So basically your bowing out, being a coward running away." Suddenly I wason my feet before I even realized I moved. I got in his face taking him by surprise as I trapped him against the wall pinning his wrists. I had about three inches on him but I bent down to look him in the eye. Through my eyes I unleashed my full fury as well as Kyuubi's. His eyes widened as I glared.

"Naruto. Is. Dead. I don't give a FUCK about Konaha or anyone in it. I don't give a FUCK about the past. I don't give a FUCK about who I was and I certainly don't give a FLYING FUCK about you. You call me a coward yet you ran away first. You clung to your hatred and your pain. I suffered for existing Sasuke. No one in that village EVER believed in me but everyone wanted you as a pupil. Think of all the things you COULD have had. The friendships you sacrificed, the LOVE you could have had…all the things I so desperately wanted, YOU had. You are the coward Uchiha." I hissed acid in my veins. I backed away fuming. He didn't move and I went back to making my bed and setting out clothes for tomorrow.

"What do you know about me dope…my family was dest—"

"Oh shut it Sasuke! You have been spouting that same bullshit ever since it happened! Oh pity me pity me my family was killed…do you..know, what real loneliness feels like? Do you know what it feels like to be in utter agony and still find the strength to laugh when there is nothing left? You could have turned to anyone…my mother died when I was born. My father to, fighting the fox demon that had attacked the village, that night, he sacrificed his life to protect the village and seal that very demon in me. Gaara has it even worse. You're not one of us Sasuke so I wouldn't assume you would know."

I saw Sasuke bristle and I smiled.

"Now ou know how I felt every time I wanted to play with other kids, how I felt like every day of my life. Now get out of my room I am done with you."

"Excuse me?!" He screamed.

"Who do you think you are!"He grabbed my arm.

"Ya know Sasuke…for as many times as you say you could care less about me…you keep trying to talk to me…what do you really want?" I asked facing him, my anger faded and my numbness surfacing.

"It's not like we are friends…so killing wouldn't make you more powerful, it would just be doing me a favor." I stood beside the window and watched the locals scurry about like little ants. I felt him staring at me and I closed my eyes.

"I lost the will to fight along time ago…long before you left Sasuke…I fought and preached what I never really believed in because I didn't want anyone to feel like I did…to see the monster I really was…"
"You still talk as much as you used to dope." He retorted.

I sighed and walked right up to him. I looked at him and for an instant saw that same Sasuke that used to sit on the docks as a child, staring out on the water. I stripped down to my plain black shirt and fishnet shirt under shirt and put on my sandals. I then walked out knowing Sasuke would follow.

"What are you doing?"

I didn't answer. I didn't really feel like talking any more I mean what was the point if your words always fell on deaf ears.

"NARUTO!" He snapped. I turned and grimaced.

"I am to…spotable like this. I need to change my appearance…"

"Naruto…can I come?"

"Hell if I care…why…"

"I wanna see if your taste in clothes has improved." He chuckled. I looked him up and down.

"I'm sorry I didn't know black stocking that made your legs look fat, purple skirt and a white shirt and a butt bow was fashionable…oh wait…its not." I grumbled. I heard him make a huffing sound and he followed. I first went to a clothing store and purchased some black pants and some black hoodies and shirts. I then went to a salon and they dyed my hair black along with my eye brows as not to look TO strange. I went to a gothic shop and bought some bracelets finding that I liked everything. I even found a black leather choker. It was simple black leather but I thought it was hot. Sasuke made numerous comments about how gay it looked but each time I just smiled. I then went into a tattoo shop and got my tongue and ears pierced. I played with the metal in my mouth as Sasuke stared.

"What…"
"You know Naruto I would never recognize you…"

I stopped sensing the sarcasm.

"I can change my eyes…that is simple chakra manipulation."

All day Sasuke followed me around and I finally turned. I stared at him as if he made a joke I didn't understand.

"What do you want?" Suddenly his eyes widened as he looked past me. My head swivled around and we both cursed at the same time.

Sakura was standing not three feet away and I knew she realized it was me.

"Naruto…Sasuke? What happened Sasuke why did you leave!" She shoved past me and ran right to Sasuke clutching his robe. I looked away at the ground. He saw my pained expression and just stared as I gave them a last glance then began walking away. I made it to my hotel room and ran into the bathroom. I immediately puked in the toilet.

She didn't even care…then again, why would she… I looked at myself in the mirror and decided it was time to go." I packed my things and put on my pack. I opened my door and suddenly everything went black…