E/O Challenge: Punish

Summary: Happy Birthday, smalld1171! Well, you asked for hurt!/angsty!/feverish!/mental collapsing!Dean (sadist). I hope this works for you, bud.

Disclaimer: Don't own it. Don't get paid to write it. (sad)

A/N: Tag(ish) to 7.10 (Death's Door) and 6.01 (Exile on Main Street). No REAL spoilers, though. Not specifically.

Good Deans Don't Go Unpunished

The nightmare snuck up on him. A brown-haired boy smiled at him while he repaired a white pick-up truck. The admiration in Ben's brown eyes was palpable. The despair at the memory set off another. Sam and he sat together under a table, a sheet concealing them. He smiled at the gleam in his brother's eyes and cringed at the shriek of glee when Bobby's face appeared. A grin lit the older man's face at finding them. Dean's heart seized at the sense of loss in the harrowing memories meant to punish him for a life spent saving the world.