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Freddie's p o v
10 weeks , 90720 minutes 6048000 seconds two and a half months that's how long she's been gone . Every Second she was gone felt like my heart was being ripped into shreds. I tried to tell myself to calm down but how could I? It wasn't as if I could tell my heart to stop beating or to tell my heart who it can love. I mean it's a heart you need it to breath without the heart beating you can't breath well that's how it felt for me not having her here all summer in my life like I was suffocating .
I spent all summer just trying to to find ways to not be so totally head over heals about her. I mean I have loved her for so long and she has rejected me every time sure there was a brief shining moment when I was hit by that wonderful taco truck and saved her life where she thought she was in love with me. I remember how her lips felt so soft and so inviting. She tasted like coconuts and I swear I have never loved that fruit more. Her hair was so soft as I had ran my hands through it it smelled like strawberries. She had kissed me and I had been speechless. I still was long after she had broken up with me claiming she was never really in love with me just what I did. She that She Devil had poisoned my beautiful , smart, funny caring, perfect girlfriend against me. She would pay I was sure of that as sure as I was after all this time had passed. I was still madly and deeply in love with her...I had faced the facts over the past summer . I tried everything Boot Camp With Mom for Aggressive Parents and their children, Yea that was real fun. I worked on a history project for extra credit for this coming school year. I made up math cards to tutor kids. I even got a job sure it paid badly but the hours I was working. I wasn't thinking about her. I went to the Gym to lift weights , I joined a club at the library for young Av Geniuses. Nothing worked for very long sure I would be heavily involved in something for a few minutes but then Bam it would hit me her laugh , her smile her scent and I would be back to where I started. The very question would still be there to tell her or not to tell her? Risk it all or keep quite and keep her close. She had moved on dated other guys she told me all the time she didn't love me like that, yet I still dreamed...I let out a aggravated groan as I fell back on to the Shay's couch it was so empty in this apartment without her and Spencer. Quite Too quite it gave me to much time to think which was dangerous cause then I would let myself drift to those places in my mind where it shouldn't go.
Places where there were no obstacles that prevented us from being together . I saw us walking holding hands as we watched the waves crash along the ocean ... I saw us as king and queen of our home coming which was this year ...I saw us in Paris on our honeymoon kissing under the Eiffel Tower
Stop it Freddie I scolded myself these fantasies were ridicules they could never be I mean she only liked me as a friend. How could I get her to see me differently? We had talked nearly everyday on the phone and she had never hinted that we could be anything more. Sure she was a bit more flirty but she was probably just bored there isn't much that passes for Excitement up in great old Yakima.
At least I thought so but she's so shy what if she was trying to hint that she wanted to be more and just didn't know how? Was she waiting for me to make the first move? I had been quiet all summer as I went through it all in my mind the great list of reasons for my dilemma ..List one..
Carly Shay Will Never Love Me Because
# 1 She thinks it would ruin our friendship if we broke up
#2 iCarly is too important to mess up if we break up
#3 She's hot and I am a geek
#4 She Thinks of me as A little Brother
#5 She scared of my mom
#6 Carly doesn't like repeating mistakes
And she views us dating as a mistake
#7 I'm a Av loser
#8 I'm a dork who prefers to spend time studying instead of partying
#9 She likes to party
#10 I'm a chicken
#11 She's Hot!
List of Reasons Why Carly Shay Will Love Me
#1 I will treat her right and Never lie to her
#2 I will never make her cry
#3 I don't collect pee wee babies
#4 I lift weights so I am stronger and I have matured
#5 I'm scared of my mom to
#6 I care about what she likes
Yea this was not going so well I had a whole list of reasons as to why she Wouldn't love me and 6 pathetic reasons as to why she could love me.
"Yo ho Gibster in the house!
I turned from my nice comfort spot on the couch where I was scrunched up to see Gibby Gibson come in shirtless juggling fruit singing one of Carly's new songs ..Did I mention in addition to be gorgeous sweet and smart she's super talented she sings and she dances and writes her own songs. Well she is and she does.. he was singing High Maintenance as he juggled oranges and bananas which he was catching more in his mouth eating then in his hands.
Hey Gibby How Goes it?
I replied lazy he shrugged as he bee lined for the computer
It's hot and I'm hungry when are they coming home Freddie?
Should be anytime now I think Spencer called a little over an hour ago and said that..
Were Home!
As on Cue they walked through the door well Carly walked through with her cell glued to her ear as Spencer stumbled through dragging 6 suitcases with him. It was a sight let me tell you. I went over to help him as Carly muttered about someone not answering her calls. She sounded annoyed she looked so cute when she was annoyed.
Carly ! Spencer!
We called out he grunted a hello as he stumbled in breathless dropped the bags and announced he was going to go paint mud sculptures naked . We groaned as Carly threw her phone down on the sofa annoyed .
Ah I hate when people don't answer it's so rude!
Carly Exclaimed as she threw herself down on the sofa
No one should ever be rude to you Goddess Shay
Yea Real Mature huh? I grew up soo much this summer.. Not.. but she giggled I sat down by her and couldn't help but stare as she stretched out her gorgeous way tanned lags . I think she grew a few inches over the summer. I was glad to see she didn't roll her eyes as I felt my face flush. I wanted to tell her so bad but not with Gibby there singing I am a Barbie Girl.. besides she looked tired as she laid her head back. I just wanted to reach over and brush her hair out of her eyes ..those gorgeous hazel eyes that make me sink deeper every time I lock my Chestnut Colored ones with hers. I sighed as I was transfixed by her.
Her hair was a lighter shade of Auburn now almost with a blond tint. She must of really soaked up the sun this summer. Her calf's looked thicker. I watched as her chest rose up and down she looked like she was sleeping. I reached up slowly be brave Freddie you can do this moving closer to her slowly my hand inched closer to her hair. I just wanted to feel it between my fingertips..I was so close..
Freak what are you doing?
Curse Gibby I muttered as I froze and her eyes shot open she looked around confused sleepy eyed . I quickly went back to where I was before trying to look innocent as Gibby gave me a disgusted look.
Carly looked around stretching...damn her arms looked so soft I just wanted to have them wrap around me so I could hold her in my arms forever and ever.
So what did everyone do this summer?
She asked as she shifted a yawn.. Gibby was busy looking at some website as he answered between bites of fruit which made his answer sound jumbled but I gathered it was.
Dorney Park and Wild Water Kingdom
All Summer Gibby that's expensive
I know your mom won't let you get a season pass?
Carly looked at him as he spoke
Hey what can I say I'm irresistible
Please He's Dating the head of security's daughter
Hey Don't Knock it Carls it works
Don't call her that !
I growled at him he dropped his Apple which went splat on her kitchen tiles she looked at me strange ..
Sorry Gibby
Hey man no problem I'll just be way over here...
Please warn me if I start to say
Something to piss off the Pussy Cat Roar...
Shut up I am not a pussy cat... I grumbled arms crossed staring at him.
What is with you Freddie?
Her eyes held such worry and I just wanted to stand up grab her and wrap my arms around her and shout ..
What's wrong?
Are you for real?
I'm In Love With You Carly Shay! I want to marry you and have babies with you!
Instead I shrugged which didn't seem to satisfy her I felt myself squirm..
Freddie Did Sam do something to you it's okay you don't have to be embarrassed you can tell me I won't laugh..
She touched my arm lightly which made my whole body tingle she leaned over to me. I could smell her black cherry perfume damn it was driven me nuts and damn I could feel myself down there getting excited. Please don't show I begged silently.
I shock my head unable to form proper words she kept asking, I kept not answering..Finally I was ready to burst literally. I jumped up and ran to the bathroom..my pants were getting tighter from just being near her..safety in the bathroom. She had no idea what she did to me ..No idea..at all and I wanted her to know ..Well maybe not everything.
Once I was calmer I sank to the floor burying my head in my knees. I was shaking so hard and I was so red damn I felt so stupid so weak. Why couldn't I just tell her? Oh yeah cause she could end up hating me and I would lose her..duh.
Freddie?
Ah!
She was waiting for me as I came out making me jump and scream like a girl great bonus points for me She took my hand if she had any idea what that hand had been doing oh..heck that was beyond mortifying.
What's wrong? You can tell me are you okay?
She was pressed against me so hard I could fell her heart beating. I could smell her she was intoxicating I felt myself shaking as I swallowed.
It's just that I wanted
Tell her ! My mind screamed looking into her eyes I felt myself drawn to her..
Did You and Sam fight this summer? Did you do something to piss her off and your scared I'll be mad?
No..Not really um I didn't really see her a lot..
Why Did you say something?
No I mean..I just didn't hear from her...
Liar! My mind screamed...
I haven't heard from her either I'm really worried Freddie she called me everyday like three or four times when I first left I mean we were texting so much Grandad took my phone for a week.
When I got it back she wouldn't answer I hope she's not pissed at me..
Her lips pouted she looked so adorable and so sad I hated for her to be sad. I should just tell her but then she'll know what a awful person I am and she'll hate me..still I should tell her if she hears it from me maybe she'll forgive me but if she hears it from someone else.
I hope she's okay it was so lonely without her this summer god I hate when I get dragged away
I just turned 17!
I shouldn't have to be forced to go to Yakima if I don't want to..I mean I love my grandparents but I wanted to chill now I only have three days till school starts yuck..
She pouted I felt her hands sweaty in mine I knew she was nervous I wanted to calm her down so bad my legs shock.
How was your summer are you sure your okay you can talk to me Fredd..
She was rambling so I did the only thing I could I kissed her hard and long she was shocked and speechless but she didn't fight me. I wrapped my arms around her she held me back as our lips caressed each others mouths.
We parted both of us breathless as we stared at each other . I didn't want to apologize but she looked so shocked . I started to feel scared did she think I was too pushy? Did she hate it ? Think I was a bad kisser? Was it strange to her?
Carly.. I ..wow I am..
Freddie We need to talk...I'm..
I need a drink..
She spun and ran to the kitchen Damn I hope I didn't make her cry.. Stupid, Stupid geek...
I slowly headed to the kitchen Gibby looked between us he could tell something happened..
You look like a Dudgeon Dragon
What did you do Freddie?
Shut up Gibby
Don't be mean to Gibby
She barked her hands shaking as she held her glass of lemonade she didn't offer me any but she pushed the pitcher to Gibby who drowned the whole thing.
I wish Sam was here Damn it where is she!
Why hasn't anybody heard from her!
She slammed down her glass Gibby looked scared as the glass shattered cutting her hands.. I went to race forward she pushed me away a few tears came forward...
What do you mean no one's heard from Her?
Freddie has..
Shut it Gibby
No I won't Didn't You tell her!
Tell me what?
She was getting pissed her face red..shaking..
Why isn't Sam here?
She Can't be She's been locked up since Late June
SHE'S WHAT!
Gibby backed up holding his hands up..
The police caught her car jacking and running away
Cross State lines...They uh chased her on the highway and She
Beat a cop up..they uh...Yea she's locked down..
She Called Freddie to Get in touch with you..
SHE WHAT!
YOU DIDN'T TELL ME
You Lied to me!
SPENCER!
Get Out here Now!
What!
He ran out naked covered in mud we all screamed he looked at us looked down and screamed and ran back to his room, she fixed her gaze on me and I ran screaming like a girl.
