Hello every one!

So, here I am with the second chapter at last XD been busy so I couldn't really update…and the world cup matches kept me from concentrating on any thing...even my daily life. T.T

AND I am so thankful for all your kind reviews.

Warning: This Fiction will contain somehow graphic scenes, yaoi and angst as story progresses. Please don't read if it disturbs you.

Disclaimer: Vampire knight doesn't belong to me. I am just borrowing the characters. XD

A/N: in the first part and in Zero's dream; He is refered to Kaname and He to Zero himself.


Chapter two: Of delusional minds


The dream…

No…the nightmare...it was there again…The same one…night after night…

Haunting him…torturing him…drowning him…

His visions were filled with butterfly kisses and light touches so real, tears shimmering in pools of vague ruby and Sakura petals falling all over bloody Orchids like rain.

That nightmare

He was standing, looking through wide glassy silver eyes at all the shattered crystals and petals all around him; knowing they will be going to be carried with the wind…they will be gone soon…he was left with the sickly stench blood and fear in the air…so thick and so sickening.

Then there he was…

He stood tall and graceful as always in front of his eyes; his beauty alluring and his scent maddening. The ruby of his eyes as deceiving as always and his perfection so perfect that made his heart ache with an unwanted want.

He took a step closer to him…and closer…and closer…

He couldn't move. He wanted to run away. He wanted to turn his back on him. He wanted to hate him…

But he couldn't…he was enchanted by his spell.

And after what it seemed an eternity…he was tangled in his embrace, his hot breathe brushing on the back of his neck, his warm hands softly caressing the silver strands between the trembling fingers.

He was shaking in his embrace. It was so foreign and yet it felt like home

Smoky lashes brushed against cold his cheeks as he held him tightly and his scent invaded his senses like a drug.

Tears fell from the beautiful ruby eyes slowly…

Bloody tears….

"I am so sorry for leaving you…"

Bloody tears…

"I am so sorry for taking away your memories…"

Bloody tears…

"It is too late to save me from this abyss…"

Bloody tears…

"Never regret after my death….because it will be never your fault…"

And then Kuran Kaname shattered in to hundreds of crystal pieces and Orchid petals in Kiryuu Zero's arms.


Zero woke up screaming.

"Wow…calm down Kiryuu-kun…calm down…"

Someone was speaking to him gently yet commandingly, holding him down as he was panting hard; Breath coming in short shuddering gasps.

It seemed he had been thrashing around because the sheets were all wrapped around his sweating body, so tight and suffocating that it was scary.

"You know…you were about to choke yourself with those sheets in sleep with all that thrashing around…"

The hands that were holding him down let him go slowly and Zero blinked slowly to find Kaien Cross leaning above him; concern shining in his golden eyes.

"Here…take a sip." He offered him a glass of water gently.

"I am ok now…" Zero whispered miserably and sat in the bed; His eyes shallow and dead, mind numb. The bitter sting of fear and nausea of that nightmare was still remaining in the air. He accepted the water thankfully no less, sipping it slowly, feeling the horrible tightness of his throat being washed away.

The other man narrowed his eyes. It was one of the few moments that he was being serious. Even though something told him he shouldn't speak, That he should leave the silver-haired hunter be….but…Zero was his precious son…he just couldn't let him fade away like…Yuuki.

"It has been two weeks." He said silently, his long fingers playing with the bed sheets. "And you are not getting any better."

Zero's hands tightened their grip on the glass he was holding… He frowned; feeling his eyes strangely wet. "What do you know? What can you now? She died in my arms!" He snapped.

The two weeks had been hell for him. All he could see was Yuuki's delicate frame shattering in his arms, her smiles turning in to tears and her last words like a mantra.

What was worst…

Nightmares of Kuran Kaname haunted him…

So sensual and yet so scary that it made his heart throb in agony…

He couldn't pretend Kaname was not real. Not anymore. He was there, present in his senses; alluring and eternal.

And there was his letter too …

Zero was feeling exhausted, sad, ashamed and scared. Ashamed that he could not have saved Yuuki and scared because it may have been too late for Kuran Kaname and yet his conscience was telling him that he had to go after him. Of course not for any other reasons.

For a moment Cross didn't speak. "I know…I failed Juuri-san…and Haruka…I failed them both…"

He paused, biting his lip, feeling bitter sadness running through him from losing his precious daughter. "If only I could do something to make things right…at least a bit…" He hid his face in his hands and Zero saw that his shoulders were shaking.

"You never told me what has happened to Kaname-kun…"

"I am sorry." Zero whispered softy, changing the subject rapidly. It was too painful to talk about Kaname for some unknown reason. The thought of losing the beautiful pureblood has become like a constant paranoia for Zero.

Kaname's love letter…his deep despair…it was driving Zero insane…

"It is ok Zerorin …you have always been a rebellious son…" Smiled Cross and ignored Zero's growing dark aura at the mentioning of that nickname.

"Damn you! How many times I should tell you not to call me that!" Zero's foul mood was taking over.

Cross smiled again, feeling light-hearted a bit. "Will you be ok? I have to go to the association."

"Huh?" Zero was surprised. It was not every day that the association sent for Cross.

"Yeah…they want to know things about Kurans again or some crap like that…" Hissed Cross. He didn't like it when the association asked him questions about purebloods and their life style.

They were so intruding and there was no way that Cross was going to tell them a word . Why did they want to know about Kurans anyway?

Zero felt his head spinning…what was happening to him?

Association…

Kurans…

Yuuki's death

Kaname's Bloody tears….

What piece of past had he forgotten and what piece of future he couldn't grasp?

"I will come with you."

Determination was shining in Zero's silver eyes. Self-pity and sorrow could be for reserved for another time. He needed to find out the truth and Kaname.


Void…

Dark, endless void was eating Kuran Kaname alive ever since his beloved was ripped away from him cruelly by destiny. He was never the same again. He had died that day with only emptiness remaining to reflect in his ruby eyes. He had become hollow and numb.

His one last try was for Zero…and for Yuuki…and now he wouldn't see either of them ever.

He was such a fool...he should have known that a beast never has a right to live a happy life.

It was devastatingly dark behind the blindfold, but he could feel the cold aura of the place he was in. He was not on the hard ground ironically…The material underneath him was soft, like the wings of an angel; sinful and embracing.

It seemed like a soft bed…

He shifted, feeling his movement strangely restricted. A humorless smile stretched on his colorless lips as he found out he was shacked in chains…anti-vampire chains…

They were around his wrists and around his right ankle; long enough to give him space to move around a bit, not too tight to make him chock from lack of space.

But that was not the horrible thing.

The horrible things were wires and needles, piercing the skin of his head through his silky hair on different places…

On the back of his head and on his temples

All over his skull…

Nausea crept in his chest like a demon, pain and fear mixing with it. He could feel himself sweating under those inhumanly torture. What was happening to him?

Coldness fell over the place hundreds of times worst suddenly and Kaname screamed like a wounded animal when suddenly a burning fire attacked his brain at once.

The door of the cell opened with at the same moment.

"You are as alluring as always, Kaname-san." A voice murmured; so soft like melted chocolate and so bitter like poison.


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