Renesmee's point of view
Part of being a vampire is being hidden. That was always the hardest for me. I love my family. I love Carlisle and the way he knows everything. I love Esme because she's just Esme; always worrying about everyone and making sure we're ok. I don't know how we'd function without her. Emmett would have been murdered several times over by his own family and Rosalie and Jake would have ripped each other to shreds long ago. Anyone else would see our family and think Emmett was my favourite uncle but that's not strictly true because it takes a while to get to know Jasper, but when you do he's amazing.
Emmett's funny though; he's always telling me funny stories about dad which would probably get him into trouble if dad knew what he was saying but he refuses to fight me, something about being "too young" or "too delicate" when really I know he's just scared I could kick his butt.
Jasper doesn't mind messing around with me though. He doesn't ever fight properly - dad won't let him – but he keeps me on my toes. He and Alice are so cute together. They're exactly how I want me and Jake to be when we're older. They don't show it as publicly as Emmett and Rosalie but they're sweeter than Carlisle and Esme.
Alice is my best friend as well as my aunt. She always makes me clothes and dresses me up like someone's Barbie doll but I like it, and I know Jake certainly likes it, especially when she gets creative; you should see some of the things I've been forced into; miniskirts with hippie shirts, shorts tights and hoodies, tops with cut out strips in them which made my skin look even paler than usual. And then there was that one experiment where she'd dressed me up in the prettiest blue dress for this one night when we went out of town to an opera in Canada; Jake hadn't been able to take his eyes off me.
And now we come to Rose. I love her to bits but it bothers me that she hates Jake so much. I know she tones it down and I love her for it but it still bugs me. But she loves me so much. I think her not having children means she's more maternal towards me and it's sweet.
And Jake. Jake's just the reason for my existence. He's always been here, ever since I was born; even though he wanted me dead when he first new I was there. That also kinda bugs me; the fact that he had a thing for my mum. It's just kinda weird but I love him so much it just doesn't matter.
But even though I love them all I miss being normal. Normal girls my age go to school and make friends. When me and Jake go out of town to see a movie I see normal kids getting out of school in their dorky uniforms with tons of homework. I know that to normal people it's such a stupid thing to want but I've never had the chance to be normal. I've always been a vampire and I always will be, but the only thing is if I went to a normal school I'd fit right in; I just haven't had a chance yet.
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"Jake?" I mumbled from where I was lying next to him on the sofa, "don't you ever miss going to a normal school and seeing your friends and stuff?" From what I could see it looked as if his face fell slightly, almost as if he didn't like this subject either.
"No not really, I don't need school; I've got you," he said kissing her forehead gently.
"Yeah but don't you ever miss learning things and laughing with random people and getting into trouble, all the things you used to do…" he thought about it for a second, biting his lip gently.
"No, "he said "I've already been there, done that." He tensed for a second knowing how I would respond...
"But I haven't," I muttered gently, "I want the chance to live that way and be like normal people. I want that chance."
"But Nessie, you don't need to go to school, you have me and Seth and the guys to hang out with and Carlisle and Edward teach you way more than you could ever learn anywhere else. Why go through all the tortures of school?" I frowned at him.
"Because I want to be normal; I don't want to miss out just because I'm half vampire." I moaned.
"But Nessie you are half vampire. Going to a normal school won't change that." I sat up quickly and crossed my arms across my chest, wrenching away from him.
"It doesn't matter, you wouldn't understand, you've already had all that, you don't care." His expression turned soft as he looked at me. I guessed I must have looked more hurt than I wanted to.
"I do care," he whispered "and I understand what you're saying but I…I know it's selfish but I don't want you to go to a normal school." The way he said it sounded like he was admitting to some great crime.
"But why? You could come with me I don't expect you to stay here." Jake hesitated and looked suddenly scared, almost vulnerable at the thought. Was he scared of going back to school or something?
"Because, Nessie, it's not just other girls that go to school. There'll be other boys and you've never seen that before. I'm just worried that…that." He frowned and let his though trail off. I had no idea where this was leading so I just sat and waited patiently for him to continue.
"I'm scared that you'll find someone else," he finally whispered, his head in his hands. It took me a second to gather my thoughts. I hadn't seen that coming; not at all.
Very gently I pried his hands away from his face and forced him to look at me. I stared into his eyes and thought my words through carefully.
"Jake, no matter where I go or who I meet, no matter what other boys look like they'll never be anything like you. I know that. I can promise you that right now without even worrying. Jake you're the only guy I will ever need and..." I took a deep breath as I prepared to say the words which would mean so much, "I love you."
Jake stopped then, his breath caught and he turned me round so he could see my face properly. The way he looked at me was so intense that for a second I couldn't breathe. I just sat and watched his emotions play across his face. Happiness. Shock. Disbelief. Love. Happiness. Love. More happiness. He took a deep breath and looked into my eyes.
"I love you too Nessie, more than I've ever loved anyone in my whole life." He leant in carefully as he said that so that his lips were brushing mine on the last word. I leaned in slowly to kiss him. I breathed him in as he kissed back, clutching him to me. Slowly his lips moved down my jaw line. I quickly responded, wrapping my hands into his hair and groaning gently. He quickly pulled me onto his lap so that he could explore my neckline easier. I stopped thinking then and just gave myself over to Jake. I trusted him with me completely. We stayed that way for some time. Me on his knees kissing him slowly and sensually.
Suddenly there was a loud cough behind me and I sprung to my feet only to see Emmett shaking his head in mock disapproval. "We leave you two kids alone and come back to see this." He gestured at the two of us now looking up with guilty expressions. "Not that I blame you, you only get to be hormonal teenagers once but seriously, if I had been Edward..." he broke off laughing.
I walked over to place my hand on my arm focusing on an image of him leaving the room. He just laughed and shook his head so instead I focused on an image of me knocking him through a nearby wall. This made him guffaw like a bear so I partly followed through the threat and pushed him quickly through the door with no warning so hard that he scuffed one of the counter tops. The smile on his face vanished and he growled gently.
"Bring it on mini vamp!" that was it; his nickname for me always annoyed me and now I was really wound up. I crouched forwards into my hunting stance and curled my fingers in an invitation. He sprung forwards at the same time Jake and Rose dragged us both in opposite directions.
"God dammit Jake let me go so I can show him that I'm not to bloody delicate!" but Jake held me fast and refused to let me go. Emmett now had control over himself and was smirking at me from around Rose.
"Temper temper," he tutted at me. I took a deep breath and turned away not wanting to let him get to me. That was when my dad came in having seen everything.
"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, what did you just do to Esme's kitchen?"
