Saverill's Child (Jendara's Lament)

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Saverill's Child
Is that who I am?
I wonder…

I, who from my first steps
Walked down a path to greatness
But I knew not the way

Saverill's Child
Is that who I am?
I wonder…

Why did I not notice
When shadows began to appear?
Why did I stride, so righteous
deeper into gloom?

Saverill's Child
Is that who I am?
I wonder…

I could have turned back.
I should have.
But now it is too late.
I am lost
Yet I will not admit it

Saverill's Child
Is that who I am?
I wonder…

A lifetime of wrong choices
Steps in the wrong direction
Surely this darkness will end?

Saverill's Child
Is that who I am?
I wonder…

A light!
A single, correct choice.
Not enough to bring me back
But I will go no further

Saverill's Child
That is who I am.
I know now.

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Author's note: I wondered how Jendara fell. She wasn't an evil person to begin with, and she ended up doing something right in the end. Actually, she reminds me of an abused lover, fiercely clinging to the dream of the man she fell in love with while ignoring the man as he stands before her. And poor Jendara, to be caught up in the perversion that is Amilton, probably the closest you can get to born evil.