The second chapter is out, a good one too! Thank to you that reviewed the last chaper, and to you that didn't: it's mean a lot. Well...enjoy the angst!
To Resist Love
Chapter 2: He
"Good morning, Sunshine."
Naruto opened his eyes and blinked a few times. Right in front of him was Sai. His blue eyes met the black ones.
"Hey," Naruto said and yawned. He turned around and lay on the back. He closed his eyes for a while but opened them when he remembered. "When will you leave?" He looked up in the roof.
"About three hours… so we have some time left to be together." Sai smiled his amazing smile.
"I know something we can do," Naruto mumbled and moved over to Sai. He kissed him on the cheek and hugged him.
"It sounds like something good…" Sai whispered and answered Naruto kiss. His hands moved to Naruto's back. Naruto kissed him. Moved his hands to Sai's head and kissed the neck. Sai had his eyes closed and enjoyed the moment.
"Do you still want to continue?" Naruto asked flattering and he surrounded his fingers in Sai's short, black hair.
"If I do." Sai could feel the warmth that spread over his entire body. Naruto continued his kisses and took of Sai's shirt. Then he moved, like a snake, but held Sai's head in his hands. He moved the sheets and one of his legs and sat up, on Sai. He moved his hand and caressed Sai's bare torso. He kissed him on the bare skin.
"It's just one thing that isn't clear to me," Naruto said. He kissed Sai, for a really long moment. He ended the kiss when his lungs called for air. "Why is my engagement ring so different from others?"
"Are you disappointed?" Sai wide-opened his eyes. Naruto smiled.
"Of course not, I just wonder." Sai caressed Naruto's legs.
"I wanted that the ring would have the colors that you have. The gold is for your hair," Sai said and played with his fingers in Naruto's hair. "And the blue is for your eyes." Sai kissed Naruto's eyelid.
"So, do you want to go further?" Naruto looked on his ring and he knew that this was typical Sai. He is always working more than he has to. Naruto kissed Sai and then sat up straight. His hands still lay on Sai's torso.
"You know that we can't," Sai said and turned his head so he didn't see Naruto's disappointed face. He took one of Naruto's hands in his right hand but lost it just one second after.
"Sorry. I didn't think clear," Naruto moved and took of his legs from Sai and stood up.
"It's alright, it's my fault." Sai sat up and looked at Naruto, who walked out from the room.
Sai moved over from the bed to the wheelchair and put on his shirt. He rolled out from the room and continued to the kitchen. He came into the room with light-blue walls and white furniture. The phone lay on the table and rang.
"Hello," Sai said. He looked out from the kitchen and searched after Naruto with his black eyes. Naruto wasn't there.
"I think he is," Sai answered Minato's question and cried after Naruto.
"I'm coming!" Naruto ran toward the kitchen, his wet hair waved in the air. He had been in the bathroom and taken a shower. He took the phone in his hand when he arrived.
"Hello dad." Naruto looked at Sai and made a grimace. Naruto and Minato was almost too like each other. Minato was like an older Naruto.
"Naruto, they can come over here after I'm home again," Sai suggested. "Then we can tell them the big news."
"That's sounds really good," Naruto said and put the phone near his ear again. Minato's talk must have ended now. "Hey, dad, why don't you and mom come over here on Saturday?" He nodded and made a thumb-up at Sai. Then he ended the call.
"He can talk," Naruto said.
"Didn't he stop talking?"
"No," Naruto said. "He said that we must have something big to tell them and then he started to talk with mom and the best time to stop the call is then." Sai laughed.
"You really know how you can make my mood better," Sai said and rolled out from the kitchen.
Naruto walked toward the fridge and took out the milk. He walked toward a cupboard and took out the cereals. He took two bowls and two spoons. He placed everything on the table. He went to the hall and opened the front door. The newspaper lay on the asphalt. He took it up and looked at the front page. Someone had written on it. It stood 'Soon' with a red color. Naruto scratched his head and closed the door behind him. He laid the newspaper on the kitchen table when he arrived to the kitchen. Sai was already sitting at the table.
"Is it okay when people write on the newspaper?" Naruto asked. Sai raised one eyebrow and took the paper in his hands.
"Of course not, but does it disturb you that it says 'Soon' on it?" Sai said amusing. Naruto didn't answer and sat on a chair.
"I won't argue with you."
"I'm fine to hear that, but I assume that I won then," Sai said and hide behind the newspaper when Naruto threw a slice of bread on him. They laughed.
"Warning, prepare for bread," Naruto said and continued to laugh. "They're dangerous and can kill you." He took a look at the watch that hung on the light blue wall. Two hours left. Sai looked at the same watch and laid the newspaper on the table. He drank the last of his coffee and placed the mug on the table.
"I'll miss you, Sunshine," Sai said. "Two days will be much time without you." He met Naruto's eyes.
"I'll miss you too. But when you come back you'll never be without me. You'll be tired of me." Naruto took Sai's hand and gave it a kiss. "And…this is what you've wanted, isn't it?"
"Yes, it is. I have everything I wants right now. I feel a little bit spoiled."
"Yes, you're spoiled. You sit all day," Naruto said and looked at his boyfriend's wheelchair.
"Okay, not really spoiled. I don't think anyone that sits in a wheelchair feels lucky."
Sai understood what Naruto meant. "But I need to prepare for my trip now. I don't have time to sit and discuss with you all day," he said and rolled out from the room. Naruto fixed the dishes and went into the bathroom to brush his teeth. A couple of minutes later Naruto walked to the bedroom. Sai packed a big, black bag.
"How do you pack your paintings?" Naruto asked and started to fix the bed. One of the sides, Naruto's, was messier than Sai's side.
"Well, you have a few benefits to know a famous artist. Deidara said that he'll fix it."
"So he sent someone to pick up the paintings?" Naruto took his black pants from the chair beside the closet and put them on.
"Exactly, the driver will fix it." Naruto walked toward his fiancé after he put on his orange shirt. The same that he had yesterday. His birthday gift from Sai.
"I hope that you'll look exactly like you do now when I'm back. But I guess you'll always be beautiful."
Naruto blushed, how many times hadn't he heard that he was beautiful?
"I wished that I could say the same thing," Naruto said. "But I can't see your face because of the light that comes from the diamonds in your eyes."
"I can tell you that I'm smiling."
"Well, do you have any suggestions for the wedding?" Naruto asked excited.
"Let's say it like this: as soon as possible and far away on our honeymoon?"
"Did you read my thoughts?" Naruto didn't have any problem with Sai's ideas. It was the ideas that he had. Exactly the same.
Sai rolled out from the room and Naruto walked after him. He looked at his wristwatch. Eleven o'clock. Naruto sighed. The days of waiting and restlessness were at their beginning now.
A car arrived outside the house on the driveway. Naruto looked at Sai; who was ready to leave. The driver rang on the door and Sai opened the door. The tall man in suit walked inside and walked toward the room that Sai pointed to.
"I'll miss you, Sunshine."
"Oh, stop saying that. You'll have a great time."
"I think so. But I have forgotten to thank you for what you've done. It hadn't been any paintings without you."
"I hope the people likes my body," Naruto said and began to blush. He wouldn't be there, luckily. It would be to embarrassing with all the questions.
"I promise you that they like almost as much as I like it," Sai said but then he was serious again. "I love you, Naruto." The driver came again, but this time with strange bags with paintings inside.
"I love you too, good-bye." Naruto gave Sai a good-bye kiss. Sai took his bag in his lap and then rolled out from their house.
"Good-bye, Naruto." The moment was almost sad; the two men had tears in their eyes. Naruto knew that he would see Sai soon and didn't need to wait so very long. It was just that they hadn't been apart once since they became a couple. They were only apart when Naruto needed to go to his work.
They did the most of the thing together, an example was the shopping.
Naruto remembered that the fridge was almost empty.
"Lucky me," Naruto said for himself, tried to break the silence. Who wants to shop food on a Saturday?
It was sunny outside and he didn't take any jacket because it was summer. It was too hot outside. Naruto took his wallet from a table in the hall and walked out in the sunshine. The car that stood on the driveway drove away and Naruto saw Sai wave to him. Naruto raised his arm and waved back. He locked the door and put the keys in his pocket. He started to walk to the store that lay a few streets away. He did always enjoy walking in the mornings. It was a perfect way to wake up and start the day.
Naruto opened the glass doors and walked inside the little store. He didn't know what to buy, but maybe he would come up with an idea when he walked along the shelves. He took one of the shopping baskets that stood placed exactly inside the store. He began to walk forward and took a strange bread loaf with nuts and fruits. He saw someone standing at the vegetables. Someone really dark. Then he turned to right and realized who it was. He walked faster and hid behind some shelves. Then he looked, cautiously at the same person again. It was him. He stopped to look because he could notice that Naruto stared at him. Naruto took a deep breath and walked from his hiding place. He hurried and almost ran to the milk. He felt the adrenaline pump in his blood.
"So, you weren't going to say hi?" Naruto stopped to walk and began to froze, or did he sweat? He didn't want to turn around but he couldn't ignore him. Naruto made his decision and turned around, prepared to meet him.
"Of course," Naruto answered and met the black eyes. Sasuke was as skinny as he always had been and his face looked exactly the same. He did just look older, but nothing was changed. "What are you doing here?" Sasuke looked scary, cold as ice. He didn't smile; his face was expressionless.
"I wanted to visit my old home," Sasuke said. "And check out how it goes for my old classmates." He came closer to Naruto and they were now standing in front of each other. Naruto tried to be brave and didn't want to shove that he was afraid. "But I can see that you're still living here."
"Yes, I have everything I need and want here. I don't see any reasons to move."
"Like I had." Naruto looked into the black eyes. He could see something inside them, was it grief?
"So, how long will you stay?" Naruto asked, tried to be friendly.
"Just a few days. Perhaps we meet each other again," Sasuke said and walked away. Naruto followed him with his eyes. He turned around and continued his shopping when his old classmate walked out from the store.
The situation had been strange; he hadn't thought that he would meet someone he hates today. It had been years ago since they saw each other. Naruto had felt the same feelings today as he did for more than five years ago. Five years ago when his life turned upside-down in just a few minutes.
Flashback
It was an ordinary winter-day. The snow fell from the gray skies and landed on the ground that soon was covered with the frozen raindrops. It was an ordinary school day. It was holiday soon, filled with the Christmas and the New Year. Everyone in the entire school would enjoy the holiday with their family and friends.
"Naruto." The blond boy looked up from the white ground and met a pair of black eyes. He hugged the dark-haired boy hard.
"Sasuke," he said. "You're finally back!" The warmth of happiness spread inside him.
"Hn. I missed you, Sunshine." Naruto stopped him from talking more, he kissed him. The snow was still falling from the sky, but more slowly. Sasuke held Naruto's head in his hands and he was still holding it when they stopped kissing. His laid his forehead against Naruto's. His fingers were surrounded by the golden hair.
"I want this to last longer but I guess that we're late," Naruto said and took one of Sasuke's hands in one of his and they walked toward the school entrance. They went to their locker, first Sasuke's and then Naruto's. Naruto took of his mittens, and then his jacket. Sasuke stood beside him, beautiful as always even if he had been sick for a whole week.
"Do you have to be so damn beautiful?" Naruto looked up and met Sasuke's eyes.
"Me, beautiful?" Sasuke nodded but then remembered to ask his boyfriend something.
"Naruto, with who are you going to spend the New Years' eve with?"
"With my parents I think, as usually."
I just wonder…do you want to be with me then?" Naruto locked his locker and held his books in his hands.
"That would be great," Naruto answered and smiled big.
"Well, I asked my parents yesterday because I guessed that you wanted to be with me…" Sasuke began to blush. Sasuke and Naruto walked inside their classroom and nodded to the brown-haired teacher instead for saying hi. They sat down at a table, beside each other.
"It was a good idea… What about your brother?" Naruto asked hesitatingly.
"He hasn't been home for weeks. The odds that he would come home on Christmas or New Years' eve are low." Naruto grabbed Sasuke's hand. Iruka, their teacher began to talk.
"Thanks, Sasuke." He kissed him on the cheek and he felt that his classmates stared at them.
"Naruto Uzumaki and Sasuke Uchiha," Iruka said. "If you can't stop kiss each other and concentrate I think you must leave."
Naruto moved and sat up properly. He blushed because they were busted.
"That's not necessary, Sensei." Sasuke laid a hand on Naruto's thigh. "We're just happy to see each other again." He smiled his smile that always made people weak in front of him. Naruto laid his hand on Sasuke's.
Iruka nodded and continued his talk about something unimportant. The days before the holidays were always so nice, nothing to do on the lessons and a lot of breaks.
Naruto woke up from his daydreams and looked at the watch that hung over the door. Five minutes left.
"See you tomorrow then, bye." Iruka waved at his students when they left. Naruto took his unnecessary books and walked toward the door with Sasuke's hand still in his.
"Naruto, I want to talk with you." Naruto looked at Sasuke and sighed. Naruto stopped to walk and stood in front of Iruka. "Alone." Iruka looked at Sasuke that waved to him when he left the room.
"What is it?"
"I'm just wondering…is he good for you?" Of course Iruka wanted to ask him about Sasuke. He had always been close to his parents and even closer to Naruto. He could almost be his good-father.
"He's almost too good. He asked me today if I wanted to spend the New Years' eve with him." Iruka wide-opened his eyes.
"So, you aren't the only one that changed." Naruto knew exactly what he talked about, Sasuke had changed to. From a quiet, depressed boy to a romantic and talking person.
"Who are you going to be with Iruka?"
"I've met someone for a while ago and it'll be with him." It was now Naruto's turn to be shocked. Iruka has met someone? And he's gay?
"I'm glad to hear that. Is it someone that I know?" Iruka scratched his neck and then smiled, hesitantly.
"Yes, it's…" Iruka looked out from the open door. A tall man walked inside the classroom. His hair was grey and his eyes had the same color as his hair. Or eye; his right eye was covered. Naruto looked on Iruka again and saw him like he'd never seen him before. He was in love.
"Oh…" Naruto said. "But I think I must leave know." Naruto walked fast out from the room and ran into Sasuke that stood in the near.
"What did he tell you?" he asked curiously. His eyes sparkled.
"You know, Sasuke. Our teacher is in love."
"Weird." Sasuke made a grimace. They sat down on a bench in the corridor, waiting for the school to end. But it wasn't so bad; after all, they had each other.
Naruto walked inside the classroom, without Sasuke. Where was he? They hadn't met each other outside the school like they used to do. Naruto hadn't got his morning kiss today.
"Good-morning, Naruto," Iruka said when Naruto came in. Naruto looked up from the floor and saw that everyone stared at him. He searched for a certain person but didn't find him.
"Hey," was his answer to Iruka. He didn't smile but he didn't show that he was sad. He missed Sasuke. Maybe he got sick again.
Naruto sat down on his chair and had an empty place to his right side.
"Page 312." Naruto looked up again and saw that everyone had their books, except him. Naruto raised his hand in the air.
"Yes, Naruto?"
"I forget my books… can I go and get them?" Iruka nodded and Naruto stood up and walked toward the door. He opened it and left the room. Then he went to his locker and opened it with his key. He felt that someone walked near him and hoped that it was Sasuke. But it wasn't, instead there was a really tall person. He took out his books and closed his locker. He thought of Sasuke every single second. He turned around and got scared. It stood about ten persons around him, formed like a half-moon. They stared at him with their angry and aggressive faces. Naruto saw who they were. Akatsuki. But something wasn't like usual. They had someone new in the gang.
"Sasuke." Naruto held his books hard in his hands. He was their target, like before. The people around them stopped and wanted to find out what was going on. Sasuke walked toward him and stared on him. He was like a new person; Naruto didn't know how it was but he was like his brother. And his big brother was there to, standing almost in the middle of the half-moon. He had the same colors as his little brother; black and black. But his hair was a long pony-tail. He wore a black coat with clouds on and red decorations, just like the others.
"Do you recognize this situation, Naruto?" Sasuke asked. "A lot of persons, everyone looking at you?" He began to smile, mean. Then he grabbed Naruto's neck and Naruto could feel how his lungs called for air. "Do you remember the time when you felt like this before? Alone and helpless?"
"Sasuke," Naruto said with a hoarse voice. Sasuke grabbed his neck harder and began to lift him up from the floor. Naruto dropped his books on the floor. He couldn't breath. Let it stop, he thought. Sasuke hit him in his stomach and then let him fall to the floor. Everything went black and he gasped for air. His legs shook too much so he couldn't stand up, he couldn't do anything. He was down on his knees and supported himself with his hands on the floor. The people around him didn't care, some of them laughed. He saw Akatsuki leaving the building. But he couldn't see any of his classmates in the corridor because they were in the classroom. He needed help, he couldn't breath. He could only let small doses of air in his lungs but it wasn't enough. His neck hurt and sweat dripped from his hair. His legs stopped to shake for a while and he tried to stand up. He took up the books from the floor and began to walk to his classroom. He had to concentrate to breathe all the time. He opened the door and went into the classroom again. Everyone looked at him; they did probably wonder why he was sweaty and why his face was blue.
Iruka saw that nothing was like it should be, he told the people that they could sit and talk with each other. Iruka held a hand on Naruto's back, and that was needed to keep Naruto on his legs. They went out from the room and sat down on a bench outside.
"What happened?" Naruto laid a cold hand on his neck; he tried to take away the pain.
"Akatsuki," was all he could say with his hoarse voice. He tried to blink away the tears that he had in his eyes but he saw Akatsuki in front of him when he closed his eyes. He let the tears fall instead of to see them again.
"Naruto, did they strangle you?" Iruka had seen that Naruto's neck hurt and he had heard his hoarse voice.
"Sasuke did it." Iruka let Naruto fall into his arms. Naruto cried.
"We'll fix this. We did almost succeed the last time."
"No, it's too late. They have Sasuke now, he protected me from them. But he's not here now."
"You have me," Iruka said with a calm voice.
"How can you be so fucking calm, Iruka?" Naruto cried and yelled at the same time. People around them stared but Naruto didn't care. He escaped from Iruka's arms and stood up. "You know how it was the last time and this time will be worse."
"Why will it be worse?" Iruka didn't understand.
"Because I know how love feels now and I know what I'm going to feel." Iruka didn't answer; he didn't know what to say to Naruto. Naruto must feel everything; grief, hate and helpless. And the worst thing, his heart was broken.
"Naruto, go home. Don't go outside, just be home…sleep, call the president and complain. Just do something but don't go outside. When is your parents' home?"
"Dad is home early today."
"I call him. If you don't want to go tomorrow, then don't. Go home now, Naruto."
Naruto left him and Iruka sat on the bench. He didn't need to go inside the classroom yet so he took up his mobile from his pocket and called Minato's number.
"Hey, Minato, it's Iruka." The brown-haired man hoped that Akatsuki didn't stand outside the school entrance. He walked toward it while Minato talked.
"It's not that I want to talk about," Iruka said and didn't see any black and red coats outside the glass doors. He didn't see Naruto either. "It's about Naruto. Akatsuki attacked him today, they strangled him. Or, Sasuke did."
"What?" Minato was angry.
"I send him home and maybe you're on your way home?"
To lock up the door and walk inside was the hardest thing. To walk into his room and see the signs of Sasuke in there. His shirt hung on the chair. He wanted to burn it as much as he wanted to breathe in Sasuke's smell into his lungs. He took the black shirt in his hands and sat down on his messy bed. He fell backward and closed his eyes. But he sat up as soon as he heard a car park outside the house. His dad was home. Naruto was still sitting on the bed with Sasuke's shirt in his hands. He heard that his dad was worried and angry. Naruto heard that he walked toward the room. In a few seconds a man was standing in the doorway. He looked like Naruto, but older. But his eyes were smaller. Minato walked to the bed and sat down.
"How is it?" Minato laid a hand on Naruto's shoulder.
"I loved him, dad."
"I know you did. How is your neck?"
"It still hurts." Minato gave Naruto a hug. "I'm scared." Minato hated to hear his boy saying that. He didn't like that Naruto was unprotected.
"I'll do everything to stop this, and so will Iruka. I won't let them hurt you again. But please, don't go to the school tomorrow, stay home."
