I will from now on always put the name of the songs at the end and I'm also gonna put the songs from the last chapter at the end. Enjoy
Weep for yourself my man, you'll never be what is in your heart
Weep little lion man, you're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rape yourself, take all the courage you have left
Waste it on fixing all the problems that you've made in your own head
Clare sat in AP English, her chin resting on her hand. She was frankly uninterested in the lesson being taught. Suddenly the door opened and in walked a familiar face. The same guy watching the scene that played out with KC.
"Class, welcome Elijah."
"It's Eli." He quickly corrected.
"My apologies, class this is Eli. Make him feel welcomed. Feel free to take advantage of any empty seats."
He nodded and walked down the aisle and it was practically a coincidence the only available seat, was the seat next to Clare.
He sat down, threw his bag aside, pulling a marker out of his back pocket and began to color on his thumb. Ms. Dawes continued to lecture and soon allowed the students to work on their projects during class.
Clare awkwardly looked at the kid, wondering if he knew her deepest secret. If he knew how disgusting she really was and most of all, was he going to tell anyone?
"Hi." She softly spoke.
"Hi." He bluntly responded not looking up.
"So…that thing with the guy…you…um." She didn't exactly know how to phrase it without restating her problem.
"What?" He asked finally looking up.
"Do you know he was talking about when he was cursing at me?"
"Do you want me to know?"
"I'm just asking."
"No, I don't."
"Um okay." She awkwardly smiled and went back to doing her work. The bell rang about 15 minutes later; Eli got up grabbing his bag. "And even if I did, don't worry. I won't tell a single soul." He whispered in her ear. She shivered at his voice and watched him exit the classroom.
So he did know? Clare questioned.
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Two periods sped by and Eli was making his way to the cafeteria. He sat isolated at his own table considering he didn't know anyone being the new kid. He took out his Palahniuk book and began to continue where he left off. He suddenly heard someone talking loudly. He looked up and saw the guy, the girl, his classmate was arguing with.
"Excuse Me!" He said standing on top of the table.
"Hey Degrassi, so you all know I previously went out with Clare Edwards." Eli looked over at Clare at another table and saw her wide, confused blue eyes.
"Well after I dumped her, turns out she turned all emo on me and started cutting herself. That's right, the sweet, innocent, smart, perfect girl isn't so perfect anymore." He looked down at Clare, "Payback's a bitch."
Eli looked towards Clare and saw her mouth fell agape as she had tears running down her face. She closed her mouth and ran out of the caf and everyone acted as if nothing just happened. Eli stuffed his book in his bag and walked out of the cafeteria. He looked down the hall left and right and didn't see her and began walking down the hall.
He walked further down and saw her sitting on the floor, leaning against what he assumed was her locker, her face buried in her palms. He walked up to her and sat down next to her, not saying a word. She felt someone's presence next to her and looked up.
"What are you doing?" She asked attempting to wipe her tears.
"Are you okay?" He asked digging in his bag, pulling out a tissue for her to wipe her face. She thankfully took it.
"I'm not okay actually, the whole school knows my most kept secret."
"So it's true?"
"Possibly but it isn't because he dumped me. I can care less about that."
"Then what's the reason?"
"I barely know you."
Eli shrugged, "Just trying to help because I understand."
Clare scoffed, "No one does."
"You ought to confide in people more." Eli responded lifting up his sleeves to reveal them to her.
She looked at his arm and back up at him and swallowed the lump forming in her throat. "Why do you?"
"We barely know each other, remember?" Eli said getting up. "Just remember if you need to anyone to talk to, I'm here." He winked at her before walking off.
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Clare blushed to herself. Did he wink at her? As if hitting on her? She pushed back the thoughts and made her way to Chem.
School was over in no time and Clare made her way to her locker to dump the books she didn't need. She took all the books out of her bag and closed the locker. She saw Eli walking out of the building, quickly closed her bag and ran after him.
"Eli, hey." She said breathlessly.
"Hey." He weakly smiled.
"Um are you going home?" She softly asked.
"I was planning on it."
"Okay, never mind."
"Why?"
"I just wanted to know if you wanted to hang out but it's okay."
"Uh…we can hang out."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Where to?"
"Wanna go to the park?" She asked.
"Sure." Eli walked towards his car and Clare didn't bother questioning the hearse. She hopped in and not much longer, they arrived at the park. They hopped out of the car and made their way inside. They simply walked around the park. It was like a Central Park of Toronto.
"Where'd you move from?"
"Only from British Columbia."
Clare nodded, "Why?"
"Another story for another time."
Clare nodded as they continued to walk in silence.
"Why is KC such a dick to you?"
"He broke up with me and wants me back."
"If you don't mind me asking why did you guys break up?" Eli asked
"He liked another girl and I wasn't willing to have sex with him so he went out with her."
"Oh. You didn't love him?"
"I thought I did."
"Then what's the reason that stopped you from sleeping with him?" Eli asked.
"Purity ring." She held up her hand.
Eli nodded, "Takes a lot of courage."
"Yeah, but it's worth it."
Eli nodded as they continued to enjoy the silence and the scenery around them.
"I know you said we don't really know each other but why do you…you know harm yourself?" Eli hesitantly asked.
"Why do you?"
"It doesn't matter."
"Then neither does mine."
"A beautiful girl like you shouldn't be doing that." Clare looked up at him then looked back down at her shoes, hiding her blush.
"Can you at least show me?" He asked.
"I don't think so."
"…Please?"
"Next time we hang up, promise."
"So there's gonna be a next time?" He questioned.
"I….uh…sorry. I'm sounding too pushy and weird and I'm sorry and…"
"It's fine Clare. I want there to be a next time." She breathed and nodded.
"I have to get going though, I have to go pick up my sister."
"Oh okay."
"Do you want me to drive you home?"
"No, I can walk."
"Well I'll drive anyway." He smirked as they began making their way back to Morty. They hopped in as Clare gave him directions. They soon arrived and Clare grabbed her bag from the back.
"Thank you for today. And not telling my secret."
"You welcome. Don't tell mine."
"It goes in the vault." She smiled.
"I'll see you tomorrow." Eli nodded as Clare removed herself from the hearse and made her way to her front door. She turned around, waving to Eli and he winked. She blushed and walked in her house, closing it behind her. She smiled to herself as she lightly squealed.
I—I couldn't be here if I tried.
Couldn't get my body and my mind
Together at the same time.
I don't know what's going on, I'm so far-gone
I can barely write a song.
You got me daydreaming
Little Lion Man- Mumford and Sons. 2- Daydreaming-Nat Jay. The first song used in the last chapter was When She Cries-Britt Nicole. Second song is Alibis by Marianas Trench. Last one is Skin-Alexz Johnson. REVIEW. And I will update Count your Blessings when I get 2 more reviews
