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Miranda slammed Shepard across the room with a biotic throw she hit the wall hard falling to the ground like dead weight. The bullet she fired lodged itself in the wall behind where she had previously stood. Miranda did not give up two years of her life bringing Shepard back to watch the woman end it in a matter of ten seconds. She walked over picking up the Predator off the floor. "You going to do something about her"?! her tone was harsh Kaidan bolted across the room.

"Shit Shepard" he held her to him lifting her up she was unconscious she'd be lucky not to have a concussion after that move. Anderson looked to Miranda "What the hell happened" Miranda flipped her hair over her shoulder. "She's clearly unstable" Anderson couldn't believe the audacity of this woman. "Quick lets get her to the med bay I want off this station" Kaidan followed after Anderson Shepard in his arms.

"Where do you think your going, there are protocols to follow, tests to run" Miranda called from behind them. "I've had enough of your protocols" Anderson didn't wait around to hear her reply. He boarded the SR2 heading to inform Chakwas she would be receiving a patient shortly.

"What in the hell…oh my god Shepard" Ashley Williams had seen a lot in her life, seeing her former commander being carried in breathing was probably at the top of the most shocking list. Joker walked up behind her "Not everyday you see Commander Fucking Shepard rise from the dead" Ashley turned lightly smacking the pilot "Now's definitely not the time" they watched as Kaidan rushed her to the med bay.

Karin Chakwas had prepared for this or so she had told herself. Having Jane Shepard laid down upon a examination table by one Kaidan Alenko seemed like something out of the SR1 days she chided herself remembering that was the last time she had seen them together. Shepard alive and on the new Normandy, Chakwas proceeded to her side. "She pulled a gun on herself" she looked to Kaidan who nodded "She had aimed at first sight then she saw Miranda and started freaking out biotics flaring going on about Cerberus, the Alliance, working with terrorist." he watched as Miranda entered the med bay. Chakwas turned regarding her "I'm sorry only Alliance personal may enter at this time" The shock didn't wear of her face fast enough as Anderson escorted her out.

"Then she turned the gun on herself and fired, if Miranda hadn't reacted she have a bullet through her head right now" Chakwas took Shepard's blood pressure as she hooked her up to an IV "I'm going to sedate and restrain her for safe measure, no use in any more harm coming to her" Kaidan watched as she shoved a needle into Shepards vein, then as she pulled up the leather padded cuffs dangling from the bed, attaching them to Shepard's writs and ankles.

"Is that really necessary" Chakwas gave Kaidan a stern look "I know how you feel about all this and how it looks to you" Kaidan swallowed hard taking a seat next to Shepard gently holding her hand. "I'm not surprised this happened at all" Kaidan searched Chakwas eyes "She was brought back from death Kaidan, there are no records of that having ever been accomplished we are working completely in the dark here. This Jane is not the same as the woman you loved. She will be different and your going to have to accept that. No one faces death and comes back the same she went through death just try to imagine the state of her mind" Kaidan sighed running his hand through his hair "I don't know what to do. Chakwas smiled sadly at him lying a hand on his shoulder "You'll figure it out I have faith in you. Kaidan smiled softly "Thanks Doc" Chakwas returned to working on Shepard's vitals. Kaidan sat vigil at her bedside holding her hand his face buried in his other.

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"What the hell do you think your doing" Miranda's voice was hard and quick. Ashley rolled her eyes "Escorting the Queen to her Chamber" Miranda's frigid eyes flashed in anger. "Get your hands off me" Ashley pushed the control to open the door lock "Gladly" she pushed Miranda inside not caring in the least in how the Ex Cerberus officer nearly tripped before coming to brace herself against the desk in front of her.

"Dinners at in two hours try not to get lost" With that Williams left Miranda alone in her new quarters. "The nerve of that woman" She head towards starboard observation. Accessing the door lock she slipped in, Anderson sat before her on the couch. "Sir, didn't expect to find you here" She saluted. "At ease Williams, its fine" Ashley sat down a few cushions away her eyes falling to the open observation window looking out at the expanse of the docking bay.

"We'll be lifting off shortly" Ashley looked to Anderson. "Sir permission to speak freely" Anderson nodded "Permission granted" Ashley sat back into the couch "Sir how is this really happening" Anderson knew no matter how much the crew was briefed there would still be questions. "Through a mad mans extreme ideals and a lot of money" Anderson turned looking out the window, Ashley could tell he was exhausted.

"She's the closest thing to a daughter I'll ever have" Ashley lifted her head up "I still can't wrap my mind around this" Ashley smiled somberly at Anderson "I don't think any of us can Sir" They continued on in silence. Back in the med bay Kaidan's world spun.

Jane he couldn't believe he was here holding her hand, it felt the same minus the calluses, she smelt the same honey and spice everything was so very her. The freckles in the exact places the arch of the brow angle of the chin lines of the nose. Even her hair color was exact and her eyes oh her eyes that same electric green.

God when she had turned that gun on herself he thought he was dying he had never felt so sick in his life watching her. "Your going to make it through this" he didn't know if he was talking to himself of to her. Chakwas words replaying in his mind she's not the same woman you fell in love with she will be different and your going to have to accept that. He knew the circumstances and knew everything was up in the air, he had to have faith had to hope that somewhere in there his Jane still lived.

"I love you" he breathed it out barley a whisper. She was dreaming her dark full lashes fluttering every so often. "What do you dream about" he wondered aloud. Not knowing if she could hear him. "I wish I could get into that head of yours Jane" he whispered sadly. He would do anything to reach her.