I do not own Harry Potter. If I did, Remus and Sirius would have been canon. And obvious.
"Moony!" James whispered, leaning over Remus' bed, shaking him to wake him up. Remus opened his eyes slightly.
"James… what are you doing?" Remus muttered, yawning.
"Come for a walk with me, Moony. I have the Cloak, we can go the Room of Requirement, talk," James said.
"What about Padfoot?" Remus asked. James shook his head.
"No, I need to talk to you, Moony. Without Padfoot or Wormtail," James said. Remus groaned, before sitting up.
"Why?" Remus asked.
"I'll tell you when we get there," James said, stepping back from Remus' bed as Remus got off it. They walked down and left the Gryffindor tower, James throwing the cloak over the both of them. They walked quickly but carefully to the Room of Requirement in silence. They didn't come across anyone, but it was always better not to risk being caught.
When they reached the Room of Requirement they entered a small room that contained a couple of seats. James sat on one of them, and Remus sat next to him. James stayed silent.
"I thought you needed to talk to me, Prongs?" Remus asked. James looked up at him, and sighed. He'd thought carefully about what he was going to say, but now it had all left his head.
"I'm sorry, Moony." Remus looked at James with complete confusion written over his face.
"Sorry? What for? You haven't done anything," Remus said.
"For being Head Boy. I know what you're going to say, "James said, stopping Remus from saying something as he opened his mouth, "You're going to say that it's not my fault. Maybe it isn't. I didn't choose it. But I'm still sorry." Remus shook his head.
"Don't be. It's not like they give the badge out lightly. Obviously you deserve it," Remus said. James laughed.
"You know as well as I do that I don't deserve it," James said. Remus shrugged.
"It doesn't matter, James. It's only a badge, one that will help you a lot more than it will help me," Remus said. James shifted in his seat so that he could look directly at Remus.
"That's the other thing I wanted to talk to you about. I know you're worried about the future. Don't be. Enjoy this year at Hogwarts before you start to worry about that stuff. And don't worry too much. When we became Animagi to help you during your transformations, it was an unspoken agreement that we'd always be there to help you, whether it be with your transformations or with anything else," James said. Remus sighed. He knew James was right, but he hated that he might have to rely on his friends. He wanted to be able to look after himself.
"I know. You're great friends, and I'm lucky to have you. But you guys are going to be able to find so much happiness in your lives. I'm never going to be able to have a job, and no one is going to want to be with a werewolf," Remus said. Not to mention that person I'm in love with is one of my best friends.
"Don't be ridiculous. There's some girl out there who'll look past that, and love you anyway," James said. Remus took a deep breath and looked James straight in the eye. He hadn't mentioned to any of his friends yet that he liked guys.
"What if I don't want a girl?" Remus asked. James processed what Remus said for a moment, then grinned.
"Ha! Sirius, right? I knew it! I KNEW IT!" James said manically. Remus' eyes widened.
"W-what? How did you know?" Remus asked.
"Pfft, it's obvious – hey now, don't look like that. It's only obvious to me. Wormtail won't get it until the two of you snog right in front of him, and Sirius refuses to see it himself. No one else knows you well enough… well, except maybe Evans," James said. Remus' panicked look slowly left his face.
"Lily doesn't know… at least I don't think she does. I haven't told her, anyway," Remus said.
"Well, you have to tell Padfoot and Wormtail that you're gay," James said.
"Who says I'm gay?" Remus asked. James looked confused.
"Well… you see… well… you're in love with Sirius? You pretty much just admitted it," James said. Remus shook his head.
"I've been attracted to girls before. Remember Marlene McKinnon? I liked her for a while," Remus said. James looked confused.
"What, so you'll just swing either way?" Remus shrugged.
"I guess so," he said. James nodded, looking thoughtful.
"Hey, good for you. Anyway, we should probably head back to bed. We do have class tomorrow," James said. Remus was shocked.
"First time you've ever cared about that," Remus said.
"I told you, I'm taking my job as Head Boy seriously," James replied, as they both stood up and James threw the Invisibility Cloak over the both of them.
"Good. If you weren't, then you could be sorry for having the badge," Remus said, laughing a little. They headed back to the dormitory to sleep, but both boys lay awake with their thoughts.
The Great Hall was very noisy at breakfast. Everyone was chatting with their friends that they hadn't had a chance to talk to the night before, excited to see them again after the summer.
However, it was quite in the area of the Gryffindor table that Sirius Black was sitting at. Peter sat next him, eating his toast quietly, and Sirius kept his eye on the door, waiting for Remus and James to come in. They'd been gone from their beds at one point when Sirius woke up during the night, and when Sirius woke up this morning, they were fast asleep.
Remus and James walked in together, and Sirius cupped his mouth with his hands and yelled "Oi!" James and Remus looked at him, and they walked towards the table, sitting on the other side of the table opposite Peter and Sirius, and started to help themselves to breakfast.
"Where were you two last night?" Sirius asked. Remus and James glanced at each other before James looked at Sirius with a blank face.
"In our beds, of course," James said.
"Liar, I woke up at one point and neither of you were there," Sirius said in an accusatory tone. James looked at Remus again, and Remus gave a gesture as if to say 'go ahead'.
"We were snogging," James said with a completely straight face. Peter choked on the toast he was eating, and Sirius looked between the two of them with his jaw dropped open. Remus tried to gather his face into a completely normal expression rather than the shocked one he was sure he had.
"What – but – you – no – what?" Sirius spat out, slightly panicked. They couldn't snog. If Remus was to snog any guy, it should be him, Sirius Black. Stop it Sirius.
"Yeah, Remus and I have discovered our undying love for each other, isn't that right, Moony?" James asked, looking at Remus, who nodded.
"I'd feel lost without him," Remus said.
"But you're in love with Evans!" Sirius exclaimed, pointing at James, who shrugged casually.
"Who needs Evans when you can have this sexy man next to me?" James asked.
"Stop it, Prongs, you're making me blush," Remus said, starting to laugh.
"Well, you are sexy. Padfoot, isn't he sexy?" James asked, grinning at Sirius, who hesitated.
"Er... well…"
"Leave him alone, Prongs. Padfoot, do you really believe that James and I would be snogging?" Remus asked, slight disbelief colouring his tone.
"Wait, you weren't?" Sirius asked and James burst into laughter.
"Sirius, think about this for a second. I may be into guys, but James? Yeah, I don't think so," Remus said. Sirius stared at Remus for a moment, his words echoing in Sirius' head. Remus was into guys? Since when? And why didn't Sirius know? Remus must have told them for him to say it so casually. Unless…
"This is just another joke, isn't it?" Sirius asked, "You're not really into guys, right?"
"Sirius!" James exclaimed warningly. Sirius looked over at James, who tried to be communicating something with him with his eyes.
"I'm glad you think it's a joke, Sirius," Remus spat at him, and stood up without having eaten anything. Sirius glanced at James, who was shaking his head, and Remus began to walk away. Sirius jumped up and started running after him.
"Moony, wait!" Sirius yelled, but Remus carried on as if he didn't hear him. Sirius knew Remus did hear him though, Remus' senses were a lot better than a normal humans', and that included his hearing.
Everyone in the Great Hall watched as Sirius ran out after Remus, who seemed to be quickening his pace.
"Remus!" Sirius called after him as he ran. Remus continued to ignore him as he started to go up the steps exiting the Entrance Hall. Sirius caught up with Remus and grabbed his arm.
"Remus. I'm sorry. I just… you said it so casually, and you'd just had that joke with James. I'm sorry. I don't think it's funny. It's who you are and that's okay," Sirius said. Remus blinked, and then looked at Sirius for a moment.
"You know, I keep waiting for that moment when I'm just too much for you guys. Bad enough with my furry little problem," Remus said. Sirius looked hurt.
"Don't be ridiculous, Moony. You're one of our best friends. We wouldn't care if you had three feet and one eye," Sirius said, "You shouldn't underestimate us."
"You think I don't know that?" Remus asked, looking cautiously at some of the people walking by, "I know you guys have no problem with me and what I am, but that doesn't stop that fact that I know what I am, and that I know you're the odd ones out for still wanting to be my friend. I have insecurities with this, and I always will. Let's just add this to it, I'm already a freak."
"You're not a freak, and being gay certainly doesn't make someone a freak, neither does your furry little problem," Sirius said.
"When did I say I was gay, Sirius?" Remus whispered, "Just because I like guys? I like girls too."
"Oh," Sirius said, "Okay you are a freak then." He grinned at Remus, who grinned back.
"We should probably go back and get our timetables," Remus said, and the two began to walk back to the Great Hall but before they reached it James and Peter walked out, handing both of them their timetables.
"We have Defence first, lets go," James said. Sirius and Remus nodded, following James to Defence Against the Dark Arts.
AN~ I've written ahead, so for now updates will be on Mondays and Thursdays (for me, I live in New Zealand so it's likely to be Sunday and Wednesday for many people). In a month I start uni so updates will probably slow down to once a week, but I will hopefully keep it regular.
