Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts and I am not making any profit from writing this story.
Author's Note: Because of You is by DJ Bebo. An amazing song. I totally encourage you all to go listen to it if you haven't already. I very much like how this came out, regardless of all the angst. It kinda makes me want to do an AMV...but I have literally next to nothing for skill when it comes to video editing. XD Who knows though, I might surprise myself sometime. One more thing before I shut up and let you guys read. I'm pretty sure I forgot to mention who the last song was by in the first chapter. It was Aftermath by Adam Lambert.
Pairings: AxelxRoxas
Warnings: Angst. Loads of it.
Because of You
Roxas stared up at the ceiling, face blank, mind blank. It was like he was an empty shell that wasn't capable of even the simple action of blinking. Earlier, however, he was a complete and utter emotional mess. His face, though concealed in the darkness of his bedroom, was the depiction of someone who had been crying for a while. And it was all his fault that Roxas has been reduced to a blubbering mess rather than the ice queen he usually was. He promised them a life time of happiness…but then turned and ended that in just one night.
Axel felt bad for leaving. He loved Roxas with all his heart and more. He'd give his life for the fiery little blond, but…lately spending time with Roxas just…hurt. He didn't know what Roxas was trying to do by acting like he didn't care about him, but two could certainly play that game. He was only leaving long enough for Roxas to come to his senses and realize what he was doing to their relationship. But…Axel had a feeling that no matter how much Roxas might want him back, he'd never go after him.
Don't give up.
That's what his heart told him. And who was Axel to not comply?
A week now without Axel. Roxas was like a ghost, drifting through the apartment, mind numbed. He stopped going to work, eventually getting a phone call saying he was fired. He barely ate or slept. With each passing second he was beginning to realize how much he missed Axel, and how much he wanted him back. His heart of ice was slowly melting. It was a shame that it took something like this to make him realize just how much he loved the man he'd been with since high school. But what was he going to do about it now? Axel was gone.
Go after him.
He shot up in bed, drenched in a cold sweat and shivering. With what little sleep he did get it always ended the same. Dreaming of Axel, of their happy lives before now, then it would shatter and the one thought that nagged him since Axel left spoke softly. Usually he ignored those voices, but he was filled with so much anguish by this time that he finally listened.
The clock tower. That's where Axel was. He hadn't found a new play to stay just yet, considering the apartment had belonged to Roxas. But he did have munny, so he paid for a hotel room only to take his sleeping bag and camp out. He stretched out on his sleeping bag, arms behind his head, and looked up at the stars. The night he left, Roxas just stood there, face emotionless. It infuriated Axel. He shook the blond, yelling at him, trying to get him to yell back or hit him, something, anything. But those eyes, cold and empty like the rest of him only stared, revealing nothing of what he might be thinking.
And so, this was it. Tomorrow would mark the second week since he left. He only had so much munny and couldn't keep staying in a hotel room. If Roxas suddenly wanted him back, it was going to be too late. Maybe he'd leave town, go somewhere else and settle down there, or travel the world. Axel always did want to see what else was out there.
The clock tower door creaked loudly and Axel pushed himself up, looking over with a frown. Someone was standing there, but it was too dark to see who. He narrowed his eyes and got to his feet, the figure look up, just standing there, before slowly stepping into the moonlight, revealing honey blond hair. Axel's eyes widened.
"You…you came."
Roxas looked away, ashamed. Axel smiled, and in two long strides he was by the blond's sides, arms around him, face pressed into the fluffy hair.
"I've had a lot of time to think. I'm…sorry." Axel straightened up, staring wide-eyed at him. "You're too important to lose. I…" Tears were threatening to fall again.
"Shhh…" Axel wrapped his arms around the shaking blond. "You came for me, Roxas. That's all that matters."
They remained like that for a while longer, Axel holding the love of his life while he cried, voice hitching with a thousand apologies. For the rest of the night, they lay in each other's arms, talking and reminiscing.
The ice queen's heart had shattered, and a new one was born in its place.
