Axel and Reno are German, translation is in the (...) after the sentence. If there's grammatical German Errors, /please/ tell me. cause even though I took 3 years of German in high school (and I'm currently attempting to get through the fucking Accusative/Dative/Genitive cases in my 201 class in college... FML Why is your damn languaeg so fucking Hard!) , doesn't mean I've learned anything XD. ANYWHOSAL! Tell me what you think, please! I won't keep writing if people don't tell me what they want, or if they even like it!

Disclaimer: not my characters, they're owned by Square Enuix. I DO own the plot. That's mine. My baby. Dont steal it ono.

Warning: it's rated M for a reason...

Der Deutsche HAS (HOPEFULLY) BEEN FIXEDED!(mostly I think?) ouo all thanks to the most awesome-ist German person on the internet! HikariKurayami88. Who took the time to review and actually took the time out of their lovely day to tell my I'm wrong and helped me fix it. So to you, I raise a mug of fine fine rootbeer, cause that shit's the best.


Axel gently grabs my hand and escorts me straight to the main office. I try to squeeze it back, but the lack of oxygen in my lungs is making my brain fuzzy, and it's hard to do anything other than focus on my breath and walking with the red head. Just breathe, and hold onto axel's hand. He'll keep me safe. An eternity of silence before my face collides with Axel's back, knocking what little air was in my lungs out in a whorlwind second. I lean against him, trying to replenish the air in my lungs slowly, deeply. Just have to inhale slow, then exhale slower. The smell of his shirt makes it a little easier, makes my brain a bit less dizzy and more calm, but only by a little. I'll let Axel handle whatever's going on, I'll just nuzzle into the scent of his shirt and breathe. In….Out….Slow.

"Yuffie, Roxas was pushed down some stairs by Seifer, again. I got Reno to come take him out of school, he looks like he's got a concussion or something, look at his face!" He growls and pulls me in front of him. The sudden movement knocks all the air out of my lungs again. My head sworls in three different directions at the same time, making my stomach lurch painfully. Talking or even looking up from my feet is impossible. Thank god Axel made up a lie, I don't know what I could have said to get her to not ask questions. Right now I barely have enough brain power to stay standing. Just breathe.

There is a minute of deep silence before Yuffie sighs heavily. "Alright, thank you for telling me Axel. Wait here for your brother, and make sure Roxas gets that bruise looked at." Her soft voice floats over me with a feeling of relief. I was sure she was going to make me call my parents. Yuffie speaks up again. "I'll e-mail your teachers and tell them that you're out for an injury and need time to make up today's work."

I smile as best I can at her, and attempt to nod slowly. "Thank you." My voice is barely a breathless whisper. I'm so light headed and unfocused, my vision is spinning in the opposite direction of my brain. I forget, I was supposed to keep track of something. What was it? What's happening? I feel weightless, but too heavy at the same time. My face smashes against something hard. Something trickles down from my nose. My body feels like a sack of pins and needles. What was happening? I hear Axel's voice, but it's muffled and weird. Far away. Where is he going? What was going on? I can't feel or see anything, I don't understand.

"Yuna! I think he's coming to!" Loud, so very loud. Who's yelling like that? It sounds like… Axel. What does he mean by, 'coming to'? I slowly open my eyes and all I can see is white. It should hurt, but I can't really feel anything. What's going on? Then the light gets a lot less blinding because my mom, Axel, and Sora are hovering over me. Effectively blocking the florescent lights above. I stare at them. Where am I? What's going on? They all look so worried. "Roxy, are you alright, does it hurt?" Axel asks, his voice dripping with worry.

Sora cries softly, "Why Roxas…. You… you didn't say anything…." The pain in his voice cuts deep, and I open my mouth to say something, but Axel cuts me off.

"He shouldn't have had to say anything!" He grits through his teeth, glaring at Sora knowingly.

My mom is hesterically crying something like, "My poor boy, I'm glad your alright, my poor boy." I barely understand what is going on around me. There was so much chaos that I feel myself start to panic. I can't stop the bitter, blinding fear from engulfing me. I'm traped. I can't run, or answer any questions, or make them feel better. I can't help them. I caused their pain, the sadness on their faces. The machine that was giving off a steady slow beep starts to pick up. I want out of here, out of this bed, away from the noise and the lights. I don't want to see their pity, their disspaointment of me. I don't want to have to explain. I can't. I can't. I can't.

"Give him some space, yo. He just woke up." A smoothe, deep voice resonated inside my head, somewhat soothing the crippling fear. Just enough for me to remember who the voice belongs to. Reno, Axel's older brother. "Man Axel, when you say things are serious, you mean it don't you?" I look to the door on my left and blink at him. He frowns and I see the sadness in his eyes too. I don't know what I did to make everyone so worried. They all back off a bit, going to sit down in their chairs. I try to sit up, wanting to show them I'm perfectly fine. They don't have to worry. Dad just got carried away, nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing I can't handle. I want to leave, to show them I'm okay. I sit up, but instantly regret that descision. Pain shot from my chest outward, everywhere. I feel the yelp bubble in my throat and tear it's way through the air. "Ah!"

Axel is next to me in a second, running his fingers through my hair, and murmuring in my ear softly. "You have a couple bruised ribs, one is broken, don't move so much." He rubs my ear soothingly causing me to purr miserably, nuzzling into his hand. The purr is vibrating through my body, soothing the ache in my chest. His caring touch and my purring is making me relax, makes me sleepy. I smile up at him, eyes half lidded. He smiles back at me, never stopping his soothing action. He knows just how to calm me down, knows just what I need. The door opening and closeing causes me to tense up again. Axel stopped playing with my ear and he looks over to the door. His face is tense and angry. Who is he looing at? What's wrong? I look over to see my father, Cloud, standing at the door. His hair and work attire looking disheveled, and a seething expression plastered on his face. Sora stands up and tugs him gently into a chair. What is he doing here? He needs to leave, I don't want him here. I don't want him to see me looking so pathetic. I don't want him to know how broken he's made me.

My mom gets up and kisses his cheek. "Darling, Roxas has-"

My father rudely cuts my mother off with a growl. "Yeah, I know. Pushed down stairs. I'm just here because they called me out of a meeting." He glares at me with hate. I feel so small, but not small enough. I need to get out of here. Away from his death glare, away from this bed. "You need to learn to be less clumsy Roxas." He spits out my name. Mom doesn't notice the animosity in his voice toward me. Maybe she just ignores it? I don't know, I don't wanna think about it either. I whisper a small 'I'm sorry' and I feel Axel and Sora watching me with unhappy faces. What am I supposed to do? I'm the black sheep, the one no one wants; I need to be compliant to survive. I'm the one who made dad's life harder. It's all my fault. I can't say anything. I don't want to hurt anymore people, I don't want to cause anymore problems.

"Well, now that I know your mother is here, I'll be going back to work." he stands curtly and leaves, not saying a word more. I didn't mind though, I could breath easier now. With him gone, maybe Axel will start petting my ear again. Maybe he will smile at me again. I lay back a bit and sigh softly, putting my arm over my eyes. There's a sting of tears in my eyes, but I refuse to let them fall. My dad doesn't really care if I was ok. I already know that. I knew that since this all began. That didn't make it hurt any less to watch his uncaring, hateful eyes. It didn't make watching him leave uncaringly any less painful. He only played the part of a parent because that's what was excpected of him.

I hear the soft clack of my mother's heals step over to me. Then her cold hand on my hair, and her soft voice "Darling, are you tired? I'll go ask the doctor if you can leave." She kisses my forehead and I hear her heels click out of the room in search of my doctor.

"Roxas! You didn't tell me dad hit you that hard! You have to tell mom! This is just...this is a whole-" Sora yells, a mix of worry and anger. Axel growls at him to stop, because I start to cry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry Sora. I'm so weak.

"Halt die Klappe! Sora! You're making him cry."(Shut up Sora!) He warns Sora angrily.

"Roxas, what is this about your father hitting you?" Reno's voice is low and dark. It makes me jump and whimper. I forgot he was even here.

What am I supposed to say? His voice is almost demonic in his anger, and that scared me. I didn't think he would be so angry with me. I didn't mean to make him angry. I shrink away into my pillows, more soft sobs bubbling from my chest. I don't want him to see me cry. I don't want them to know. My secrets are out, and I can't take them back. I reach down for the scratchy hostpital blanket and pull it over my shamefull face. I'm the worst. The absolute worst.

"Please...don't tell mom...mom loves him...I don't want to hurt mom..." I whimper and sob. I can't even stop it. I sound so pathetic. I feel so useless. I'm stupid. Weak. I can't even keep a simple secret. Then there is shuffling and a loud SMACK. Then Reno is yelling in German.

"Wie konntest du zulassen, dass ihm so Weh getan wird! Dummkopf! Warum hast du seiner Mutter nichts gesagt! Und du, Sora! Du hättestetwas sagen kö-!"(How could you let him get injured like that? Idiot! Why didn't you say anything to his mom! And you! Sora! You could have-) Axel cuts in before he can say anymore, his voice is soft and sad.

"Bruder, Roxas just told me this morning. I'm sure he's told sora exactly what he just told you. How were we supposed to hurt him that way? Sora could have said something. He should have, but he also didn't want to betray his brother's trust. It's not that simple." He sighs heavily. I poke my head out from under the covers, tears still stinging my eyes. They all look at me at the same time. I instantly start to pull the covers back over my head. I don't want them to fight. I don't want them t look at me. A soft sob rumbles out of my chest again. I'm so miserably pathetic.

"I...if mom and dad get divorced...then Sora would be hurt too...Sora loves dad. Just-" Sora rips the blankets away from my face. His own is angry and red, tears falling down his own cheeks.

"Roxas, I don't like him if he is hurting my brother, my twin. I don't love dad enough to want him to get away with this. I don't like him hurting you! I didn't want you to hate me if I said something." He sits on the bed next to me taking my hands in his, and stares into my eyes. I can barely look back at him. It's like he's trying to stare into my soul. I don't want to know what he'll find there. I don't want him to know how much I hate myself. I don't want to see his worry anymore. I did this to mself.

"Rox, you used to be so...bright, sunny. Like me, you know? But now you're afraid, and you keep your head down." He lifts my chin to make me look him his eyes, I'm too stunned to look away. "I was too young to do anything when dad started to turn on you for being a mutant. Now that I'm older, I'm afraid of him, too. I don't know what to do..." He sobs and the sound made my heart freeze, shatter, and embed the freezing pieces in my heart and lungs. Seeing Sora crying hurts, it hurts so bad. The fact he's crying over me make it so much worse. I feel like scum. I can't believe I made my brother cry. I'm such a horrible person. So horrible. Freash tears sting my eyes and stain my cheeks.

"Sora...It's-" I wanted to tell him it's not his fault, but my mom walked in. I clamed up and looked at her. We all hold our breath. I feel the pieces of my heart rebuild itself like they were magnetized and attracted to eachother, freeze over again and plummet into my stomach. Panic. The heart monitor betrayed my emotions. My heart was beating so quickly. Are they going to tell her? Reno might, Reno has always hated it when Axel let me get hurt. Even if it was just a tiny scrape of the knee. He is like a big brother. Axel is mad at me though, for not saying anything sooner. I can see in Sora's eyes that he's thinking about saying something. They all could say something. My head swirls as I pray, I pray to every holy spirit possible. Please don't let them say anything. I look at Axel, begging him not to speak. Then I look up at Reno, begging silently. They both look indifferent. That scares me. I bite my lip painfully hard. Please. Please. Please.

"Good news!" She pauses for a stunned second, "Sora, why are you crying?" Her smile instantly falls when she ses his tears. I look to Axel again, asking what I should do. His face is still unreadable.

"Honey, what's wrong?" My mom asked me, even more more worried. Axel looks back at me, watches me intently. He's staring deep into my soul. Somehow it's not as scary as when Sora was doing it. I want nothing less than to curl into his lap and cry. To let him pet my ear till I forget. His stare is not that inviting though. He is urging me to tell my mom about my father. I cant tell. I shake my head and look away. I don't want to see him look disappointed in me. I can't handle that.

"I just don't like seeing my brother is so much pain..." his whisper is sad and deflated as he nuzzles my hands. "Can he go ho-"

Axel buts in before my brother can finish, and my heart jumps at the sound of his voice. Is he going to tell? I close my eyes tight, afraid. I can't look at any of them. I don't want to see her heart shatter. I can't be the cause of that. "Mrs. Strife..." He pauses for a second, "Can Roxas come to my house? Sleep over for the weekend?" My eyes spring open and I look at Axel, completely stunned. He wants me to come over? I look at my mom, feeling a deep blush creeping to my cheeks. Will she let me go?

"Oh, well, the doctor only said for him to be careful of the rib and try not to strain himself... but he's really hurt. I don't know if staying anywhere-"

Axel cuts off my mom and smiles in his charming way. Oh god, I love that smile. I have to struggle to keep my heart beat in check, so people don't notice. I didn't do a very good job because the heart monitor's beeps sped up considerably. Everyone turns to look at me, worried. Axel looks at me, worried. "Rox, are you ok?"

"Yeah...I'm fine..." I mumble and bite my lip hard. Calm down. This isn't good. I need to calm down, and fast. "I'm just scared...dad didn't seem too happy that I'm in the hospital… Mom, can I go stay with Axel for the weekend? Let dad cool off? I bet the bill is driving him crazy. He's been so stressed with bills and work…." I mumble, looking to my bewildered mother. My heart pounds,"You know Axel and Reno won't let me do anything strenuous. They will probably try to carry me home..." I chuckle and Axe did too. A blush crept up to my cheeks again. I wish he would carry my home. Axel looks at my mom, a brilliant smile on his handsome face. So handsome. No one can say no. I know she's done for. She looks between us and sighs, with a small smile. She knows that there was no fighting it.

"Yes, alright, fine. But promise that you won't hurt yourself." She hugs me tight and I wince, biting back a wimper. She immediately lets go and instead kisses my cheek and pets my ear. I purr at her and smile softly, tired. That seems to calm her down.

She sighs again. " I want phone calls before bed, ok?" I chuckle softly, my mom always says this when I spend the night over at anyone's house. I nod and smile more. Going to Axel's will be so good. I wont have to deal with dad's wrath until Monday. Maybe I can convince Axel to let me curl into his lap. "Alright, well, I've signed you out already. So you can leave. Here's the prescription for Roxas' pain medication."

Reno grins,"Bitte, we will take care of him. Komm Kätzchen, let's get you home."(Please...come kitty) I giggle at the nickname, trying to hide the wince of pain, and nod. I sit up as slowly as possible, closing my eyes tightly as pain shoots up my spine. Oh god, this is not going to be fun. I hear Axel call my nickname, and my ears flatten against my head in shame. "Katzchen? Are you alright? Maybe he should stay here..."

"No! Axel, I want to go with you! I don't want to stay here...I'm fine, really." I protest, pleading to him with my eyes. His emerald eyes search my sapphire ones. He's babying me, which is equl parts flattering and frustrating. I really have had worse pain. I pout a bit, dispite myself. "I'm fine Axel, trust me." I stand slowly and smile up at him triumphantly. See Axe? I can be strong! You don't have to worry. The redheaded brothers look at each other and chuckle.

Axel grins looks to his brother and says, "Also, wer wird ihn nach Hause tragen?" (So, who's carrying him home?) I huff and look away, feeling heat on my cheeks again. Why do they have to speak German around me like im not here? I know they do that when they talk about me. They do it so often, I don't understand what they're saying most of the time.

Reno grins at him mischeiviously, "Ich denke du sollst, du wirst wie ein Held aussehen oder so." (I think you should, you would look like hero or something.)((AN: if any germans have a better phrasing for that, PLEASE help me fix my German. G-translate and my shitty American school German classes wont teach me to speak authentically.)) Axel instantly flushes and clamped his lips shut, glaring at Reno. His older brother just grins at him widely, knowingly. I shake my head and walk over to my mom and hug her. She hugs me back like I would break if she put any real pressure on me. I smiled at this; it's nice to have atleast one parent care. I love her. I will do anything to make her happy.

Mom and I let go of each other and I turn to hug Sora, whispering in his ear. "I'm not mad at you, I love you Sora; thank you for being a great brother." He hugs me tightly around my waist, trying to avoid hurting my ribs, but My chest hurts like no tomorrow. He nuzzles my shoulder, whispering something I can't really hear. I just let him hug me. I know he is worried, and mad at himself for not telling anyone about dad. I don't want him to be sad. I loved Sora too, even if I did resent him sometimes for being the normal child.

He nuzzles my neck and kisses my cheek softly. "I'll make it up to you brother." Whispering on my skin before he let go of me with a smile. Now, the German brothers. I raised my eye brow when I saw Axel looking away, blushing almost as red as his hair, and Reno grinning evilly.

"Are we going you two? I'd prefer to not have to be here longer than I have to." I hate hospitals. I've been in this one long enough, and want to leave. I put my pants on without taking off the stupid gown, and then take off the gown to put on my shirt. Pain shoots up through my skull, and I bite my lip hard to ignore it. I don't want to work them all up again. God forbid any of them try to help me change like im five. I was careful not to let my skin show. I don't want mom to see all the scars and bruises. I just want to go. Get the fuck out of this sterile, too bright hell hole. Away from the pitying looks. Much to my delight, Axel smirks and me, and nods. His cheeks are still red, though, which makes him look a weird mix between sexy and adorable. I wish I knew the word for it.

"Komm Kätzchen."(Come kitty) He walks over to me, turns around and crouches down. What? What the hell is he doing? I blink and look up to Reno, confused. What the hell is Axel doing? Reno laughs hard behind his hand. He tried to hide it. He wasn't doing a good job.

"Its called a piggyback ride Roxy, get on. I'm carrying you to the car." He speaks nonchalantly. I blush and stare at his back for a moment. Should I? It will probably feel so nice, but I can walk. I don't want to burden him. I'm so heavy. Axe glances back at me with a smile, and I can't hold back anymore. I hug him tight around his neck, and my legs tightly wrap themselves around his waist. I winc at the pain that shoots through my chest because of my movement. Oh god, it's hard to breathe again. Maybe if I just, nuzzle his neck, it will be eaiser to ignore it. He does smell so good. Axe cupped my thighs as he stands, lifting me into the air. I know he's just doing it so I don't fall, but his fingers have found a sensitive spot on my inner thigh. I yelp and blushed darkly, hiding my face in his neck more. Sora and Reno are snickering at the display. Of course this was entertaining to Sora. He knows I like Axel. I have no idea why Reno thinks this is so funny, but it's not helping the blush on my cheeks go away.

My heart hammers in my chest as Axel stands, making me a head taller than him. I feel like I'm on top of the world. Damn Axel for being so tall. Does he see the world like this all the time? It's so weird. Reno walks over and puts my beanie on my head. I blush and stare at him from behind Axel's head. He just gives me a knowing look that churns my insides. "You ready Roxy? Reno?" Axel says with a smirk in his voice. I nod against his neck, and tighten my grip as he starts walking to his car.

I wave to my mom and Sora as we leave. I'm glad I don't have to go home. I don't want to have to deal with Sora's guilt as much as my father's wrath. Axel is truly the best for letting me go over to his house. The walk to the car is quiet, and I can tell that they want to say something. What I have no idea, and that terrorofies me. They obviously don't approve of me keeping quiet. I tense when I see Axel's brignt green ford fusion. What are they going to say to me? Are they going to make me tell mom? Axel carefully places me down on the ground and helps me into his car. Reno put my backpack in the trunk. Shifitng my eyes between Reno and Axel nervously as I bite my lip ina similar fashion. They both get in the car, and Axe pulls away silently. We drive along for what seams like an eternity before Reno speeks seriously. "Roxas...How long has Cloud been abusing you?"

My tail curls around my wast and I try to shrink away from Reno's gaze in the rearview. I shake my head. I don't want to answer him. I can't. I barely even remember when it all started. Reno's gaze doesn't falter, and eventually I mumble low. "Since ...Elementary School...since I...since they figured out about my mutation. He resents me for some reason...he must think I'm a freak..." My voice skeaks at the last word. It's true my own dad must think I'm a freak. My heart squeezes more painfully than the sting and stab of my rib. I'm a freak. A nussince.

"Verdammt! Why didn't you tell me Roxy! I would have done something! I want to help you..." Axel yells frustration and hurt dripping from his voice. I hide my face in my knees and cry silently. The pain in my chest is doubled. My head is back to spinning a mile a minute. I wish I could disappear. "Roxas, what are we supposed to do? I can't hide this secret. I can't let him hurt you like this. Now now that I know."

"If you told, it would hurt me more!" my voice is loud and frantic, my cheeks flushed in frustration and embarrassment. He shouldn't butt in. This isn't just about me. I'm barely even a factor. Mom and Sora... They are the ones who matter.

My eyes go wide and the world slows down. I yelled. At Axel. I raised my voice to him. I haven't ever yelled at Axel like that. I know what yelling gets me. Dread fills my chest, and I curl up more, into a tighter ball. Don't look at him. Don't draw anymore attention to yourself. If you don't say anything more, maybe he missed it. Maybe. Axel wouldn't hurt me, right? I don't know. I yelled at him. He didn't deserve that after everything he's done. I'm scum. I don't deserve his kindness. Everything hurts, especially my chest because im trying to hold in my sobs. The best I can do is quietly cry. I'm sorry Axel. I'm so sorry. Please, don't hate me. I'm so sorry. So, So sorry…. I didn't want to make anyone angrier.

We pull into Axel's driveway and he doesn't even ask to carry me in. He just mutters something in German and walks inside, not even looking at me. I stare after him, hurt. I should just go home. He hates me now. What am I to do? I can feel myself start trembling, and I hug myself tight. I need to keep it together. Axel, besides my brother, is my safe haven. He makes me smile when I don't even want to. My heart thunders in my ears. I should walk home. Nothing ever goes right. Reno taps my shoulder lightly after opening my door. I glance up at him, tears falling down my cheeks. He smiles sadly at me, and holds his hand out to me. "Come on Roxas. You can't stay here." I shakd my head and look down at my hands. My ears flat against my head.

"I made him hate me...I can't go in now...I can't...I'm just a bother...I...I hurt him...I yelled...I don't know why... I should just go home… Axel wont want to see my face after that. I don't blame him. I'm so pathetic!" I sob hard the action shaking me to my very core. Reno huffs angrily. I freeze, scared, screwing my eyes shut, waiting for Reno to hit me. To put me in my place.

"Get out of the damn car!" He barks. My blood runs cold and I scrambled to get out. Not caring about my well beaing, and carelessly knocking into the door. Oh god, I'm sure by rib shifted or something. Fuck that hurts. I just have to keep my head down and try to stop shaking. I deserve this. Reno huffs again and grabs my backpack from the trunk. I reach for it, but Reno glares at me. My ears fall flat against my head, making my benie shift uncomfortably. The dissiness is coming back. The pain in my chest is still raging. I am just pathetic. Reno nudges me inside and I yelp. Fuck! Ow,Ow,Ow! Fuck…. My teeth sink into my lip hard, and I hurridly walk to the door. It's what he wants right? I'll go say sorry to Axel, then I'll go home. I'm pretty sure that's why Reno's angry. It would be rude of me to not go apologize.

I grab the knob and open the door. My hands are shaking so hard, I'm surprised I even got the door open. I step into the house as quietly as possible. "A-A-Axel?" Ugh, so pathetic. Can't I just say anything in a not whiny, gross, girly sounding voice? It might be possible if I could ever stop shaking. The floor is so very interesting, along with my shoes. I see a pair of black sock covered feet join mine of the very interesting floor. Axel had heard me. I squeeze my eyes shut. Just say it. Just do it. The faster you do it, the faster you can get out of his hair. The faster you can stop bothering him. "I-I'm so sorry Axel. I didn't mean to yell at you. Please don't hate me. I-I…I'm just going to-"