A/N: I don't own anything. It's all Stephanie Myers. I forget to put it down last time my bad \
I looked into the cabinet and got out the cereal without a glance at Jacob.
"What do you want?" I said icily to Jacob. He flinched. I didn't mean to say it like that but I knew who send him.
"I just came by to say hi." he said awkwardly. I reached for the milk in the refrigerator and got a bowl and spoon. I still wasn't looking at him because I knew the look in his eyes. I poured the milk and cereal into a bowl and started to eat. Bam. Jacob fist hit the table. My eyes flashed up to look at him, angrily. I really did want to do this with his again.
"Damn it Bella. He's gone. Stop fucking waiting." he screamed.
"Waiting for what Jacob?" I said in a monotone, taking a big bit of my cereal.
"Ha. I'm not stupid Bella neither are you. We both know who." he said sitting down across from me, not awful enough to say his name. "Bella I'm worried-"
"You don't need to be." I looked down at my half eaten cereal and oddly saw Edward's face. I smashed my spoon into the middle and looked back at Jake's eyes. They were full of sadness and pity.
"Yea I do." he said, sounding like he was on the verge of crying. He reached out for my hand but I pulled away. "Bella…"
"Leave it alone Jake." I said getting up for the table and pouring out my cereal into the sink. "You can leave now." I whispered. Jake looked at me like I had two heads but got up and walk towards the door. He paused at the door.
"Bella, you always have me." he said and slammed the door behind him. I didn't need him. I need my one and only , Edward and he was never coming back. I was alone and damaged. I just need to get away, to not think about people thinking about me. But where would I go that did remind me plopped down onto the sofa. I was so lost and hurt. I wanted to cry but there were no more tears left for me to shed. I just sat there dumb founded that I couldn't get through the day. One day of no pain, staring full of pity but I couldn't. Maybe I wasn't meant to forget Edward, just remember him for what he was. I sighed and rubbed my hand over my face, holding it over my mouth.
Then I remembered our meadow and the many good memories we had there. Then I remember our first kiss. How unreal it was, how as soon as his lips touched mine I overreacted. My hand ran through his bronze hair, pushing him on my so he'd never leave. Oh was I sadly mistaken? He disappeared as fast as he appeared. I guess I was just too slow for my own well being. I walked over to my jacket and shoes and put them on.
I walked out my door, not know where I would go.
I glanced at my truck but I didn't feel… right driving that car. As I walked toward the forest, hoping that I could just get one more memory. I felt like I could breathe without that sharp pain in my chest. It almost killed the pain and I was the closest thing I got to happiness in a long time. I walked through the woods, remarkably without falling on my face. This time the memory of us walking to our meadow. Our Meadow.
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The drive there was a pain in the ass but it was worth it. It was just as imagined. The grass was a perfect shade of green. Then flowers look so delicate and untouched. The sound of the near by stream was claming and natural. I almost thought I saw a glowing figure laying in the grass. I sauntered into the open space just as I did when I was with Edward. I sat down, looking into at the lovely sunset. It was almost 6:30 and Charlie would be back at 8:00. I closed my eyes and thinking hard, trying to have another memory. Nothing came. I just sat there with my eye closed but all I saw behind my eyelids was black nothingness. Then I heard a faint growl into the forest. I turn around toward where the growl came from. Then I saw a pair of black eyes and flaming red hair. As the figure came forward, I could make out the person. She looked very normal and mundane.
Then I felt myself fly into a tree. I was breathless when I felt several punches to my stomach.. I fell to my knees. I tried to get up and ran but she kicked so I was off the ground. I was yards away from where I started. This is my death and it didn't come late.
I spit up blood and reached up to my head to felt the wetness. I closed my eyes and smiled. I stopped trying and let the pain take over. Victoria was standing over me and stepped on my leg just as James did. I could hold back the screams anymore. The tears I tried to hold back were flowing freely. She picked me up leaving my feet dangling a few inches from the ground. Her round dark eyes were filled with hate, anger … sadness. Then I felt her fist hit my face again and there was darkness.
