Chapter 2:The Trip Home

I got up early to start packing so to start off; I put my dirty clothes in a trash bag so I could wash them later. I laid out Ethan's green footy-pajamas with a blue hat on the bed.

I packed up the rest of his clothes and toys. I put his changing mat, extra clothes, dippers, and pack of wipes in his dipper-bag because I knew it was going to be a long trip home. I sat down and check my emails while I pump breast milk into bottles for Ethan.

It was now almost 5 now so I picked Ethan up carefully from his crib and laid him down on the bed in between his blue and green baby pillows.

I started loading my truck up with mine and Ethan's bag of dirty clothes, our box of bathroom items, and his box of toys. I made sure the tarp covering the bed of the truck wasn't letting in any water from the rain and snow.

I walked back in the room to make sure Ethan was still asleep, and checked clock before I sat down beside him and watched him sleep. I look at Ethan thinking about how I never wanted kids when I was younger, but now I wouldn't give him up for the world.

Ethan was my world now everything I did was either for him or because it's what I thought was best for him.

I looked at the clock and saw it was 20 till 7 so; I picked up Ethan and feed him his bottle. Then changed his dipper and put his clean clothes on him.

I put the small cooler (holding Ethan's bottles of milk and some of my Dr. pepper's) in the floorboard beside me in the truck along with Ethan's dipper bag of clean clothes and his two Pillows. I buckled Ethan up in his car seat and started the long drive home.

After driving almost 2 hours I decided to stop and feed a fussy Ethan, and grab a bag of chips.

I put on Ethan's swing (those things you wear to hold the baby while they eat) and turn on the radio; Ethan loves for me to sing to him.

About 20 minutes Ethan was done eating and had fallen asleep so I stopped and put gas in so the next time I stopped was to get lunch.

I pulled out my phone and text my mom

'Ethan and me are coming home we left this morning. We will be there in a few hours. Mom please don't tell anyone I coming home I don't won't anyone to but you, Jake, and Leah.

~B

I pulled in a gas station to get a snack, use the bathroom and put Ethan in his car seat. It only took about 10 minutes to do all that which surprised me but I was not sure why though.

I'm getting more and more nervous as I got closer and closer to my home town where I had almost lost my best-friend, got pregnant, and had my first heart break.

This is where I grew up I had a lot of good memories and a lot of bad ones to, my whole life I was in this small town.

My phone beeped. I picked it up and read the text from my mom

'I can't wait to see you again and meet my grandbaby. I'm at home now so you can come on home. No one knows you're coming. U does remember the family's old stories.

~Mom

I felt like I about to throw up as I saw the 'Welcome to Forks' sign. I took deep breaths as I past the sign I can do I can do this I kept telling myself over and over again.

Ethan started crying so I had to pull over to see what he needed. I got him out of his car seat and "shhhhhh it's okay sweetheart mommas her it's okay" I told him as I rocked him in my arms.

It worked he was fully awake now I loved it when he smiled at you, a lot of the time he would sit or lay there and stare at you watching I love it when he does it.

I went to put him down and started to cry again, so I tried to give him a bottle and he took it happily.

I pulled in the hospital parking lot and sat there taking a deep breath before I reached down to get 3 or 4 bottles and put them in the dipper bag along with an extra blanket.

I wrapped Ethan up in a blanket, and got out of my truck making sure I got my keys, phone, Ethan's pillow, dipper-bag, and his changing mat before I locked my truck.