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Naruto gasped in pain ,an electric bolt of sorrow going through his heart, his body dripping of salty night sweat he sat up in his bed. It was that dream again the very dream that had haunted his already tortured mind for the seven years he had been alive. It was the same every time images of a beautiful redheaded woman blurry and old telling him that she loved him and always would then she would die that part never changed neither did his age or the setting he looked little more than a day old and they were always in a hospital though he had only noticed recently he had the dream almost weekly each one becoming slightly clearer he could almost make out her face not that he needed to he could tell by her voice alone that she was an angel perhaps the only good thing that he had in his life an he had lost her the mere realization brought a retching pain to his heart after every dream the dream cruelly reminding him of his misfortune constantly causing him to break down and cry until the pain went away burying his head in his hands he let out a choked sob she was always on his mind yet no matter how hard he looked he could find no trace of her no grave nothing he had even asked jiji on several occasions but thoe old man would just look away as if he wasn't even there over time he stopped asking convinced that even if she were still alive no one would ever tell him anything which sadly was true virtually no one even went near him aside from the ichiraku's and jiji everyone hated him.

shivering he pulled his thin moth eaten blanket over his form the damned electrician had shut off his power again he didn't need it warm water and heat were over rated anyway at least… that's what he told himself. The old mattress creaked when he laid back down upon it he would be better off sleeping on the floor not that he could anyway he never slept after that dream kicking the sheet off in broken acceptance / irritation , he stood on weak sluggish legs before grabbing the candle stub and lighter he kept on his broken nightstand and walking towards his dresser lighting the wax light bulb as he went. Placing the stub on top of the dressers cracked wooden surface he opened the drawers.

Shivering Naruto closed the door to his apartment 6am ichiraku's would be opening soon what better way to celebrate his birthday than with some ramen. He let loose a shallow sigh the cold October air burning his lungs chilling his skin through his crimson high collared shirt covering his lower body in a dull heat through his black pants. The dreams having made him fall in love with the color red it reminded him of the one he missed the most it reminded him of her hair. Pulling the shirts neck up higher he attempted to shunt away some of the cold before he began to make his way towards ichiraku's.

Okay LOOK I KNOW ITS SHORT BUT THAT'S HOW I START BESIDES THESE CHAPTERS ARE ONLY BACK STORY SO THEY ARE SHORTER NEXT CHAP WILL BE LONGER I PROMISE TILL THEN READ AND REVIEW NARUTAYU