Breaking the wall

Chapter 2 - Frozen

A/N This chapter is kind of a song fic, that idea just popped into my head and didn't want to go away. Please enjoy and review!


What is wrong with me? What the hell am I feeling?

Rin furiously hit his locker's door with his fist. He's been thinking since yesterday and still couldn't name this feeling that hit him when he saw Haru with Makoto. Sudden sound of familiar voice made him budge.

"Hey, Rin-chan! We're going to a club for a karaoke, would you like to join us? Please, please, Rinrin!" - Nagisa's purple eyes were locked on his own in begging stare.

"Maybe next time." - he replied, taking his bag.

"But we'll all be there, Rei-chan, me, Mako-chan, Haru-chan and Gou-kun… Come on, come with us!" - Rin straightened himself at the sound of Haru's name put together with Makoto's.

What is this…?

Red-haired boy cleared his throat.

"Ugh, hell. Why not. I'll be ready in a minute." - he spoke, hoping Nagisa didn't notice sudden change in his spirit. Nagisa smiled.

"Ok then, we're waiting outside. Hurry up, Rin-chan!" - blonde ran out of the changing room, shutting the door after him.


"Ok, guys, let's rock!" - Nagisa yelled, taking the microphone in his hand. - "And the song for me is… " - he paused for a moment, waiting for the song title to show up. - "Oh, God." - he ended, smile disappearing from his face and his eyes widening in shock. Makoto took a look on the screen and burst with laughter. - "It's 'I touch myself!' Go, go, Nagisa!"

Nagisa's face looked as if it was going to burn with fire, but he took a deep breath, then took a microphone in his hand and started to sing.

I love myself
I want you to love me
When I'm feelin' down
I want you above me
I search myself
I want you to find me
I forget myself
I want you to remind me*

Makoto's face was all covered in tears flowing from his eyes against his will as he was laughing his ass off, watching Nagisa singing. Rei was laughing, too, trying his best not to curl on the floor and suffocate.

I touch myself
I don't want anybody else
Oh no, oh no, oh no*

"Hnh… gnnm… Hahaha!" - Rin turned his head in amazement. In the middle of the crowd was Haru, laughing as sincerely as ever. Rin held his breath. Actually it was the first time he's seen Haru laughing, really laughing, not merely smiling in the corner of his lips. Which didn't happen too often whatsoever.

Rin didn't notice when the music stopped. He was still watching Haru, taken aback with this burst of emotions from him. Mic pushed into his hand snapped him out of his thoughts.

"Rin-chan, it's your turn!" - Nagisa shouted, his cheeks still bright red.

"Um, right." - Rin murmured, taking a step closer to the screen. Rei, Makoto and Nagisa also leaned over to see the title.

"'Toxic', ladies and gentlemen!" - Rei announced and pushed Rin forward. Red - haired swimmer cleared his throat and took a breath.

Baby, can't you see?

I'm calling, a guy like you

Should wear a warning

It's dangerous, I'm fallin'

There's no escape

I can't wait, I need a hit

Baby, give me it

You're dangerous, I'm lovin' it**

Haru budged, feeling Rin's voice piercing him. It was low, deep and husky, but his singing was unexpectedly good. Who thought Rin was such a good singer? Haru stuck his eyes in the floor, feeling his cheeks reddening. Damn you, Rin.

Too high, can't come down

Losing my head

Spinning 'round and 'round

Do you feel me now?**

Rin's scream tore the air and Nagisa, Rei and Makoto started to clap.

"Go, Rinrin!" - the shortest swimmer shouted, pulling his hands up and clapping. - "Hey, Haru? What's wrong?" - he asked dark - haired boy, who was just standing with his blue eyes fixated on the floor tiles. Haruka lifted his head abruptly. - "Oh, it's nothing. I was just thinking about something, nevermind."

"Rin-chan is great, isn't he?" - Nagisa asked, smiling brightly. Haru sighed.

"Yeah. He is."

The song ended after a short while and Rin passed the microphone to Haruka.

"Your turn, Haru." - he smiled, showing Haru the row of white, sharp teeth. Makoto looked at the song title and smiled.

"It's 'Yellow', Haru. Good luck." - he whispered last words, not sure if they should be said aloud. Raven - haired swimmer took a mic and pulled it closer to his lips as the melody ran from the speakers.

Look at the stars,

Look how they shine for you,

And everything you do,

Yeah, they were all yellow.***

Rin felt shivers down his spine. What is it…?

Is he looking at me?

Indeed, Haru was literally staring at him, and for a brief moment their eyes met. Haru's voice was filling Rin's head, making him unable to shake it out even if he tried. It was so filled with emotions that almost unbearable to listen to.

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
Do you know, you know I love you so?
You know I l…***

Haru stopped in half a word, his voice freezing in his throat, still agazed at Rin's eyes. He dropped the microphone and ran out of the club, not looking back. He ruined everything.


A/N Ok, I confess, I'm evil. Looking for a song for Nagisa I googled "most embarrassing songs for a guy to sing" and "I touch myself" was one of the results… :D

Lyrics I used are:

* - "I touch myself" by Divinyls

** - "Toxic" by Britney Spears, although I had in mind something more like Static Lullaby's cover (check it out, it's great! Especially screaming part!)

*** - "Yellow" by Coldplay

Your reviews are great, they just keep me going (although I have no time and absolutely shouldn't be writing story right now instead of making college project, but… Oh, well…)! Thanks for your support!