Final Realizations, Chapter 2
Meredith realizes Derek isn't the one. Izzie finds her true love (Danny did not happen). Someone gets married, and someone has a baby. Merfin Bang Lexie, Little bit of others! R&R post LMR Constructive Criticism welcome!
This is my first FanFic so constructive criticism is very welcome
Disclosure: I do not own Greys Anatomy nor any of the characters involved in the show.
If you have any ideas about where this story should head I would love to here you suggestions.
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Finn ushered Meredith in out of the cold into his warm apartment "Meredith are you ok, you look a bit off," Finn watches as Meredith takes several deep breaths. "Come sit down, you look a little exhausted," Finn ushered Meredith to the couch in his living room and then dragged a dining room chair over for him. He suspected that Meredith would probably like a bit of space.
"I slept with Derek," Meredith blurted out before she could stop her self. She didn't like feeling guilty.
"Pard…whoa, whoa wait just there. Did you just say you slept with Derek?" Meredith nodded not trusting herself to speak. If she did open her mouth she knew she would blurt out the whole horrid story. "When did you... you know…sleep with Derek," Finn said as he stumbled around the idea that he had been betrayed by the person he had made plans with in the worst possible way.
"Finn, I don't know what to say," Meredith took several deep breaths to try and calm her nerves. Admitting that she loved Finn was harder than she thought. It was ten times easier when she told Derek that she loved him. But then the truth was she didn't love Derek in the way she now realized she loved Finn. So she continued, "except that I am more sorry than I have ever been in my entire life and that… that, I., I lo, I love you" Meredith mumbled the last three words.
With her head down Meredith watched the tears fall down into her lap. She heaved a great sob and sighed and looked over to where she thought Finn was sitting only to realize that she was looking straight into trouser clad legs. He was standing right in front of her.
As another tear fell down her cheek, she looked down only to have Finn put is calloused index finger under her chin and gently forced her to raise her head. She tried averting her gaze, but the gentle pressure of his thumb against her chin forced her to look into his deep blue eyes.
"Why Meredith?"
"I didn't want this to happen one minute we were arguing and the next he was kissing me. I was so emotionally drained after everything that had happened today, and ten Derek was looking at me while I was dancing with you. I had to get out of there, that's when I made up the excuse that I need to get a drink," she sighed. Meredith had the feeling that she was about to start rambling if she didn't get her emotions under control. She also knew she had to get the rest of the story off her chest otherwise she may not have a chance to make things right between her and Finn. So she continued. It was one of the hardest moves she had ever had to make.
Finn nodded for her to continue. Meredith took a deep breath. "We started arguing about him looking at me, and then he said…
Flashback
"Meredith" Derek calls.
"Leave me alone" Meredith sobs.
"Meredith"
"Just leave me alone" Meredith sobs again as she tries to close the exam room door. Seeing that it is no use she rounds to the head of the bed and turns to look at Derek.
"I just want to make sure you're alright."
"No! I'm not alright? Okay? Are you satisfied? I'm not alright. Because you have a wife, and you call me a whore and our dog died, and now you're looking at me again. Stop looking at me."
"You think I want to look at you? That I wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I'm married. I have responsibilities. She doesn't drive me crazy. She doesn't make it impossible for me to feel normal. She doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my veterinarian touching her with his hands. Man, I would give anything to not be looking at you."
Derek then rounds the table and grabs hold of Meredith in a passionate, all consuming kiss. As one thing leads to another they end up making love in the exam room where anyone could walk in at any time and discover them in there all consuming passion.
After they had caught their breath they scramble around the floor for various items of clothing.
End flashback
"That's when Callie came in looking for me for help with the chief's niece after she had collapsed."
After what feels like centuries Finn finally sits beside Meredith on the couch and drops his head into his hands and sighs "Do you love him?"
"No," Meredith answers quickly, and then continues. "I thought I loved him. I realized as I was leaving the hospital that I didn't love him, I only thought I loved him, but was more like an infatuation and compared to what I feel for you." Meredith tries to find the right words to describe what she feels towards Finn. All she can come up with is, "what I feel for you has no definition, so many people try to put into words what I feel for you, but no matter how hard they try they can never quite get it. All I can say is that, I, Meredith Grey am in love with you Finn Dandridge." Meredith gets up to go, fearing she has outstayed her welcome. She looks down to see Finns hand encircling her wrist. He gives a small tug and Meredith falls helplessly into his lap.
Finn murmurs into her hair "I love you to, and I'll give you another chance."
"Thank you" Meredith whispers, her heart beating against her rib cage as he pulls her into the most passionate, explosive, wonderful kiss she has experienced.
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So what do you guys think should I continue??? Finn hasn't completely forgiven Meredith yet as you will find out later. There will be more of other characters in the next chapter. Please review!!!! Hehehe
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