It's Our Secret

Chapter Two

Our Secret Kiss

Shugo Chara! Fanfiction

by Momoe


I woke up with a vague recollection of what took place the night before. It was mainly just bits and pieces of things. I remember telling Ikuto I was unsure of my relationship with Tadase… then he kissed me, and told me her wanted to be with me. Then I asked to sleep in his head with him. Oh… that's right… I turned over and Ikuto was still asleep next to me. He was facing me… he looekd so peacful there. I remembered kissing those lips last night… i hadn't felt that way in a long time, the way he made me feel, I hadn't felt that way with Tadase in a while. I slowly crawled out of the bed, my head was pounding relentlessly. This must be what a hangover would feel like.

I crept out of the room and headed back to my room. The sun was just starting to raise and the light was pouring in through the curtains in my room. I pulled some clothes out of my bag and headed for the shower, I felt gross from my hangover so hopefully a shower would help.

I undress and turned the shower on with some hot water. I let it heat up before I got in, it was cold so I got goosebumps while I was waiting. After i saw the room start to steam up i stepped in. The water felt amazing as it rinsed through my pink hair and all over my body. I washed all of the gross feeling off and got out and cleaned myself. I felt better after my shower. Ikuto was still in bed when I got out so I went to my room and laid back down. I felt sick a bit, but this was better than being up and about.


I was awaken by someone shaking me gently.

"Amu-chan….?" I opened my eyes and saw Tadase sitting on my bed, I was still hung over, I gave him a dirty look and rolled over. "Please don't be mad at me, Amu-chan…" he whispered.

"Tadase…." I sat up in bed, "I'm mad because this was supposed to be a good weekend for us… a fun one… and you… you…" I gave him a dirty look…. truthfully I wasn't really mad at him anymore. I was mad at myself. I had cheated on him last night with Ikuto…. guilt had set in and I was angry at myself.

"Everyone else is in the back, they already started the barbeque, wanna go out?" He asked and with a sigh I stood up.

"Have they been out there long?" I asked as I stretched.

"Just a little bit, I said hi and talked to Ikuto a bit, they are all mingling out there." I felt my body tense at just the thought of Ikuto. What am I going to do? I walked outside, it was now completely bright out, the sun was making my head feel worse. Tadase passed by me and met Kukai and Yaya at the barbeque. I winced at the sunlight.

"How are you feeling?" Ikuto's cool voice came from behind me. I felt my body tense. "Calm down, he doesn't know." Ikuto said. He handed me a bottle. I looked at it, it was some sort of beer. "This will help with the hangover a little bit." I took it from him and took a sip, it was somewhat refreshing, it tasted a lot better than what we had last night.

"I feel like crap." I admitted. Ikuto let out a small laugh.

"Me too." He took a sip of his own beer. "I saw Tadase texting that Ri-chan girl, I asked him about her." I peered over at Ikuto, we he was looking off at the group of friend surrounding the barbeque.

"What did he have to saw?" I asked.

"He told me she is an ex girlfriend of his. She contacted him recently. I guess they are going to hang out. He asked me not to tell you, he doesn't want you worrying. but… oh well." He said and sipped his beer. I drank more of mine down. That definitely upset me.

"You know," Ikuto continued, "I completely meant what I said to you last night, Amu." I looked over at him and met his mysterious eyes. Ikuto was a good friend of mine, I couldn't deny my attraction for him but I had commitments to Tadase right now, and I wronged him.

"I could do better than he ever could. I can tell you aren't happy with him. I know I can make you happy." I nodded and gulped another big part of my beer.

"I know…" I admitted. I thought it would be true too. I didn't like what Tadase was up to. "I just feel guilty about what happened.

Ikuto put his hand on my shoulder. "I kissed you. Remember that." He said and I nodded. "You didn't do anything wrong, I did. But deep down… you know it felt right." I smiled a little bit.

"Amu-chan?" Tadase called and my head snapped over to him. Tadase started walking over to us. "Are you drinking…. a beer?" He asked he looked upset.

"Um… yeah." I said and finished the rest of it.

"Since when do you drink?" He asked me and gave me a confused look. he looked from Ikuto back to me.

"Since last night, actually." I said and Tadase looked angry. "I'm a bit hung over right now, Ikuto too, this helps." Tadase seemed like at a loss for words. "I could actually use another one, Ikuto? Do you have any more?" I asked. He smiled a bit.

"Yeah, they are inside, come with me." Ikuto said and motioned for me to follow him. I looked at Tadase and he had his mouth hanging open. I left him outside. I knew i wasn't treating him fairly but I was so angry at him and at myself. We both were doing things behind each other's backs that weren't right. We should just end it.

I stepped inside behind Ikuto and he lead me to the kitchen, there was a small cooler on the floor, he bent down and pulled out two more beers and handed me one, as he did, part of his finger brushed up against mine and an overwhelming emotion hit me.

I set the beer down on the counter then turned back to Ikuto. I stepped closely to him.

"Amu?" He asked but I didn't answer him, instead I stood on the tips of my toes, wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. It was rough and passionate, before every time I kissed someone it was gently, this was different though. Very different, there was a need behind it that I've never felt before.

I stopped myself.

"Fuck... Amu..." Ikuto said in a breathy voice. "That's more like it." He said and grabbed me again. He pushed me against the fridge and forced his leg in between mine. He kissed me just as rough and when our tongues met I could help but let out a small moan from deep in my throat. We stayed like that for a good moment, kissing eachother then I felt his hips press into me a little more. I felt his member, completely hard pushing against me. I've felt Tadase's before but he got embarrassed and pulled away from me.

Then I pulled away from him. "We should stop for now." I whimpered out." And Ikuto sighed. He let me go.

"I'm sorry." I said and he shook his head.

"Don't be." He said and picked up his beer.

"I'll think about it some more… I just need a little time." I said and Ikuto smiled at me.

"You are worth the wait. Take as much time as you need." He said and I smiled at him.

"Are you going to come back out?" I asked and Ikuto shook his head.

"I need to calm down a bit before I can go back out there." He laughed and i nodded. I left him in the kitchen. I felt guilty. Things with Tadase needed to end, and end soon.