i woke up on the kitchen floor, i was in barbaric pain from lastnights 'games' with saix, which was just basically beat me up until i cant walk and rape me on the kitchen floor and leave me here whilst he stumbles to bed, i sat up slowly, hissing from the pain in my head where he hit me with a frying pan, but as horrible as lastnight was, it actually helped me...i remembered some stuff from before my 14th birthday, i now understood why axel and riku looked so hurt...i was there best friend of 13 years before they had to move, and riku was my boyfriend, he loved me and i loved him...i still do! thats what made my next desision

"i cant do this anymore" i whispered as i forced myself onto my feet, pulling my trousers back up and zipping them up before grabbing my hoodie and slinging it over my bruised chest, i took a deep breath and slowly walked out the house with a bowlegged limp, i closed the door quietly and walked down the streets, it was only 7:30am in the morning, i just hope demyx is up, i nead a place to crash until i figure out what to do...i cant do it anymore as before i blacked out lastnight i even considered killing myself to escape, even though i thought it before i so very nearly did it! i sighed happily once i reached demyxs house, i knocked a few times and waited, hoping he was up, i could hear mumbling on the other end, i heard the door unlock and it opened and demyx just looked at me

"sora?" he whispered

"i cant do it anymore...i need help" i whispered, demyx just blinked in shock and nodded, i hobbled inside and into the livingroom, which was now empty, except for zexion who was sat in the chair with a cup of tea

"hello sora" zexion said before looking at me "what happened?" he asked as he stood up, placing his cup on the side and looking at my head, worry in his eyes

"its the worst yet" i whispered, i was shivering

"sit down" zexion instructed, i nodded and sat down "what happened?" he asked and he looked at the side of my head where saix had hit with a frying pan, i took a deep breath and explained everything to him and demyx, who stood by and listened, there faces slowly hardening

"fucking sick twisted cunt" demyx growled, his arms crossed over his chest, zexion nodded in agreement, i yawned slightly

"if you need to you can have a sleep" zexion said calmly

"is that ok?" i asked, demyx and zexion nodded, i smiled slightly "thanks" i yawned as i laid down on the sofa and shut my eyes, zexion had fixed my head up pretty well and now i just hurt everywhere in genral...

..."whats happened?" someone asked

"nothing axel" another said, so the first was axel

"no seriously whats happened cos he didnt have the huge gash on the side of his head lastnight demyx" axel demanded, so the other voice was demyx

"you remember us telling you he's dating that saix guy?" demyx asked

"yeah" axel muttered

"for the past three years hes been abusing sora mentally, physically and sexually" demyx sighed, there was a long pause before i heard something crack, it sound like a set of knuckles

"where is the bastard im gonna kill him" axel growled but was quickly shhh'ed

"let him sleep axel" demyx said calmly, i heard a sigh

"i guess he needs that more than me being mad huh?" axel sighed

"yeah we shall tackle this when sora wakes up" demyx muttered "you 2 keep an eye on him, hes been known to have bad nightmares" demyx sighed, 2? so who was with axel?, i heard some movment and felt someone sit infront of me

"jesus this is bad" axel sighed

"yeah i cant believe it" a smooth voice sighed, so it was riku

"so then riku what possesed you to kiss sora lastnight?" axel asked, sounding slightly smug, he saw that? i heard riku chuckle quietly

"couldnt help it, would you believe me when i said he still affects me the same" riku said happily

"seriously? you mean you still like love him?" axel asked, shock in his voice, i felt my heart hammer against my ribs as i listened carfully for rikus answer

"i do" riku sighed, i felt something brush through my hair and knew it was rikus hand, it was something he used to do, such a caring gesture

"wow shame he doesnt seem to remember us" axel sighed, you could hear the hurt in his voice

"yeah maybe we werent as good as we thought" riku sighed, guilting me much! i heard another sigh

"maybe" axel sighed "but hes still sora" axel said calmly

"yeah i guess" riku sighed sadly, thats it! i opened my eyes slowly and saw axel and riku sat on the floor, axel was across from me and riku was sat beside my head, axel just smiled slightly at me

"hey dude you ok?" axel asked, riku turned to me and quickly pulled his hand back

"could of been better" i sighed, i noticed i was under a blanket

"yeah we heard" axel growled

"not what i ment" i sighed, axel looked at me in confusion, same as riku

"what then?" axel asked

"it wasnt my fault i forgot you guys you know" i sighed, there eyes widened

"you heard that?" riku asked, i nodded

"yep all of it" i sighed, riku gulped and blushed slightly "it really wasnt my fault, when i was 14 i fell down the stairs and hit my head and basically lost all my memories of before my 14th birthday" i explained, riku and axels eyes widened "but when saix hit me over the head with a frying pan i remembered some of it, well, i remembered you guys" i added, they both looked at eachother "and yes you were good enough, your my best friends" i smiled, they both smiled slightly

"so you do remember us then?" axel asked, i nodded

"axel lea and riku cresent" i smiled, they both grinned as they knew demyx hadnt told me there last names

"well thats good to know" axel smiled as he stood up, cracking his back as he did, i was still laid down "im getting washed and dressed so laters boneheads" axel grinned as he walked out the room, riku just shook his head, the silence was tense

"why did you kiss me lastnight?" i asked, i was curious, riku looked at me and sighed

"didnt you hear that part?" riku sighed

"i did but id like to hear it again" i smiled, riku looked at me in shock "look...ive had a void in my life since i lost those memorys, having them back didnt fill it as much as i thought it would, but talking with you and axel like we had been felt like it could, although you may be a little different" i explained, riku shuffled around slightly, his eyes never leaving mine

"meaning?" he asked, i lowered my eyes for a moment as i felt myself blush, the first one in years

"you were my first boyfriend, and my first love, you left and i unfortunatly forgot you but even though i forgot you i felt like i knew you...even lastnight, even your kiss felt familiar to me and i think that erm i may still love you" i whispered the last few words, rikus eyeborws shot up as his eyes widened, a small blush spread across his cheeks, as it did on me, i felt him cup my cheek before kissing me, i closed my eyes and responded to his kiss, it was still soft and gentle, but it felt so nice, i felt his thumb rub across my cheek as he pulled back, my eyes opened and i smiled shyly "be patient with me please" i whispered

"i promise" riku whispered softly before kissing my forehead "now let us sort saix out ok?" riku asked, i nodded shakily

"i dont know riku...if im in the same room as him, all he'll have to do is look at me and ill agree to his story" i muttered fearfully, riku sighed, his eyes becoming a mixture of surry and saddness, then he smiled

"dont worry about that, i know some people" riku smiled, i crooked my head

"who?" i asked

"remember my brothers?" riku asked, i nodded

"erm kadaj, loz and yazoo?" i asked, well guessed, riku nodded

"all cops" riku smiled, my eyes widened

"really?" i asked, riku nodded

"yeah all of them" riku smiled "it ok if i call them?" he asked, i lowered my eyes for a moment before looking at riku again

"ok" i whispered fearfully, riku smiled softly at me, trying to ease my worry im betting, he went for the phone but i felt mine vibrate, i sat up, hissing as i did and pulled my phone out my pocket, i gulped as i saw it was saix calling me, probably wondering where i was, i felt someone sit beside me, i knew it was riku, he gently took the phone from me and hit end call before turning my phone of, he glanced at me and smiled softly

"dont worry" he said calmly, i nodded shakily...worry was all i could do right now, riku grabbed a phone and dialed a number, he held the phone up to his ear and gently linked his hand with mine and gave it a comforting squeeze "hey kadaj" riku said calmly "yeah im ok its not me whos in trouble" he sighed "remember sora?" riku asked "yeah it him" riku sighed "ok" riku muttered before handing the phone to me, i gulped and held it to my ear shakily

"hello?" i said shakily

"hey sora its been a while hasnt it" came a smooth but cocky voice, i smiled slightly

"yeah it has huh?" i muttered

"so whats been going on? riku tells me your in some bother" kadaj asked, i glanced at riku who nodded softly, i took a deep breath and began explaining to kadaj about my situation, i felt so sick as i was telling him, i hated telling people what id been through, it made me feel so filthly!

"where does he live?" kadaj asked, well demanded, his voice sounding furious

"35 oblivion way" i whispered

"right we'll come see you first and have a look at you and then go get saix" kadaj explained, i nodded even though he couldnt see it

"ok so see you soon" i sighed

"yeah see ya" kadaj said calmly before the line went dead, i shakily handed the phone to riku who placed it back before wrapping a comforting arm around my shoulder

"so whats happening?" axel asked, i turned and saw axel, demyx and zexion stood across from us

"there getting saix" i whispered

"bout fucking time" demyx muttered, i was still shaking slightly, i felt riku rub my arm soothingly, i was shit scared now "but onto the good news" demyx grinned, i looked at him carfully "i cant belive you know these guys!" demyx said giddly, i chuckled shakily "what the doctors said there was little chance he would remember anything so forgive me if im a bit happy" demyx huffed, i smiled

"hey were not complaining, riku especially" axel chuckled, i glared at axel as he laughed with demyx, zexion just shaking his head, but he did have a small smile on my face, i felt sick from worry...i was completely shit scared

"erm anyone for hot chocolate?" demyx asked, looking at me mainly, i nodded shakily, my frame vibrating slightly, demyx nodded and walked into the kitchen, riku was still rubbing my arm soothingly

"hey dont worry ok"" riku soothed, i looked at him

"i cant help it riku" i muttered, i felt like i was about to burst into tears at any moment, saix wouldnt agree to anything they accused him of, he would find some way of getting out of it, and then he would come for me...i burried my head in my hands as my eyes watered, thing over all the different ways saix would probably kill me if he ever got his hands on me again, i practically jumped out my skin when i heard someone knock at the door, i lifted my head from my hands and saw demyx walk out the room, axel peeking through the corridor, i was still shakily slightly when 3 guys walked into the livingroom, on was a muscular build with short silver hair, hes called loz, another was quite tall and skinny with long silver hair, thats yazoo and the final one had a similar hair style to zexion which was kadaj, again the hair was silver and they all had sharp green eyes, to br frank they scared me more than anything saix could do and these where rikus brothers

"long time no see riku" yazoo grinned, they all smiled and i felt slightly better, riku just chuckled

"no shit" riku smirked, kadajs eyes flicked over to me, noticing my head injury

"wow sora you look...ruff" loz muttered, kadajs just sighed and slapped his brother over the head, loz yelped and rubbed his head

"idiot" kadaj hissed at his brother, he turned to look at me "could we talk with you so we can sort this out?" he asked calmly, i lowered my eyes for a moment before looking at him and shakily nodded, everyone else quickly left the room after yazoo gave them a very good warning look, he still doesnt talk much then, kadaj came and sat next to me and gently checked out my head "did he do this?" he asked calmly

"with a frying pan" i muttered, loz and yazoo shared looks of disgust, my shaking still hadnt stopped yet

"right so explain to us whats happened and how it stared" yazoo said softly, i nearly looked at him in shock, he never talked, well maybe he did, i took a deep breath and slowly explained everything to them, all the injurys i recived over the 3 years, how i even ended up with him, kadaj was writing it all down, i had to close my eyes through most of it to keep myself calm, i didnt need to be breaking down right now, they where trying to help me, trying to get saix locked up so i could maybe have a life...a happy one

"right is that everything?" loz asked when i was finished, i nodded

"yes thats it all" i whispered

"dont worry kiddo we will sort the twisted fuck out" kadaj growled, i remember him having a bad temper to him, i havent gotten mad in years, i nodded shakily and jumped again when i heard 4 loud knocks on the door, my eyes widened as i knew it was him

"no" i whispered as i burried my head in my hands, i knew he would find me, i felt myself begin to shake again

"that him?" i heard yazoo asked

"by the way soras reacted im guessing yes lets go get the guy" loz said venomusly, i felt kadajs stand up and i heard them walk out the room, i didnt remove my head from my hands, not even when i felt someone sit beside me, i heard muttering in the hall which soon turned to furious yells which i knew was saix, then stopped when a door shut, so they had took him away

"hes gone you know, kadaj and that cuffed him" i heard axel mutter, i lifted my head from my hands and saw everyone looking at me worriedly

"they took him?" i asked, saix went down way to easy?

"yeah, yazoo knocked him out when he started making a fuss" demyx smiled, wow go yazoo

"oh" was all i said, as i lowered my eyes again, he still wont agree to any of it, i just know it, i felt someone sit beside me

"what the hell has happened?" a girl asked, i looked and saw xion looking at me and everyone else in the room, who all had sheepish looks on there face, i sighed

"basically rikus brothers have just took my boyfriend of 3 years away cos hes been abusing me mentally, sexually and physically" i explained mono-tone, her eyes widened

"you being serious?" she asked, i nodded, again i just felt dead from the head down, i felt my hand begin to fiddle again, i didnt even need demyx warning as i just stood up with a hiss and walked...hobbled out the livingroom and to the backyard where i was lastnight, i slumbed onto the swing seat and pulled a fag out and lit it, hoping it might calm me down like it usually does, i took a deep drag from it and blew it infront of me, THIS ISNT HELPING! i opened my eyes and looked at the clear blue sky above me, there wasnt a single cloud in the sky...was it really all over? so easily? it just didnt seem possible to me at all, saix the guy i had known for ages was never one to go down without a fight and yet he has? its so wierd, i took another drag of my fag and pulled my phone out my pocket and switched it back on, it bleeped before showing my wallpaper, which is a picture of me, namine and roxas, i smiled as i looked at the picture, it was taken on my 19th birthday...that was a good night, i jumped as it began to ring, i put it to my ear

"hello?" i asked calmly, wonder who it was

"hello sora" came the voice of saix, i felt myself go paler, i forgot he would have one phone call...why me though?

"what do you want?" i muttered shakily, i could see my fag shaking in my hand

"you are going to get me out of here" he warned, i shivered "and your going to do it soon, cos if i have to do it you will regret it" he hissed, i shivered and felt my eyes water, i looked towards demyx house and saw demyx jumping up and down, waving his arms like a mad man, i waved back and he grinned before turning back to everyone...i cant give in this time

"no" i muttered, the other end remained silent

"what did you say?" saix growled

"i said no" i repeated slightly louder, i was still shaking violently

"no? didnt know that was in your vocab" saix hissed, i shivered involentary "you are going to get me out of here sora or do you want to live on the streets!" saix growled, my eyes widened "think about it you have no job, so how will you pay the bills?" he laughed bitterly, i felt some of the water in my eyes trail down my cheeks, but i realised i wasnt bothered about being homeless

"i dont care" i said slowly

"what?" saix asked

"i dont honestly care if i live on the streets at least they wont hurt me like you do" i snapped, my eyes widened, i havent snapped in years, even before i met saix, i decided to continue whilst he was quiet "i cant deal with it anymore saix! youve gotten everything you deserved and to be honest if you call me again ill get you done for haressment!" i growled before ending the call, i cant believe it...i finally stood up against him, i couldnt help the huge smile that spread across my face or the loud laugh that escaped me "ahh im homless" i laughed, i know its nothing to laugh about but i think everything over the past 3 years has just all caught up with me and is making me crazy, i placed my head in my hands and laughed again before slowling calming down, i took a deep breath and tried to calm down, i jumped when i felt the swing shift and gain in weight, i looked and saw riku sat beside me, a raised eyebrow

"whats so funny?" he asked, i smiled sheepsihly

"just had a call from saix, he wanted me to bail him out, im not going to" i explained slowly, i could feel the need to laugh rising again, i felt an arm wrap round me

"so thats who you were yelling at?" riku asked softly, they heard that?

"you heard me?" i asked

"yep, we all did" riku said calmly "you stood up to him atleast" riku said calmly, a small smile on his face

"true only now im homless" i sighed

"why are you?" riku asked curiously

"i have no job, so i cant pay the bills...im totally fucked" i sighed, sadly, i felt riku shift and sit bang beside me, i could feel his heat and couldnt stop myself leaning against him, his arm wrapping around me tighter

"stay with me and ax" riku said softly, my head whipped in his direction

"what?" i asked

"we have a spare room at our house, come stay with us" riku offered, would he really offer me a home?

"youd do that for me?" i asked, he nodded "im not worth that riku" i muttered, turning and bowing my head away from him, i felt him gently grap my chin and turn my face back to his

"yes you are, your mine and axels best friend sora and im not going to let you sleep on the streets when we have a spare room which you could use" riku explained, i felt myself blush at his explination, my eyes darted to the side briefly before flicking back to his, i nodded and gave a shy smile, his answering smile was gently, barely causing a crease in his skin, i couldnt help myself as i kissed him, my eyes sliding closed, he made me feel so safe and...special just by smiling at me, i felt his arm wrap around my waist and pulled me closer, the swing was rocking gently now, i pulled back with a deep blush on my cheeks, he smiled gently at me before rubbing my back soothingly, i yawned slightly and laided my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes "tierd?" riku asked softly

"yeah" i sighed

"go to sleep if ya want to" riku said softly, i turned my head up to look at him and smiled before quickly kissing his cheek, i didnt miss the faint blush that appeared across his cheeks

"thanks ku night" i yawned as i relaxed against riku and closed my eyes, a small smile on my face knowing that i had my memories back, my two best friends, one lover and one nutter locked up...lifes looking up finally