I know this chapter is kind of short. Actually it is two chapters. I am sorry but it was so hard to find the right words in this very depressing part.
Songs- In Pieces- Linkin Park (first part), Clocks- Coldplay (makes a great background song.)
Disclaimer- I don't own Twilight.
I drove on never stopping, always speeding. I knew I would never feel how Bella felt when I left her be every time I thought about her my chest ached. Her eyes, pain. Her sweet smell before she became a vampire, pain. It washed through me. How could humans deal with this? This heartbreak.
Maybe she realized she could do better. But she was already a monster like me. My venom was pulsing through her veins. She was married to me. She had a child with me. How could this have happened? I didn't know why now. She pledged her life to me forever. I gave her everything she wanted.
Questions went through my mind. Why? How? Was it I? I tried to remember what might have caused this decision. As I thought my breathing got sharp and uneven. I was so alone and I had no clue where I was going. I just had to escape.
I looked at the speedometer; 95 miles; too slow. I needed speed. Faster. Faster. I needed to disappear or turn the world backwards or go back in time; one of those. I needed to get my mind off of Bella. Ouch a bit of pain raged through me as I though about her.
Am I more human than I thought???
After two days of driving I had to stretch my legs and hunt. I got out of the car and saw that I was in New Jersey. The garden state, oh boy. I got out and walked to a forest where I first saw her.
She smelled lovely. Like chocolate or an amazing perfume to a human. Her hair was darker than Bella's, and down to her shoulders, so it didn't make me sad. She turned and looked at me. And I saw her face. I was breathless. I was frozen. Her eyes were as blue as pools of water and her skin as pale maybe a little darker than mine. She walked backwards a few paces before I said anything. Stunned, I guess.
We stared at each other in comfortable silence for about a minute while we studied each other. I studied how the sun didn't sparkle off her as it did off me. It gave her more of a glow. Like a goddess. I noticed that her eyes changed to green and back to the blue it was before. I pondered why until I spoke.
" Hello", I said in the calmest voice I could manage with all these emotions buzzing around in my head. I couldn't think, and I couldn't read her thoughts.
" Who are you?" she asked as her eyes sparkled like diamonds. Her eyes seemed to look as if she was scared and curious at the same time. This intrigued me.
" I am Edward, and you?" Why was I so open to this girl I have never met? Was it that she was very pretty? Or was it because I was curious about her and her color changing eyes?
" My name is Asha. Where did you come from?" She asked in a polite but apprehensive tone.
Asha, what a pretty name I thought quietly to myself. I wondered what language it came from, what it meant.
" I was driving around and decided to step out for a while." I responded holding my smile to a less disturbing intensity.
" I was just leaving, so I will just go, I guess." She said as she stepped back. I wanted her to stay, so I somewhat asked/shouted for her to wait and stay. I cleared my throat.
" I mean, would you like to take a walk with me. I have been ignoring my social side for a while. I wouldn't mind talking to someone human." I stated I tried as what Bella called "dazzling" her with my eyes, feeling like a ridiculous idiot.
" Human," she scoffed lightly under her breath. She walked towards me and I took it as a yes towards my invitation.
