Ever been so scared to speak? To ask the questions you need to know? That fear can take over your whole body and it's taking up mind to a point I want to die. "Sakura?" Izumo walks around the bar to me as my start to feet give out. He catches me but I quickly get back up. "Where's Totsuka?" My best friend from childhood. The kind one, the one who always knew what was right. Izumo doesn't speak and looks away from me. I get so angry and I try to stop the tears from coming out. I push Izumo while he still doesn't look at me. "Where is Totsuka?!" I scream pushing him some more. Harder this time.
The boy from earlier grabs my arm. "He's dead!" He yells. I stop and try to breath. Dead? I shake my head. "He was…killed." The boy's voice cracks and the whole bar becomes a place filled with sadness. "Is this true?" I ask Izumo. He still doesn't speak or look at me. "At least you could do this tell me!" I say like he owes me. He nods. "Yes." I allow some tears to fall. I see a little girl with hair like mine and purpleish red eye peaking around the bar counter. Anna. I look at her with a soft expression and I hope she remembers me. She was only a child back then, well a younger child. "Sakura?" She whispers and my heart stops. Does she?
Anna starts to back up but stops herself. She stumbles a bit but she runs and jumps on me. "Sakura." She says my name and cuddles into me. I hold her and swear I'll never let go again. "Anna." I bend down to her height and kiss her forehead. "You remember me?"
"A little." She says. "I remember… you were important to me and then… you were gone. Then I saw Mikoto's red in you." Mikoto. I pat her head and get up while still holding her hand. "Is Mikoto okay? I-I…want to see him." I wonder if he's asleep during this whole reunion. Anna's hand goes limp and falls out of mine. Izumo's right back to not looking at me again. No.
I shake my head and laugh. "No, no… Mikoto isn't…I mean he can't." I can feel my energy lowering and lowering each second no one is speaking. I'm not angry as I was before… I don't know what I am. "Mikoto… di-" I stop Izumo before he could finish. I drop down to the floor as Anna catches me. Leaning on to her petite shoulder I just…lean on her. Not even a single tear passes by my cheek. No tear are swelling in my eyes. My heart doesn't even feel like its beating. My blood doesn't seem to be pumping.
Then I get sucked into the blackness.
I was scared, lost, confused. I once was loved, in love, happy. Now… now it's just as if I was dead. Maybe it would've been better off if she killed me. She? She as in- I hear an evil scream and shoot up from the darkness. I pant and it hurts to breathe. "Sakura, Sakura!" I see Anna's face and hear Izumo's words. I get up as my head pounds. "Hey, don't-don't do that!" The beanie boy yells at me. "Sorry." My voice is weak and its barley heard.
Izumo sighs. "Listen. You're not in the best state right now…where do you live?"
"Live?"
"Yes, where's your home?" Home? What is a home again? "I don't have a home." Not for a very long time. "You-you could stay here!" The beanie boy yells like he owns the place. I stare at him. I can't call him beanie boy forever. Then it's as if he reads my blank mind. "I'm Yata." He says and smiles while giving me thumbs up. "Mi-sak-i" a few guys whisper behind him. "Shut the fuck up!" He turns around and starts play fighting with a few of them. "It's perfectly fine if you stay here." Izumo, the actual owner of the place says. "But it you have to stay here you have to know everybody. You already know Yata." Then he starts introducing me to the gang members.
Rikio is a tall man with tanned skin and messy blonde hair, he's a big guy. He seems somewhat serious individual. Chitose is a slim man of average height with short, wavy brown hair and brown eyes. He seems quite friendly and kindhearted although Yata told me he's a bit of a womanizer. Better not fucking mess with me. And the others Masaomi, Kosuke, Bando, Shohei, and Eric.
Yata and Shohei walk me up to my room. It's a small room with a bed, dresser and a window. "I mean it's not much, but we only have so many." Shohei says while making the bed a little better. "What's this black stuff?" I run my fingers across this coal looking black that is spread across the wall. I like the feeling it leaves on my fingers. Yata chuckles. "You can thank good old fire man for that. When Eric first got here he woke Mikoto up once… and he almost burned the whole place down." I smile a small smile, although it hurts.
"Sounds like something he would do." I'm still over whelmed with sadness that I can't even hear my words. Maybe Yata notices because he pushes Eric a little faster so I could be left alone. "You know Sakura even though Mikoto is…gone. He's still our king." Yata leans on the door frame while Eric rushes down stairs.
King? Something flashes in my head, like a memory I can't figure out. "Yata," I stop him from leaving and sit on my bed. "How did Mikoto…die?" Yata slightly sighs and comes over next to me. "The colorless king killed Totsuka… Mikoto then killed the colorless king, but in the process destroyed his Sword of Damocles." Yata turns away from me when he's done probably remembering the day. Sword of Damocles? Kings? I-I remember but then again it's fuzzy. "Well," Yata gets up and heads out. "Need anything just yell down and I'll get fatty to help you out." He Refers to Rikio. He smiles then runs down.
He reminds me of Goma a little bit. I lie down and think of my friend. She's probably worried about me, right? Well I'll call that girl later. Right now all I wanna do is sleep.
When I was 13 and in my 2nd year of middle school my best friend Totsuka was always a passive aggressive trouble maker. Always having a big heart and knowing everything, all he cared about was making should everything was how it should be. "Sakura, you shouldn't wear your hair that long… the teachers might get mad at least put it up." He says one day as we walk to school. I flip my hair and continue walking ahead of him. I know he loves my hair. He sometimes plays with it all the time when I'm asleep, but he hates that I get in trouble for it.
"I can do whatever I want." I say and grip my bag. A group of high school boys are messing around in an ally we pass. I get so nervous and scared around them, but since Totsuka is he with me I feel lighter. Not like he can do anything, but he makes me a bit braver. "Hey, middle school girl!" One of them calls out to me. I stop in place not knowing what to do as Totsuka runs into me. "Why don't you come over her and entertain us!" I suck my lips in and shake my head.
I take a step when I'm push from the side and I stumble over to them. "Hey!" Totsuka yells. The guy tugs on my skirt that I always hated for being too short and I slap his hand. "Hey now, don't be like that." He brushes against my thigh and I flinch. What a gross feeling. I close my eyes to act like this isn't happening when I hear something and his finger is gone. Another high schooler kicked his head and the guy fell over. "Creeps like you piss me off."
I look up to the rough voice to see a guy with red hair and amber eyes. I blink a couple times to make sure he's real. We don't speak as we stare at each other for a little while. My heart starts to beat and at the time I thought something was seriously wrong with me. Then I hear Totsuka and feel him bump into me. "Sakura, are you okay?" He asks and grabs my shoulders while my head never turns from the red haired guys gaze. I nod still not turning.
I remember not paying attention to anything or anyone the whole day until I came across the amber sun set on the way home. I stared at it just as if it was his eyes.
Yata
I yawn as I continue to play stupid cards with Eric. It is too early in the morning for this crap, seriously yesterday was a real stressful day. My encounter with that fucking monkey Fushimi, and this whole reunion or whatever this is with this girl, which makes me wonder. I turn in my chair and face Izumo who is leaning on the bar smoking a cigarette. "Yo, Izumo. Who is that girl anyways?"
Izumo looks at me then puts his cigarette out. He sits on the bar stool and looks over to Anna who is sleeping on the couch. "Her name is Sakura Oshiro, she's Anna's big sister." What? I didn't know Anna even had a sister. "Anna doesn't know because when she was 6…well like she said Sakura disappeared. I don't know if her memoires were blocked or if she just forgot about her…because it was so painful." What in the world? So something big happened…well shit.
"I remember I met Sakura the same day we heard about Totsuka getting into that fight, she was actually a little upset at Mikoto heaven knows why. Since then she was always over here…as Totsuka's best friend and also to be with Mikoto."
"Whoa, were they a thing?" Mikoto never told us he had such a beautiful girl what the hell! Izumo shook his head. "I don't think so… but I knew they were special to each other. That's probably the reason why Anna and Mikoto were so close. Anna reminded him of Sakura and Mikoto reminded Anna of her big sister." Ever since I can remember Anna's always been with Mikoto, who knew it was because of Sakura…and now she's probably heartbroken. Two of her best friends are dead… but isn't that what everyone felt when she left?! What even happened?
"Ugh, this is so messed up!" I slam my fist against the table waking Anna up. Why is the world so fucked up? I get up and walk to the door to cool off my head. That's when I see a pinkish cat running followed by a guy with a long black pony tail. Black Dog. I smirk and grab my board. "Yata, where are you going?"
"To have some fun."
