A/N: Here's another update. Elizabeth's scenes Thursday were awesome! I was waiting for her to comfort Patrick. I almost cried when Patrick looked to Elizabeth for help and she told Emma a story to explain death. It was heartbreaking! Anyways, let me know in a review of what you thought of the chapter and anything you would like me to add. Enjoy!

Freshman11: Thanks for the review! Glad to see that you're interested, hopefully I can hold it for the whole story.

Virgy15: Thanks for the review! Red is such an underrated band, check out their songs, each one is perfect. Just wait for the chapter that this story is named after, the lyrics are perfect for Liason. The present is going to be different than what's going on now. Jason and Elizabeth will find comfort in each other's arms, one way or another.

Hellz-on-Earth: Thanks for the review! Yesterday's episode was heartbreaking. You know it must be bad if you can't cry anymore because you've cried over so much. I wanted to convey those raw feelings that they showed in their last break up. I appreciate all of your kind words.

Irobinson01: Thanks for the review! You said it so simply; the writers definitely shot themselves in the foot by getting rid of Liason. Didn't they notice the ratings plummet after their final break up? Hopefully I can give this couple the happy ending they so rightly deserve.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, just the storyline. Oh boy, how different this show would be if I did…


"Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest."


Chapter 2

Fight Inside

He had been in this position before and he hated it. He hated the feeling of being helpless, like a child. The darkness that surrounded him didn't help either. His mind wandered, sorting through memories of past events. He could remember everything, right up to going into surgery. He remembered looking at Sam, then to Patrick.

Enemy familiar friend
My beginning and my end

Voices swirled all around him, yet all he saw was darkness. He couldn't register who was talking or what they were saying, but he could catch random words. He pieced words together, finally figuring out that the voices were talking about him. There were a few, one he recognized to be Sam's. Of course she would be there, she's his wife.

Knowing truth, whispering lies
And it hurts again

There was an angry voice, not loud, just angry. It was low and menacing and it was arguing with Sam. It was a male's voice, but he couldn't put it together. Another voice cut in, a loud female's. If he was awake, he knew he would smirking. Carly had burst onto the scene, her voice raised and trying to defend Jason. Why would she be arguing with Sam? Shouldn't she be on Sam's side against the mysterious male's voice?

What I fear and what I try
The words I say and what I hide

The voices faded to darkness as he fell back into an unconsciousness state.

"Carly, what the hell are you doing?"

The blonde looked up from bending over Jason, pretending to check his vitals. Sam was standing in the doorway with an incredulous look on her face. Carly smirked as she stood up straight and pulled the surgical mask down off her face.

"I'm here making sure Jason is okay."

"What part of banned from Jason's room don't you understand?"

Carly rolled her eyes as Sam strode over to her and got in her face. This brunette was really starting to piss her off. Thank God she was Jason's wife or she would kick her ass right now.

"I told you I would find a way into Jason's room."

Carly motioned at her nurse's outfit and Sam just folded her arms, standing in front of Jason.

"You're not welcome here."

"I'm Jason's best friend. He needs me."

"We already had this conversation. He needs to recuperate from his surgery and you being here isn't going to help. I don't care if you're his best friend, he's my husband and I'm speaking on his behalf. Get the fuck out."

Carly glared down at the woman in front of her. She pulled her hairnet off and threw it down on the floor. Arguing with this woman wasn't getting her anywhere.

"You don't know Jason like I do."

Sam shook her head and lunged out at Carly. Carly flung Sam back and she hit a table. The table was knocked to the floor, bringing attention to themselves. Security ran into the room and pulled apart the two women.

"Get the hell out of my way so I can rip her head off!"

The guard struggled holding Carly back as Sam calmed down and smoothed out her outfit. The guard pulled Carly out of the room while Sam nodded to the other guard and grinned at Carly.

"We're not done yet bitch."

"What is going on?"

Carly watched as Patrick walked up to her.

"I was just trying to make sure Jason is okay."

Patrick shook his head as he took in Carly's outfit. She noticed how distraught he was and mentally kicked herself for forgetting. Robin just died and here she was yelling at her husband. She had never gotten along with Robin, but the least she could do was be respectful towards Patrick.

"Rest assured, the murderer is going to live."

Patrick entered the hospital room with Carly right behind him.

"Are you stupid?"

Sam went to go at Carly again, but she saw the look in Patrick's eyes.

"Please, can the both of you shut the fuck up? I have to go tell my daughter her mother's dead and she's never coming back, and here you are arguing over a man who doesn't deserve to live."

Both women fell silent as they watched the devastated doctor check on his patient. The next time Patrick spoke, he was so quiet and menacing.

"Jason will wake up soon. In the meantime, I suggest the both of you leave so your precious Mob enforcer can live another day to kill more people."

Carly went to retort, but Patrick gave her a scowl. Her eyes fell to the floor as Sam went to comfort Patrick.

"Just don't. I don't need your condolences. I just need you to get out of here."

With that, both women left the doctor in the room. They gave each other a look as they walked down opposite ends of the hospital.


Elizabeth closed the front door behind her. She hung up her coat on a hook and sat down on the couch. She stared at the wall, tears threatening to fall. She heard steps on the stairs and turned around to see Lulu.

All the pain, I want it to end
But I want it again

"I thought you were going over to Patrick's?"

Elizabeth shook her head and turned back around. Lulu sat down next to her.

"I was in her driveway, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't physically open the door and walk in her house. It didn't feel right."

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins

Lulu sighed as she wrapped an arm around Elizabeth's shoulders.

"I don't know what to say to make this better."

Elizabeth dryly smiled at Lulu.

"I don't think there's anything that could be said to make this better."

Lulu squeezed Elizabeth's shoulder and sighed.

"I'm sorry you're the one that had to call me."

Lulu shook her head as she watched the woman she considered a sister fall apart in front of her eyes.

And it's raging
The fight inside is breaking me again

"Me too."

After an hour of crying, Elizabeth told Lulu she could go. Lulu wasn't sure, but Elizabeth insisted she just wanted to be alone.

The pain was unbearable. She had lost so much in the last five years. First Emily was murdered, then Jason left her for good, and Jake died less than a year ago. Nik left and so did Lucky. Now Robin's dead. Why did she have to be the one to lose everything? What had she done wrong to deserve this horrible fate? She was all alone in this world. She closed her eyes as she succumbed to the pain that would never ever leave her.

It's still the same, pursuing pain
Isn't worth the light I've gained

The nightmare woke her back up. She sat up in a hurry, sweat on her face and panting. She wiped a hand across her face and checked her watch. She had fallen asleep for two hours. She tried to gather her bearings, but stopped when she saw Cameron sitting on the floor in front of her.

We both know how this will end
But I do it again

"Mommy, are you okay?"

Elizabeth nodded her head, but she felt so far from okay. She motioned for Cameron to come over. He got up and sat in her lap. She closed her eyes as she held her eldest son in her arms.

"I just had a bad dream."

"I hate those."

Elizabeth let out a small laugh as she kissed her son.

"Do you know what the best part of them is?"

Elizabeth looked down at Cameron.

"What?"

"They're not real."

A single tear rolled down her cheek as she pulled her son closer to her, praying that somehow her and her boys would get through this nightmare that was very real.

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins


He felt the light creeping towards him, growing brighter by the second. He couldn't escape it, only embrace it. His eyes opened slightly, but then closed again at the pain of the lights.

And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

"Jason?"

He opened his eyes again, this time he felt a hand on top of his.

"Jason? Thank God you're awake!"

He saw his wife sitting next to him, rubbed her hand across his forehead.

"I thought you were never going to wake up. I was so scared that I would have to raise our child by myself."

Jason shook his head, not being able to speak yet.

"Let me go get Patrick."

Jason shook his head again.

"Jason, you need to listen to him."

Jason gave up as Sam left the room. Soon she came back with a reluctant Patrick behind her. Jason saw something different about Patrick. His posture was slightly closed and his usual confident self was quiet. It was disheartening to watch Patrick check him; he wasn't even talking to Jason.

"Well, he's stable and it seems the surgery was a success."

Jason touched Patrick's hand, wanting to thank him, but Patrick jumped back from his hand as if it burned him.

"We'll keep him here for another day to make sure he's okay, and then he should be able to go home."

"Thank you so much Patrick."

Jason caught the look exchanged between Patrick and Sam. Something was seriously wrong and he needed to know. Patrick didn't even acknowledge that he heard her as he left the room.

"Sam, what's going on?"

"Jason, I'm so glad you're okay."

Jason mentally rolled his eyes as she purposefully avoided his question. She kept avoiding it, and he was growing angrier by the minute. Finally he asked her to leave, that he was tired. She was shocked and hurt, and he could see it in her eyes. He felt bad because he was hurting her, but she was lying to him about something.


Patrick sat down in the chair, despair rolling in waves as he looked over at the door to his little girl's room.

"I don't know if I can do this without you. I don't think I can do this alone."

He looked into empty space, praying for an answer or a sign from his dead wife. It was almost as if she was right there helping him when he heard a quiet knock on the door.

"Come in."

He turned around, half expecting to see Robin standing in the doorway, but of course it wasn't.

Tears starting rolling down his face again as he watched his wife's best friend walk in and close the door behind her. He stood up to hug her, which she returned. She held onto him, feeling the exact same way he did, understanding everything that he was feeling. It felt good to be held by someone like this. She let go and stood in front of him, tears on her face as well.

And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under

"I'm so sorry. Lulu called and told me, and I just don't... I can't believe this is all happening."

Patrick nodded his head as he fell back into his chair. Elizabeth set her purse down and sat down on the table across from him, hands in her lap.

He didn't know what to do or what to say, so he just said whatever was going through his mind at the moment.

"For a second there, when there was a knock on the door, I don't know, I thought maybe it was going to be robin. I guess this is all just a nightmare, you know?"

Elizabeth nodded in complete understanding as she held his hand in comfort, trying to give any possible strength she had left in her to him.

"I know. It doesn't make any sense."

Patrick let out a sigh and let go of her hand. He couldn't even say her name out loud anymore, it just hurt too much.

"She worked really hard on Jason's protocol. It worked."

He looked up at Elizabeth's surprised face. He frowned as he noticed that she looked relieved.

When she heard him say that Jason's name, it still sent a stab to her heart. It still hurt to think about him and what they shared together. Then when he said it worked, she oddly felt relieved. Even though she and Jason weren't close anymore, she was still glad that he was going to be okay. She had lost everyone close to her heart; she couldn't bear to lose another.

"The protocol worked?"

"Yeah, I just finished the procedure and it looks like Jason's going to pull through like he always does."

She saw the anger in his eyes towards Jason, and frankly she couldn't blame him. He must be feeling betrayal towards Jason because Robin died trying to save him. She couldn't help but feel happiness knowing Jason is alive.

"Thank you."

"Yeah, he's going to have a long happy life, but robin won't. Neither will Emma or I."

Elizabeth decided it was now or never that she told Patrick what Robin had made her promise.

"Patrick, when Robin thought her meds were failing her, she asked me to look after you and Emma. I promised her I would. I'm not going to break that promise."

Patrick looked surprised at first, but then dryly smiled as he thought of course Robin would make sure he was looked after, like he couldn't take care of Emma by himself. He knew he couldn't, she even knew him more than he knew himself before she died.

"I gotta go tell Emma. I can't physically get up."

Another tear rolled down his cheek as he thought about telling his daughter that her mother is never coming back. Elizabeth leaned forward to comfort one of her closest friends.

"You need to think about that little girl waiting for you and how much she needs you."

Patrick nodded his head as he drew a hand down his face.

"I know, I know."

He was about to get up and tell the inevitable to his daughter when said daughter came running out of her room and leapt into his arms. He looked over at Elizabeth, who was already breaking down.

"Is Mommy home?"

Patrick sighed and wiped away his tears as he held the only thing closest to Robin in his arms. He looked over at Elizabeth once again, but she had gotten up and moved to leave. She looked at him, but he barely shook his head, as if he needed her strength to tell his daughter.

Patrick got up and sat down on the couch so he could hold Emma properly in his lap.

"Come here. You are getting so big. I have to tell you something very important."

"Okay Daddy."

He pulled a strand of hair in her face behind her ear. He looked into his daughter's eyes and saw Robin staring back at him. He took another breath as he mentally prepared for the worst thing he's ever had to tell anyone.

"There was an accident at the hospital and Mommy got hurt."

He looked at Emma for her reaction, but she just looked confused.

"Does she need a band aid? She can have one of mine with the princesses."

Another wrackful sob tore through him and he had to look away from her daughter. His eyes fell on Elizabeth, begging for help. She conceded.

And without you
The fight inside is breaking me again

Elizabeth sat down next to Patrick and faced Emma. Patrick slightly turned Emma so she was facing Elizabeth. Elizabeth took one of Emma's small hands in hers and gave it a squeeze. He watched as Elizabeth thought of what to say. He felt so pathetic that he couldn't even tell his daughter that her mother's dead, someone else has to do it for him.

"Hi sweet girl. Do you remember when Cameron got that fish for his birthday?"

Patrick looked down at his daughter as she quickly nodded his head and looked back at Elizabeth.

"Yes."

"Do you remember the one he named Tiger? Well one day Tiger didn't feel like swimming around his bowl anymore. He got kinda sick, so we had to take him to the doctor, but the doctor said we couldn't do anything for him, so we had to let Tiger go to heaven."

Elizabeth looked to Patrick to continue, knowing the hard part was over.

"And that's where Mommy is right now."

Emma looked at her dad, slightly understanding what he was saying. He pulled her closer and let his hand comb through her hair.

"When's she coming back?"

Patrick closed his eyes for a second, begging for the strength to finish this.

"Ah, um, baby, she's-she's not going to come back. She's up there with the angels. She's going to be protecting you for the rest of your life, watching over you. She's always, always gonna love you. No matter what, okay?"

"Okay."

Patrick sighed a breath of relief and heard the same from Elizabeth.

"I love you."

He kissed Emma on the forehead and pulled her in for a hug. He let out all that he was holding and cried into her hair. At some point, he felt Elizabeth squeeze his shoulder and he looked up to see her leaving. He mentally made a note to thank her later.


"Sam, please tell me what's going on? Every time I ask you, you just avoid the question like it's the Black Plague or something."

It had been a week and Jason was still in the hospital. Every time Patrick checked him, he would say he would need to stay for another night of observation. Jason knew he was feeling better and well enough to go home. He carefully watched as Sam sat down next to him, unusually silent.

He sighed in frustration and turned his head away from her, refusing to look at her. When someone knocked on his door, he was surprised and slightly relieved that Carly was standing in the doorway. She looked nervous, which was very out of character.

He went to say something, but Sam beat him to the punch.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

He looked at Sam in surprise at her animosity towards Carly. He knew that they rarely got alone, but Sam was very angry with Carly.

"I'm visiting my friend to make sure he's okay."

"Sam?"

She looked back at Jason anxiously. He looked to Carly, who was also as confused.

"What's going on Sam?"

Sam continued to stare at Jason.

"You haven't told him?"

"Shut up."

"Sam!"

He was getting really pissed off. He hated playing games. He watched as tears gathered in Carly's eyes as she walked to sit next to him.

"Carly, get the hell out!"

"Make me."

Jason looked at Carly, then at Sam.

"Security!"

"Jason, there's-"

"Carly, not now!"

"What's going on?"

Jason looked up to see Sonny standing in the doorway.

"I have no fucking idea."

Patrick and Monica entered the room after Sonny. Jason was completely confused.

"Monica, please tell Carly she has to leave."

"Monica, Jason needs to know what happened."

"What happened?"

Jason looked from one person to the next. Sam looked nervous, Sonny looked depressed, Patrick's stare was empty, Monica stared at him in pity, and Carly looked downright close to pieces.

"Is somebody hurt?"


Elizabeth got off the elevator, glad that she was back to work. Monica had called her this morning to tell her about Maxie's confession. She apologized to Elizabeth for the mistake and asked if Elizabeth could come back. Elizabeth understood and thanked Monica for offering her job back. She quickly dropped Cameron off at school and Aidan at daycare.

It's nothing
(It's everything)

Elizabeth walked up to the nurse's station and checked the charts for the patient's that were in today. Her heart skipped a beat at seeing Jason's name on one of the charts. She then thought of Robin and how devastated he must feel right now. He has to be feeling the same way she was feeling. He had also lost Emily, Jake and now Robin.

It's nothing
(It's everything)

She decided to go check on him and left to go find his room. Nearing his room, she heard shouting and stopped right outside the door.

It's nothing
(It's everything)

"Is somebody hurt?"

That was Jason's voice, so he must be awake.

"Jason, it's about-"

"Carly, he can't know."

"Sam, what the fuck is going on?"

It's nothing
It's everything

Elizabeth pictured Jason sitting in his bed, livid at his wife. The tone of his voice was so angry and frustrated.

"Jason, I can't tell you."

"Why not? I want to know. Stop lying to me."

"Jason…"

Elizabeth picked up on Sonny's voice.

How many people are in there?

"Sonny, I'm tired of these games."

"I know."

It was quiet, and Elizabeth held her breath. Jason didn't know about Robin's death.

"Can everyone stop staring at me and tell me what happened?"

"Jason, you are recovering-"

"Monica, please, spare me the sympathies."

Elizabeth was surprised at how cold Jason was to his mother.

"Patrick, what are they talking about? I'm well enough to hear anything right?"

Elizabeth shed a tear at how Patrick must feel. He was in this room where everyone was trying to hide the secret that his wife is dead.

"I can't do this."

Elizabeth watched as Patrick left the room, a hand on his face. She wanted to go after him, but she knew he needed to be alone.

"Jason, there was an accident."

There was Sam's voice again. Elizabeth waited for the next sentence.

"And?"

"Well, it was an explosion in the lab."

The entire room was silent.

"Was anyone hurt?"

"Jase-"

Another tear slid down Elizabeth's cheek as she heard the pain in Carly's voice, begging that Jason would figure out the secret without anyone having to say it.

"Wait, Robin was working on my protocol in there."

Another silent pause between the group.

"Robin…she's-she's okay right? She wasn't in there during the explosion?"

No one answered him.

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins

"Oh God, she's…she's..."

Elizabeth heard a crash.

"Jason, calm down."

Elizabeth heard another crash, someone had been pushed down.

"Jason!"

"Get off me Sonny!"

She heard a fist contact against skin. Jason must have punched Sonny.

And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

"Jason, calm down."

"HOW CAN I FUCKING CALM DOWN? ROBIN'S DEAD!"

There was another crash. Elizabeth wiped at her face and stepped into the doorway. The scene in front of her was frightening.

And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under

Sam was on the floor crying. Sonny was in the corner holding his face. Carly and Monica were trying to hold back a raging Jason.

His whole world was falling apart and nothing could stop the pain he was feeling. He knew he had to keep calm, but he couldn't. Robin can't be dead. She just can't. He was vaguely aware of Carly and Monica's hands holding him down, but the state he was in, he wasn't sure. All he could see was red.

He looked to the doorway to see someone else had walked into the room, someone he had never expected, but glad that they did. He watched as Elizabeth took in the situation, and he oddly felt ashamed that she had to see him like this. He looked down to see his wife crying on the floor, the sight not making him feel any better.

He then looked to Elizabeth, who walked up to him and firmly placed her hands on either side of his face.

And without you
The fight inside is breaking me again

"Jason, can you hear me?"

Jason slightly nodded. Elizabeth sadly smiled at the broken man she was holding. They looked into each other's eyes, not saying anything because there was nothing to be said. Everything they were feeling, the same feelings, were conveyed through their eyes. Finally, Jason broke down in Elizabeth's as she held his head to her chest as the Mob enforcer fought the sobs tearing through him. He gave up the fight inside him.

"Help me."

It's breaking me, it's breaking me
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart


A/N: Wow, that was a long chapter and pretty sad. Hopefully everyone liked the ending. If only this would happen on the show. Sorry for taking long to update. I had this done, but had to edit and then I have been busy the past couple of days. Lyrics are to 'Fight Inside' by Red. Let me know what you think and what you would like to see in upcoming chapters in a review! Until next time!