Zoro busts down the door, set on teaching the blond something.
Sanji looked, startled from his rude awakening. The other, bigger man picks Sanji up like he's a toothpick. And, actually, he's not far from it.
Sanji gets slammed against the wall, hard. The blond closes his eyes, and feels other than sees Zoro trembling. From fear, or anger, who knew.
I deserve this. Break every bone in my body. I fucking deserve this.
Zoro has Sanji a couple of inches above the ground. He's seething with frustration.
But Sanji can the that it's quickly dwindling to sadness.
Zoro presses his face against Sanji's chest. His strong arms wrap around the skinny blond and hold him close.
Sanji begins trembling as well. This wasn't how it was supposed to go. Zoro was supposed to find someone new. Zoro was supposed to find someone who wasn't toxic. He was supposed to go out and fall in love with someone and be fucking okay.
"Sanji, you'll be okay. Alright? I can't... I can't just leave you, I can't just turn my back on you. You'll be fine. We'll be okay," Zoro rasps, and Sanji just shakes his head, because no. It won't be okay. It will never be okay because Sanji always fucks up and he's so screwed up in the head and he's just fucking fucked up.
"Stop," Sanji says simply. Zoro snaps his head up to stare at him.
"What? You won't even try? Won't even attempt?!" Zoro asks, angry once more.
Sanji just shuts down. He can't handle this. Zoro is too perfect for him and he always will be.
He stares off to the side, not daring to even glance at Zoro.
"Fine. Suit yourself. Have fun staying in here for the rest of your miserable life."
And just like that he's gone.
And Sanji's room is plunged into total darkness yet again.
Except now Sanji's crying, while slumped against the wall. Hot tears are running down his cheeks and hands as he attempts to keep quiet.
Zoro deserved better than him. Zoro deserved love. And if Sanji couldn't even get out of his fucking bed, if Sanji couldn't even love himself, then how the hell was he supposed to be good for Zoro?
He deserved better and god, Sanji hated himself.
