Bella was busy going through the change that we were able to fool her into thinking Edward had been there but had just stepped out for a minute. This would have to work for now, although I had no idea what I would tell her when she started to awake from her haze.
It took all the strength I had to not leave the baby's side and hunt Edward and Emmett down and drag them back by their dicks. After all, they were thinking with their dicks and not their brains. How the fuck could they leave right when Bella was changed and just had a baby?
I was mad as hell but I wanted to try to be there for Bella and the baby. I know I didn't always treat Bella the best but I was just so fucking jealous that she had it all. She had a man who loved her, who she could have a future with. She could have had children and enjoyed parenthood. Now, she was a newborn single mother and I couldn't help but have some sympathy for her. Me and her were both in shitty situations, with her being the worst off.
I kinda hoped Bella would let me play mommy with the baby once in a while. Well, actually that's what I had been doing. When I wasn't in the room with Bella, I was taking care of the baby. I got tired of calling her 'baby' and had given her a name, but knew Bella would decide on a permanent one once she woke up.
On the third day of Bella's transformation, she seemed so clear headed and read to talk. I wasn't expecting her to be so coherent so soon. I had a speech planned out of what I was going to say but I thought I had a little more time to prepare and get it right.
When she awoke I could hear her say softly, "Hello? Where is everyone?"
I went into the room along with Carlisle and Esme.
"Hey, Bella. How have you been feeling?"
"Um I'm ok. I've definitely been better." Bella replied.
"Yeah, I still remember how rough it was the first few days." I told her.
"Rose, Where is Edward. I know I haven't seen him for a few days. I want to know why you have all been lying and where he's been?"
She had begun to pace up and down the room. I was so afraid of how she was going to react. She was a newborn so she would most likely have a bad temper and could hurt something or someone. It would be better if she would sit so I could restrain her if I had to. I was just going to be honest. I'm not known for beating around the bush and I wasn't about to start now.
"Bella, please sit down."
"Rose, just tell me. I've had a bad feeling so just get it over with."
I paused and took a deep breath.
"Well, Edward left. Him and Emmett left when the baby was born. Emmett found his singer, your baby is Emmett's singer. They left a note right after you gave birth to your baby."
As much as I was mad at the both of them, I tried to restrain myself from making this worse for her. I tried to my hardest to break it to her easily, although any thing I told her wouldn't really help.
"What?"
"They left."
"Why didn't someone else go with him, like Jasper or Alice?"
"Well, Edward is the only one who can protect your baby. He's protecting her by keeping Emmett away."
Shit. I didn't know how I was gonna tell her the rest of the news.
"No, you're leaving something out. I can tell on your faces. Just tell me."
"I have the note. Here."
I handed her the note and she carefully read it. The realization slowly crept up on her face. She looked utterly shocked and devastated.
"H-how...how could he do this to me again? He said he would never leave me again. And he didn't just leave me, he left our baby."
She stood there frozen for what seemed like ages. Being as she was a newborn, I was expecting some kind of aggressive or hostile outburst but she just stay there. I didn't know what to do.
After a few minutes she seemed to snap out of it. She asked me, "Where is my baby. Can I see her?"
"I'm not sure if that's the best idea. Bella you are a newborn. Her blood will be too much for you to handle right now."
"She's my baby. I would never hurt her." Bella looked pleadingly at us.
"Well, Carlisle, what do you think?" I turned to ask him.
"I think we can trust her enough to not harm her own child. We'll just keep close by in case we need to intervene."
I wasn't sure this was the best idea given the news I had just given Bella but I think maybe that's what she needed, to see her daughter. I hoped her love would over power her blood thirst.
I came back a few minutes later with Jasper. Carlisle had given us the go-ahead to use Jasper's gift to calm Bella down a bit. Carlisle and I would be there to restrain her if necessary.
"Alright Bella, are you ready to meet your baby girl?"
"Yes." She looked nervous but looked collected.
We entered the living room where Esme, Alice, and Jacob were surrounding the baby. I'm positive Alice would see anything bad coming and Esme had killer maternal instinct and would do anything to protect the baby. The stupid dog was very protective of the baby as well and would do anything to keep her safe, no matter how much I didn't want to admit it.
Bella approached the baby at a cautious, human speed as to not alarm any of us. She was holding her breath to keep from smelling the baby's scent. She released her breath before she approached and breathed in an unnecessary breath to accustom herself to the baby's scent. We all grew a little tense but relaxed when she continued to walk slowly.
When she reached Emse, she paused and lightly ran a finger over the baby's cheek. We stressed to Bella the importance of her newborn qualities. She would not be able to hold the baby for quite sometime due to her enormous strength. She would have to grow accustomed to her strength before she held her baby.
"She is so beautiful. She's the most precious thing I have ever seen."
"Yes she is. Her beauty doesn't even compare," Esme replied lovingly.
"Bella, what are you going to name her?" Jacob asked.
"Oh shoot, that's right. Does anyone have any suggestion?" Bella asked us.
"How about the nickname Rosalie gave her?" Alice asked.
"Nickname?" Bella looked a bit upset. I hoped I hadn't upset her. This wasn't the time to piss her off. I didn't feel like getting my ass kicked right now by a newborn.
"Yeah I just started calling her by a nickname so I wouldn't have to keep calling her "baby" anymore." I tried to dismiss it as if it was nothing.
"Well, what's the nickname?" Bella asked us impatiently.
"Um, I call her Emma. I've always loved that name. It's the name I had chosen out for when I was still human and thought I would've been able to have children. The name I would've chosen for my little girl."
Bella looked lost in thought for a moment then said, "Well, Rosalie if you don't mind, could I use the name?
"Well, I guess I can let you have that name, seeing as how I'm never having kids of my own."
"What about a middle name?" asked Alice.
"How about Emma Rose?" Bella replied.
"That's perfect." Emse said. Her voice cracked a bit and I could tell she was getting a bit emotional. Good 'ol Esme always getting so fucking emotional.
I was happily surprised by Bella's response but tried not to show it. I didn't want them all to think I had gone soft. Honestly, though, I was beyond thrilled. If I could have shed tears, I definitely would have. This was the closest I was going to get to parenthood and I would gladly take what I could get. My niece was going to have the name I chose and a part of my name. .
I was speechless but quickly recovered when I remembered Bella had to hunt and Emma had to eat. Luckily, Emma had gotten the human part of needing to nourish her body with food. We were quite glad she didn't need to feed off of animals. It would've been difficult for a child to endure the thirst and having to suffice it with animal blood. We weren't quite sure which characteristics of hers would be human or vampire, but we would just have to wait it out and see.
"Bella, I'm sorry to interrupt but its time for you to go on you first hunt. I think you have strength enough to get the blood yourself instead of us feeding it to you. Carlisle, Jasper, and I will all go with you to keep an eye on you."
Bella scrunched up her face in disgust but knew it was either animals or humans. She knew with Carlisle around, the latter wasn't an option. Our property was pretty secluded but I hoped no humans crossed Bella's path or they would be in some serious trouble.
We set off for our hunt and immediately found deer and a few grizzly bears. We heard a noise in the distance and before we could voice our concerns, Bella had taken off towards the humans. I prayed to God we would reach her before she reached them. Edward was the fastest one of us but the fucking bastard wasn't here. I had almost reached Bella when I collided with her and that fucking mutt. I was so preoccupied with getting Bella, I didn't catch the scent of the wet dog.
We were a tangle of arms and legs and I felt a hand graze my ass. I was gonna give that fucking dog a piece of my mind but then I remembered Bella. Jacob had her pinned down on the ground and she flipped him on his back and took off again. Guess I would have to give Jacob a piece of my mind later.
I took off after Bella but Jasper kept running and tackled Bella. They skidded to a stop when I reached them she was thrashing about. It took Jasper, Carlisle, and I to restrain her. Jacob reached us and took Bella's face in his hands.
"Bella, look at me. Those are innocent people. You need to get your head on straight. Stop breathing and try to forget their scent for a minute. You were just a human. Remember who you were. Remember your parents."
With that, she stopped struggling.
Carlisle spoke first. "Alright, she's had enough for one day. Let's go home."
Jacob took Bella's took a firm grip on Bella's hands and led her toward the home. The rest of us walked behind in case she decided to change her mind and turn around. Well, I had to give it to the fucking mutt, he sure knew how to calm her down. Shit. This meant he was gonna be around all the damn time. This was just fucking great.
