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Letting Go
BPOV
Immediately, my lips disconnected with Edward's and my eyes frantically turned to Jacob. He had a wild look in his usually warm brown eyes, and he fixed a cold menacing glare on us, his lips curling back like he was preparing to snarl. Edward remained close to me and was still holding me, but I broke free of his grasp to try and get to Jacob. Edward's arms kept me from going very far, though.
"He's not safe right now, Bella," He whispered, his eyes firmly resting on mine, trying to get me to see reason.
"Edward, he'd never hurt me, and it's not your job to protect me anymore," I retorted, wishing he'd release me so that I could console Jacob.
I again sought out Jacob's eyes, and found that they were still cold and now, he was trembling. My eyes widened and I fought Edward's hold harder. Jacob was so close to phasing, I could tell. I didn't blame him, though. I could only imagine what he must think.
"Jake, please let me explain," I whispered, staring into his angry eyes.
Tears welled up in my eyes and threatened to slide down my face, but his eyes remained dark with fury. Suddenly, Edward's hand appeared on my face, wiping a stray tear away from my cheek. Jacob growled and his body twisted and contorted and before I could say anything, Edward tossed me onto the couch. I landed hard, my back popping with the force of the blow, and my face grimaced with pain. But, I was alright. I immediately flipped over and sat up, my eyes finding Jacob.
He was a wolf now, a giant russet colored wolf. He was utterly beautiful, and I longed to touch him, but he was in all battle mode now. He stalked toward Edward slowly, and I could hear the low snarl in the back of his throat. Edward looked just as serious as Jacob did, and his eyes turned black as he just stood there, waiting for Jacob to make the first move. They were going to fight…in my living room…great.
"No, please, stop!" I yelled, trying to distract the two men from trying to kill each other.
Neither Edward nor Jacob paused to look at me. They didn't even acknowledge that they'd heard me. I had to reason with them, or find some way to get Edward to leave. I looked at Edward and saw the cold plains of his face as they broke into an evil snarl.
"No!" I forced through clenched teeth as I jumped up and put myself between them.
Jacob growled and peered at Edward's marble face from over my shoulder. I heard Edward hiss behind me and I sternly told him, "Stop it!"
I turned my gaze back to Jacob. "Let me explain, Jake. Please."
His wolf eyes remained cold and angry, but his posture relaxed a little. The bristling of his fur began to recede as he looked in my eyes and saw…well, I don't know what he saw, but I hoped it was enough to get him to stop trying to kill my ex-boyfriend.
Jacob backed away from me and moved toward the other end of the room, standing against the wall. I figured this was because he wanted to be as far away from Edward as possible. I turned my gaze back to the vampire and set my jaw before I spoke firmly to him.
"Leave, Edward. Now," I told him.
He glanced back and forth between Jacob and me, but then sighed and began walking toward the door. He paused just before he was out of sight and turned to Jacob.
"If you hurt her, mu-"
"GO!" I yelled, wishing he was gone already so that I could try to calm Jacob down.
He looked at me, his expression a mix of hurt, surprise, and pride, and then walked out of the door and out of my life. Now, to deal with my best friend, the love of my life, who was hurting because of me.
I hesitantly turned around and saw Jacob standing to his full height in wolf form and walked slowly toward me. He was taller than me, even like this, and I had to gaze up at him when he reached me. His beautiful eyes were full of hurt now as he looked at me, all anger gone. Now, Jacob was just in pain, hurt at seeing me and Edward so intimately together after I'd sworn that I had chosen him.
I felt tears cascading down my cheeks and wiped them away angrily. Jake needed me to explain.
"Jake…," I breathed and reached a hesitant hand up to stroke his head between his ears.
He remained still, but his eyes hardened and I heard a deep growl in his chest.
"I know, I know. Listen, everything I told you last night," I began, staring into Jacob's eyes, " was true. I love you with all of my heart. You are my everything. Edward was here to say goodbye…and to see if I had been telling the truth last night when I told him to leave. The kiss-"
I was cut off by a snarl ripping through the air as Jacob's eyes closed and I knew that he was in severe pain as he twisted to try and get away from me. I hurried toward him before he could get away and wrapped my arms around his furry neck.
"Jake, he asked for a last kiss. I figured he deserved at least that. He's been a big part of my life, and I do still love him, but I've chosen you, and he respects that. This is all such a big misunderstanding," I sighed, burrowing my face into Jake's fur as he breathed deeply, trying to calm himself.
"Please, Jake, I'm sorry it hurt you. It was the last time I'll ever kiss him, Jacob. I only want you, Jake," I breathed, my breath sliding down across his chest. I felt his strong heart beating against my own and found that as Jake's heart slowly slowed to normal and soft beats, they were in sync, two hearts beating at the same time.
He whined close to my ear and I pulled him closer.
"I love you, Jake," I whispered, my tears wetting his fur.
I heard a snapping noise and movement in my arms, and suddenly it was skin I was clinging to.
"Bella," Jacob brokenly whispered into my ear.
The sobs increased ten-fold and I cried into Jacob's chest while he held me fiercely, refusing to let go. His head rested on top of mine and he curled me up into his body. I grasped frantically at his arms, pulling myself closer.
"Jake…I love you," I sobbed as I pulled back to look into his eyes.
They were warm again and filled with unshed tears, no longer black with rage. I gave him a watery smile and brought a hand up to stroke his cheek gently. He leaned into my touch, but there was still pain in his eyes.
"Bella, how do I know that's t-true?" He asked, his voice catching at the end.
I whimpered and stood on my tiptoes, trying to bring my face closer to his. He helped me a little by dipping his head down. I looked deep into his eyes and brought my lips to his, closing my eyes and pouring everything I had into that kiss, our tears mixing together. He returned it ferociously, pulling me roughly into his body and claiming my mouth with a passion I had never experienced. His lips ravaged my mouth, almost to the point of pain. But, I took it, trying to reassure him that I loved him, that I was his.
We broke away, both of us panting. Jacob's eyes were black with passion, and I caught my breath as his eyes slowly returned to normal.
"Jacob, I love you because no one makes me feel like that. No one has ever kissed me like that, no one has ever loved me like you do, and I've never loved anyone like I love you. I've hurt you so many times," I spoke, and Jacob buried his face into my shoulder, hiding from me, "and still, you love me even though I don't deserve it. I love you because you're Jacob, my best friend and the only thing in this world that I couldn't live without."
Jacob sobbed into my shoulder, emotionally spent. I cradled him to me and just let him cry. His tears were dampening my shirt, but I could care less. I gently rubbed circles on his back, trying to calm him.
"I love you, Bells," He whispered, his warm breath on my neck making me shiver.
I pulled him closer and hugged him tighter to me. My Jacob still loved me, even after seeing me kiss Edward when I'd told him that I loved him, on top of everything else I'd done to him.
"I love you, I love you, I love you…," I breathed, hoping that he's never doubt it again.
After letting Jacob have his cry, we were both emotionally exhausted, so we went to sit on the couch. Jacob then remembered his nudity and I went outside to get him a spare pair of shorts from the Rabbit, which he'd apparently driven over here.
I brought them back in and handed them to him. He had a cover over his lower body and rose with the blanket and went to the bathroom to put the shorts on. When he returned, I pulled him down next to me and curled into his body, sighing as his body heat warmed me immediately.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I shouldn't have phased like that. I should have-"
"Jake, you reacted normally…well, normally for a teenage werewolf, anyway," I giggled, and was overjoyed when he joined me.
"I just…am scared that this is all a dream and that he's going to waltz back in here and steal you away from me…again," He spoke softly, as he put his arm behind my head and began stroking my shoulder.
I looked up at him. "I'm yours, Jake. He can't have my heart, because I've given it to you," I replied, smiling.
He returned my smile and squeezed me to him briefly. "I'm glad, Bells. You don't know how long I've wanted…"
He looked uncomfortable, so I pulled away from him and rose to his height, my knees on the couch, and covered his mouth with mine. He returned my kiss and wrapped me up in his arms. I was so happy that he was here, kissing me, still in love with me. I was afraid that he'd reject me after having hurt him again.
His mouth left mine to kiss his way down my jaw line and then he rested his head on my shoulder, nuzzling into my neck. Yeah, we'd be alright now. Jacob was here, he loved me…we were going to be alright.
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