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It's still told from Penny's pov

Waking up from my sleep I opened my eyes and looked around in the hospital room the bed I laid in was put in. I couldn't turn my head much, my neck felt stiff and achy and so did the rest of my body. I remembered that seizure… but how did I end up here?

I remembered I had laid in another room, but it wasn't this room because there I had laid with my head to the other side. And that room hadn't been this big. Also, there had been a woman being pushed in holding onto a vomit bag and I could remember being afraid because I absolutely hated it when I had to watch anyone throwing up, or listen to it, or even smell it. Had she? I couldn't remember that.

The room I laid was a big one for being a hospital with space for four beds, two on the side that I laid on, with one bed further away from the window and closer to the door from where I laid. And two on the other side of the room. The beds on the other side were both empty, but on the other side on the curtain right by my bed, I could hear a person and a nurse talking.

"Of course we can't make you stay if you don't want to or you don't feel like you have to. But we'd highly suggest you stay. And if you don't want to stay we have got some papers you need to sign if you don't want to stay so that we can show that we have suggested you'd stay but you still left"

"I can sign them"

When the talking stopped I also stopped listening. And when I looked around me, just to be sure. But Leonard wasn't there and I was all alone. I could hear the woman on the other side of the curtain leaving, and could see the streetlights on the hospital's parking lot. I could see a car pulling over and parking. And even though I couldn't see the rest of the car from the headlights. Maybe, maybe it could be Leonard coming back. Because I could remember he had been here with me earlier, although when I watched a person I could barely see, but too tall to be my Leonard. I was so far gone in my own thoughts and self- pitying I flinched when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry I left." Leonard took my hand after walking around and sat down in the chair next to the bed. "You know, I drove in the car after the ambulance. And Sheldon insisted he was coming with me. But he wouldn't come inside so I left him in the car. And I just went outside for a minute to check so he was alright. And so I came outside and he was so angry with me for not driving him to work so he had trashed some old receipts and so and left them on my seat. Eaten a piece of chocolate that was there and broken my sunglasses. But I think that in the end, he was angrier with himself than with me. But you know how he is, and refuse to realize he's done anything wrong. And just started babbling about what he missed at work today. Seriously, I had to turn my phone off in the hospital. And when I turned it on I had a hundred and fourteen missed calls from him. A hundred and fourteen! And I'm lucky that wasn't eight hundred and fourteen." Leonard sighed and pulled a hand through his hair. "I'm sorry honey." He squeezed my hand, leaned forward and leaned his chin against the rail around the bed. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left, and I shouldn't be complaining about Sheldon."

"It's okay." I whispered and fought the lump in my throat back. "Sheldon is Sheldon… What are you doing?" Leonard had pulled up his phone out of his pocket and when I asked- obviously too loud he held a finger to his lips.

"You're actually not allowed to use a cellphone in this part of the hospital. It could mess some machines up. But I'm just going to send out to Howard and the guys what is going on. Is that okay with you?" I nodded quickly and Leonard pressed send and laid his phone at the rolling table by the bed and stood up. "I just need to go to the bathroom." He walked over and disappeared through the door to the bathroom, and not a second later I realized that Leonard had forgotten to turn his phone off again when I heard an answer come. I took the phone up and saw that it was from Sheldon and quickly pressed to see what he had written.

Have you thought of everything that seizures probably be because of? It could be because of strokes, brain bleeds, skull fractures, brain tumors…

I didn't read any longer, instead I just broke down crying and regretted that I had ever read the text message. What if I had a tumor? Damn it, what if I had cancer? What if the lump in my abdomen was cancer and it had spread up into the brain and caused the seizure? How long would I have left then? Damn it, I didn't want to die yet!

"Hey." Leonard came out from the bathroom and rushed over to me, where he wrapped his arms around me. "Are you okay?" I nodded to the phone and Leonard moved one of his arms to check what it was. "Sheldon I'm gonna kill you!" He couldn't have had the time to read it all and I broke down even worse. "Hey. Don't worry about it. I'm sure it's nothing that bad. You are young and healthy and the risk of that is almost zero. I'm sure it's just stress or an infection or something else." Leonard suddenly looked up and looked to something behind me. "Nurse?"

I turned around to see a nurse standing there, and the only reason I could find that she was here was that they would finally have some answers for me. And while she drew a breath to start talking I felt my heart start beating in my chest. While at the same time I kept on having a feeling that no matter what it would be okay.

"We did this x-ray of your brain and we have gotten the results. And as far as we can see there are no bleedings nor any fractures or anything like that…"

"And no tumors?"

"No tumors." I finally breathed out and sunk back against the pillow. Finally my heart rate was back to normal and despite the feeling that it was going to be okay it felt like I could breathe again. "Anyway, the blood we drew show some anemia. So… Have you noticed you have bled more than usual during period or…" I shook my head- no. "Okay, well. Anemia of this kind, with low iron levels is quite common. However, when we first figured it out we gave you some blood so we won't do anything right now. And we'd like to keep you here for observation for the night." I nodded- to me it was just clear that if they wanted to keep you in hospital you really should stay. "And we'll be back in the morning." I nodded again. "And then in some while you'll get some letter asking you to come for an EEG and they'll check the brain activity to figure out why you had those seizures." I nodded. "Okay, well, it's late so you could sleep or whatever you want." I nodded again and pulled the blanket tighter around me.

"I'll go home for the night." Leonard told me and touched my forehead with his lips. "I'll have my phone on loudest volume so if something happens don't hesitate to call me. And I'll be right here tomorrow morning." I nodded slightly. I didn't want him to leave but I was too tired to protest, and with that I just watched Leonard leave. And just after checking that lump- which was still there. I fell into dreamless sleep.

"Hey." It felt like only a second had passed when Leonard's voice woke me up again. And when I remembered that he had went home, but saw him standing by the bed with a plastic bag in his hand I thought I was dreaming. "I came home, but it didn't feel right to leave you alone here." I tried to give a smile, but it probably ended up more a grimace when I almost started crying with relief about not having to spend the night alone in a dark hospital room. And Leonard put his bag on the floor, laid his jacket on the chair by the window and crawled up by my side just as the nurse came into the room again.

"It is…" I pushed myself up and looked to the nurse. "If I tell you I want Leonard to stay he can…"

"Honey." The nurse rubbed my leg over the blanket. "You don't need to say that. We'd be letting him stay anyway. And I think that if I was here I would like someone I loved to stay with me too. And I'm old!" I gave a weak smile and sunk back into Leonard's arms, closed my eyes and relaxed. While I could still feel the relief of this, at least looking like it would be nothing dangerous filling up warmth in every piece of my body.

And right there, in the arms of the one that I loved. I was protected by his body, and I was safe.

"Leonard?"

"Mhm."

"Thank you for coming back."

"No reason to thank me love."

And with that, I curled up and fell asleep.

I know the chapters in this story aren't that long. But it's all because this story is quite important to me and I don't want to drag on anything. So… it's about the quality not the quantity right? Great! See you next time.

Random fact

Actually, that part with Sheldon eating a piece of chocolate, breaking a pair of sunglasses and trashing paper and leaving it on the driver's seat was what my dog did in mum's car once when my mum had to come with me to the hospital but didn't have time to go and take her outside. I thought it would be kind of humoristic to use Sheldon to do that.