Jessica's keeping the baby so unfortunately for her she can't drink and can no longer go on patrol with Matt. Life sucks but it's no longer hell for her (which is ironic considering she recently became friends with a Devil).
The best next thing to alcohol in Jessica's book is Rocky Road ice cream. Wisely Malcolm had stocked her freezer and the office's freezer after he dumped all the alcohol - hidden and unhidden- in both places while Jessica was still making her decision to keep the baby that was in her. Said earlier freezer Jessica opens before plopping down on her couch that Matt has taken over like some sort of weed.
"Ow!" He cries out as he pulls his legs away from her side of her couch. Jessica doesn't apologize and Matt doesn't ask her to. It's because she's pregnant...or because she has the ice cream and their spoons in her hands. Probably the both actually since this is Matt.
Jessica opens the ice-cream and hands Matt his spoon before she starts digging in.
"So I've been told talking about stuff helps just like jogging. Which are two things that make me feel like crap," Jessica confesses. "I've dealt with my problems through alcohol and recently patrolling with you. I can't do either anymore because I'm knocked up and I'm planning to keep the baby."
Until now Jessica hadn't told anyone that she's decided to keep the baby. (Trish is going to be slightly pissed she told Matt before her.) She stares anywhere- mostly at the ice cream in it's container- but at Matt who's probably beaming like a kid on Christmas morning because of Jessica confession. Matt, the Devil of Hell's Kitchen, is Catholic. Who would have believed that? Anyway Catholics don't like abortions but Matt has actually been cool about Jessica deciding if she going to keep the baby.
...It's appreciated and that's why Jessica sharing her favorite ice-cream with him instead of hogging it.
"Luke's the father," Jessica hasn't told Matt anything about Luke besides the name. Luke left. Left her and (the shitty part about it is that Jessica can't blame him even though she wants to so much) it still hurts but the cruel thing about this shitty world is that life goes on. It always has it always will. No matter if your parents and your younger twirp of brother dies in car crash and you're the only survivor. No matter if you get raped, murder a woman, and are completely helpless the whole time (there are many things in the Jessica's hates and being helpless is one of them). Life goes on when you kill Killgrave and Luke leaves. Jessica is going to try to take a page out of life's book and move on. So far it hasn't worked at all for her which sucks. But Jessica use to sucks so she'll survive; she always has.
"Have I have ever told you how I know Luke?" She hasn't but Jessica is stalling.
"No you haven't." Matt moves his spoon back into the container to scoop more of the chocolatey goodness that is Rocky Road.
"I killed his wife when I was under Killgrave commands," Jessica admits and watches as Matt's spoon pauses for a three seconds before he lifts it out of the container.
"Jessica," he's using the 'stop blaming yourself for your actions that weren't yours' voice. Jessica winces.
"He told me to get rid of her. He didn't say kill her Matt." Jessica eyes are burning but she doesn't cry. She refuses to."So before you say don't you dare tell me it's not my fault because it is."
They eat ice-cream in silence for several minutes. One thing Jessica loves about Matt - keywords 'are loves about' Jessica is not in love with Matt Murdock no matter what Trish thinks- is that he's knows when not to push a subject. It's something she does for him in return whenever his past year comes up.
"After I killed Reva I don't how but Killgrave power no longer worked on me but I didn't know until much later when he returned." Jessica has never told anyone how Killgrave lost his control on her. Jessica has never believed the whole confessing is good for the soul thing until now. She's not confessing though. She's just talking to Matt - to a friend.
"After Killgrave died," Jessica drops her spoon and makes air quotes with her fingers at the Killgrave died. "I found out that Luke and Reva were together and I watched over him." Watch over is an eloquent way of saying stalking. Matt doesn't call her out on it. Matt is firm against not calling out shit in Jessica's eye when he's got the same shit in his eye; aka being a hypocrite. Matt patrols of Hell Kitchen always end up near the apartment that Foggy stays in. He's watches over Foggy like a guardian angel- no a guardian devil. Jessica cracks a smile at that thought.
"We started sleeping together. I didn't tell him. Killgrave came back into my life like the bad penny he is- was." Jessica not going to tell Matt that Luke's powers saved his life that night when the bar exploded or that Luke has powers. It's not her secret to tell.
"Luke wanted to hurt the bus driver that was blamed for Reva'a death who was still driving buses. I couldn't let him. I told him. Then Killgrave got a hold of Luke. He told me he forgave me, that he now understood what it was like to not be able to control your own actions when Killgrave had you under his control. I teamed up with him to hunt Killgrave down to learn that Killgrave still controlled him. After the realization that I wasn't truly forgiven Killgrave ordered Luke to kill me. Luke told me to do what I had to do while fighting him. I shot him and took him to the hospital. That's how I met Claire."
Claire was the person who came up with the idea of them sharing an office when Matt had told her he needed to rent out half his office.
"I left Luke in Claire's hands before I went to handle Killgrave. I killed Killgrave and Luke left soon after. Then Claire showed up at my place asking if I needed a new office considering the sudden popularity. I honestly can't say I that I miss my neighbors and you know the rest."
"When he left did he give you a way to contact him?" Matt asked carefully.
"No. I could find him after all I am a private dick." Jessica smirked as Matt winced at Jessica's preferred term of her job. "But I not. I don't want him to come back just because he knocked me up Matt. I might be considered a bitch because I'm not telling him that he's got a kid but I'm still going to do it. I'm going to have this baby and give him time. It's not like I'm the only single parent in New York. And I'm not going to be alone. I have Trish, Malcolm, and you."
Jessica got up and threw the empty ice cream container in the trash before placing the two used spoons in the sink. She walked over to the couch and sat back down on her side. Jessica fell asleep thinking of how Trish would be called Aunt Patsy, Malcolm as Uncle Malcolm, and Matt would be the "devil uncle."
